lay your head down to rest
don't think any more
relax, breathe and stay calm
and forget your day's worries
"you're safe now"
I'd whisper softly into your ear
I pulled you close
and nuzzled into your chest
I soothed you and sung quietly
to the tune of your favourite songs
and I told you I loved you
but you'd already gone to sleep

I said that we should stay here together
until we've finished counting
every single star in the sky
but you simply turned to me
and whispered softly in my ear
"I don't really have time"

the skies are beginning to fade away
into an empty nothingness
black and darkened
like the shadows beneath your bright eyes
and you walk the pebbled roads
late in the night
waiting for someone to call out on
the wisp of a girl
with her light messy hair and scattered thoughts
her blue eyes that can set hearts alight
and the patter of rain against her dainty bones
she waits
each
and
every
night
for someone to save her bruised soul
she waits for her saviour
on a desolate road
that leads to
nowhere

i just want to run really far away
and be able to escape everything
that is holding me back and stopping me from finally
getting a little bit better

i want to run so far
but first i would like to just
stop

i would visit that old american style diner
sit on the plump worn leather
crimson red
and just replay all of the sickening things
you
said to me whilst we sat here and ate
like nothing was wrong at all

right now, i really would like to just disappear
run far far away, to an abandoned village
or a deserted town or
a forest in the middle of nowhere

i want to get out, and see a place
where there are no maps
or directions, or ways to act
and people to be

to escape to a world, where i can be carefree
and let all of my worries abandon me
let go of my sadness in a flowing stream
and finally see what it means to be me

no way in which i must act and pretend
not a reason to be fake or something that
i simply cannot ever believe
no inhibitions or falseness

just a broken mind and a hollow heart
roaming in a place that they can finally
surrender and abandon a convincing façade
so convincing that they almost believe it themselves

finally finding oneself in their purest form
is something i can only ever dream of
because i am made up of so many things
and so many people it just seems impossible