it was almost as though ten thousand moons
shone through your irises
but I still felt like I was fumbling my way
through an endless tunnel
desolate and alone
in complete darkness
        vulnerable
with no guidance
even though you claimed to be by my side

a hand to hold
a shoulder to cry on
                    the usual clichés
                    few are able to find

all that's left of you and I
is the worn out sweater that you left behind
and when I miss you
I throw it over my fragile bones
pretend its you

wrap it round and round and round my body
                          it's huge on me, you know
                          I haven't been eating so much since you've been gone
lonliness           (or maybe insanity)
has driven me to the point
of missing someone
I never even knew

in some ways I believe
there is a world beyond our own
so much greater
so much more beauty

but then I listen to the raindrops
fall softly against my skin
and watch as the sun climbs out
and the rain and sun come together
            complete opposites
to create the elegance of a rainbow

I watch in awe as fields of rolling bluebells
blow so softly in the breeze
and I listen to the wind
whispering stories to the trees
and the birds chirping back a response

the mystique of the moon and the wonders that it holds
the secrets of women and men that it has never told
I watch as the stars glow softly
thinking that maybe there cannot be a place
even half as beautiful as this

she kissed with hungry lips
and reminisced on the times
that cherry blossom petals
would be enticed to her crown
and plant themselves
so softly
and delicately
upon her being
she thought of the soft embrace
the warm summer air
would surely give to her
      never too tight, never feeling forced
      just comforting
and the way the fragile grass
would soften every tumble
every footstep further into the world
and every adventure yet to come
and that was what this sort of love
reminded her of

she looked deep into the eyes
of a boy whom she knew
would never be hers
         'never in a million years' she was told
and she knew that this was true
but her eyes would not falter
her gaze could not move
and there was something about this boy
            that she admired so truly
            and so deeply
and her mind could not begin
to fathom what it was
it was incomprehensible
and it broke her down
into the tiniest shards
of confusion and admiration

the pools of blue in this boys eyes
were like endless oceans
of pure wonder
and thoughts so intricate
no mind could decode
the secrets of the waters
that lie behind those irises

I wish I could tell you how
you make me feel
like ten thousand stars
are nothing compared to your eyes

and I wish I had the capability
to describe the butterflies
that occupy the entirety of my tummy
whenever you are around

I want to be able to let you know
that your smile brings sunshine
to the stormiest of days
and the darkest nights, alone

I want to tell you how I feel
when your arms wrap around me
keeping me safe from a world
of nothing but false love

I wish you loved me
like I loved you