Nobody is a stereotype
Isn't that already known?
Then why it that your view of me changes
to match every new one behind?
I've explained how each one isn't true
From the thought that we hate certain people
to the all too common polygamy stereotype
and even more extreme.
None of those are true
So why is it that you decide to trust every so called "expert"
and not what you know in your heart?
You should know that I won't leave you right when I return.
That I won't come home with a fiancé.
I'm not going to get married within a few months of getting back.
You've said that you will wait for me.
I am waiting for you too.
So, why don't you trust your heart?
I know that you hold mine

I know you've kept me up some nights.
I truly don't mind.
It helps to make your dreams bright.

I've lost some sleep
but it matters not.
That time helped your sleep be deep.

You've said I chased the monsters away.
Of course I would.
I love you and want you to stay.

I will gladly dream on, my dear,
because I have you safely near.

You've written poems all titled with initials
Memories of friends of your past
These poems recite the good times you had
Each person remembered fondly
I worry if you'll remember me the same way.
Especially when I know that each person may have helped you, but left you behind in the end.
Writing these poems left you in shambles, haunted by flashbacks.
Were these ever truly friends?
Were the memories worth going back to when the past hurt your present?
When they made you doubt my feelings for you?
Made you forget the months I spent trying to help the ghosts leave you?
Now you ask what I think of these poems.
I can't explain it to you.
I think it's terrible that my time was nearly destroyed because of othere who helped you once.
The past should stay in the past,
Especially when dwelling on it ruins the future.

I don't know what to say.
I want to take you back, but I don't know if I can justify it.
The problem is the same that it has always been.
You've always been more willing to care what other people say than what I do.
If something can placate someone for a little while, you'll do it even if it hurts me. Often especially if.
I don't know what to do...I cannot heal this split so quickly.
Which side do I listen to?
One says "Take her back. You love her. "
The other "She'll only hurt you again."
I cannot decide which is right
and which is wrong!
Curse my dual nature!
Why...
Why am I so terrible?

You told me that you were going to make this a great year.
I've never heard a bigger lie.
Everything has been falling apart
and you blame me for it.
You have sat there and insulted me,
telling me I never do enough,
I don't think,
you don't trust me.
I am your worthless mistake.
I've failed at  everything.
I tell you that I'm doing my best.
I am only human.
"Stop giving excuses. You have a reason for everything."
Shouldn't I have a reason?
Should I do things just because?
Is that what you want?
I am doing what I can.
I want to just whither away and die.
It would be less painful than this.
To have my very being attacked.
I should follow your example?
When you can't even talk to me without vulgarity?
I think not.
All this happens, and you still wonder why I keep it inside myself?
It shouldn't be a surprise.
I can't talk to you about anything.
Why can't you just leave me alone?
Solitude is preferable over this pain

When I encountered fear,
I neither faced it
nor ran from it.
I chose the third option.
I became it.
It became my employ.
But being part of fear has a consequence.
The one closest to me fears me.
I believe she always will.
Because that is what I am.
Something to fear.

Do not worry,
my love.
Everything will turn out ok.
It will all work out in the end.
Even if it does not go as planned,
do not fret.
I will be with you.
No matter what.
I will always take your hand,
and lead you through the hard times.
Keep hope,
and stay faithful.
We will make it.
I can promise you that