I shutter as I pray
To the glorious god
Shattered and startled, my beloved is gone
As the mourners throbbed with internal pain
The sun shined that day
But all I saw was black
****** and burned is how you were found
I pleaded and wailed into the air
That is the moment my heart split
All my dreams unraveled that day
As I lay awake at night
I see your arctic shimmering eyes
Your radiant skin against mine
I untangle you in my sleep but the sorrow doesn't ease
Angels I ask of you to embrace my treasured
I will never see what my son looked like
Did he have mommy's eyes?
Or my nose?
As I taste the solitude I can't help but wonder what might have been

Outstretched trees connecting to the roots of the sky
Ashen wind lingering in the distance
An endless supply of illness
As a deathly barrier subsides
Reaching for the blossoming space
As my despair makes the raindrops drown
Surrendering as I collide into release

I'm painted with anguish
As the death of my heart appears
Peace is not my home

In the paper peak is a hidden monster
Speaking forlorn  shadows of the past
Grace at a distance , following high expectations
As animosity heaped into the depths of me
Seduction flared  in the stomach of an angel
A spiteful swim oppressed in my throat
As the red breasted birds, set  the paths that feed hate

Submissiveness and somber
Passions to high
Intolerable sobriety
Inhaling razors at 3 am
Graceful drunk, worthless
Shattered with enslavement
Starving for a bottle of you
Wishing for a fairy-tale life

Submissiveness and somber
Passions to high
Intolerable sobriety
Inhaling razors at 3 am
Graceful drunk, worthless
Shattered with enslavement
Starving for a bottle of you
Wishing for a fairy-tale life

Frost carved a harmonious poem among the trees
As withering driftwood, thirsts for color
The petals weep with ink
Dank obscured whirlwinds that wish to stay
In fields of everlasting growth
I would disentangle my reasoning