Using the bailer to unload my anguish
Like when I was a small child
As the warm shore roughly views the mainland
Where I'd  sail free
Having to use the compass to find my way
I aboard yet I'm drifting away
I see a moon I don't recognize
The curves of the waves seem to fall apart
Running from the ship
Enduring my  pain

Merciless tears hollow the cadavers
Amniotic fluid erupts heavy and pallid
In this sulfur of wildflower sea
Transparent flesh kissing the mouth of ashes
As the hours grow intense
Suicidal mouthfuls of a language down on my knees
Descending mysteriously in roots as the vines bleed
The noise of limitless feathers of the heavens

Pandemonium embarks to the unforgiving provider of the flames
Dancing constantly with poverty and shame        
Cremated, tangled, and warped
Fingers, hands, and arms
This creator has wronged

Beating wings of the caged butterfly
With powder so perfect and clean
Tears begin to stain my wings
Don't smother my veins
I need some time to evolve
Shed my layers
Gathering the strength I will need  
I'm becoming speckled with shades of green
If only you could see
He unobtrusively empties my grace
I try not to encur his madness
I do have eyes I can see

I'm heading north
I will not be returning in the fall
My fragile body will soar soon
Swaying in the powder blue sky
Drinking sweet nectar

In circles I begin to glide
Dreaming of escaping this space
The freedom was always there
I know it's not right
I return
My essence is splintered  can't you see

Bloom into my cherry sea
With Fevered lips losing my way
As desperate kisses come unglued
Drink my honey milk
Dance ,swim , and sway in circles that enchant the way
******* into spiderwebs
Fingers dissipate with no trace

Dying as my eyelashes weep
Blazing dangerously in this heat
Blinding champagne spilling from the stars
Weaving hands into seconds
With the sound of the seeds
Teeth with wings that will never be seen
Oppressing the quivering restlessness
Scraped shadows unspill
Plucked colors of poison
With flesh like pockets of me

On my journey even the sorrow feels grief
As I collapse my sobriety
I try to bury the night
Full of glued eyes and swirled painted dreams
The white wind began to speak to me
Although the sunshine tried to compress  the inevitable
With measureless memories that would surround me
Quivering on the river round
My suffering is windswept out to the sea

Angels say goodnight for all eternity
Depths deepen as I collect the clouds
The heavens sprout a colorful substance I can't explain
Inside the gates I'm born slowly
As the ripped stones lead me to my path
I go forward and follow my flesh
The fluttering ghosts give me the gift of gold

I stuff you inside
Tasting and purging on your taste
Shoving down words that I never knew
I try and get further from you
But I come back again
My belly thrives because of you
Stripes that began to appear
When I see them I feel you
You are the trigger I don't need
The trouble I can't explain

Ashes dance in the air
Assembling an image in my head
Paleness on a deathless face
As I crawl to this brutal realitly
The red tears stream as I weep for you