I imagine it like a scene from a movie.
Where the girl throws herself against a wall of the shower
Tilting her face beneath the stream of water.
You can't tell if she's crying.
She scrubs her skin too hard
Turning herself an unpleasant shade of red.
She's trying to get clean.

Silly girl.

Your innards could use a good scrubbing.

Wondering what you would've looked like

Wondering what your voice would've sounded like

Would you be a gift to the world or a burden to society

Either way I love you.  

Would you be tall or short

Would you be his or his

Would you be my baby boy or my baby girl

Either way I love you.  

Would you be two, twins maybe.

Wondering if your daddy would've left us

And would you have issues like me in 18 years

Either way I love you.

If I wouldn't have aborted you, maybe you'd love me

Maybe I wouldn't hate myself

Maybe you'd say, "Mommy don't cry"and sing me a lullaby

Maybe things would've worked out

Maybe

Either way…… I love you.

I wade in milky bathwater of half-truths and falsities
until my fingers prune with spite toward the pale truth:
It's not me, it's you.
I'd like a thousand stags to trample on your vanity, crushing every ounce of you to dust.
I anticipate the anguish, sweeter than the vanilla-whites of your ugly eyes.
To say I thrive on your unhappiness is cold, but you're so pretty when you cry.

We all win,
We all cheat,
We all lose just to face defeat.
We all learn,
We all yern,
We all **** each other for something we must earn.
We all act,
We all subtract,
We all try to impress someone that doesn't give a crap.
We all use,
We all abuse,
So tell me why man is all about power and *****.
We all chose just to get fame.
We are all dumb enough to sell our souls and brains.
Is it my falt that the just goes insane.
About the ways people act everyday.
Follow what they see so often they get decieved.
No wonder why there wounds starts to eternally bleed.
We all recieve blessings,
But we are so blinded by man made projections,
We can't learn from our last lessons.
So why sin?,
why lie?,
Oh I forgot it's a trend we all do it just to "Get By."
Is it me to believe and achieve something that's higher than high,
Peace out former friends you all can pass by.
As of me I can see the codes,
Where truth unfolds,
**** the person that thinks they controls.
Is it my job to see it? No,
To be it? Yes,
I am blessed, the best yet,
On earth no contest.
My logic, iconic I use my brain as my chronic
So 24/7 I am spiritually high
Seeing heaven skies
watching my mother cry tears of joy
looking at success reign on her little boy.

like
i mean
really
so
um
but
i dunno
i mean
you know
i dunno
but yeah
so
i guess
i
er
you know
i mean
not that
i just
yeah
you get it
right?