Waking up in his arms
                                       Feeling his skin against mine
                                                                         Hearing his voice thick with sleep

                I kiss his Lips

         Snuggled up against the cold
                                                 fitting perfectly against his body
                                                                                        Throw a blanket over us

                         Our own little world

                         Sweet words whispered to each other
                                                         Emotions soaring at their highest
                                                                                               Pure bliss fills the air

                          *Never let this end

I am his lady
and he is my lord
My bodyguard
my protector
an important part of my world

His embrace is the
only place I feel safe.
His every changing eyes
put me in a trance
and hold me captive

His smile is so irresistible
It makes me want to kiss him
It feels so normal
the feeling of his chest
against my head as he
pulls me into his arms.

My heart slowly but surely
becoming completely his.
I cant imagine life without him
Not even for a second
I crave to feel his presence around me.

its scary how easy
those three little words
slip from my mouth
But I mean them
every time

Because he is my lord
And I am forever his lady

His eyes
blue green
mist pools

Look straight
into my
very soul

Awakens something
deep down
inside me

Something Ancient
something pure
something Magical

The mysterious stranger
who thinks he is so sneaky
trying to blend in with the rest of them

But I see his eyes
they harbor a secret
to dark to be told

But that's what draws me near
Makes me want to know him
I'm not afraid of what his eyes say

His distance is intriguing
his failed attempts
to push me away
Only make me get closer

My caring scares him
I can see it in his eyes
I read life times
in those windows

I don't care
if I'm getting
way over my head
he's worth it

I can see it all ready
If I don't guard my heart
I will fall madly in love with him.

I'm about to lose control.
I'll go from nice to dangerous in a flash.
leaving victims helpless in my wrath.
Eyes turning black with anger.
If looks could cause harm
mine would cause the most.
I'm about to lose control.
I'm about to go into absolute
destruction.

Fear is your worst nightmare coming to life.
It's the thing that's gnawing at your imagination
waiting to strike.
when it comes your breathe falls short
and your hands go cold.
your brain says run
but your rooted to the spot
you wonder whats happening to you
fear.
fear is whats happening to you.
once your in its grip
your stuck for life.

I'm a creature of the night.
The shadow in the dark alley.
I'm the whisper you hear in the wind.
Glistening Fangs
A thirst for blood
The Huntress
There is no need to fear me.
I'm no monster.
I'm just a creature of the night.

I love this girl and this guy.
I'm not ashamed to be bi.
Its who i am.
And if you don't like it
tough.
Its who i am.
I'm like everyone else.
Except i like this girl and this guy.
And I'm not ashamed to be bi.

Deep within
is a whole other side of me.
I hardly ever let it out.
Its dangerous and hungry for a fight.

When its out you better hide.
My blood begins to boil.
My anger rising.
I'm about to strike.

My eyes turn black.
My fists turn deadly.
My strength builds.
This is only the beginning.

My other side is wicked.
Its cruel and unforgiving.
It wont take a sorry or a plead for forgiveness.
its on the prowl.

My other side is dormant at the moment.
But its always lurking near the surface.
If i get mad its hard to control.
My other side is a fighter.

You feel like your invisible
Like no one seems to care.
You walk the halls
getting bumped and squashed.
You feel like you're going to lose this thing called life.
So take my advice.

And take time away.
To a different place.
Save it all for another day.
Just Lay down and feel the warm sunshine.
Listen to the music around.
And take time away.
Take time away.

You raise your hand
but the teacher doesn't see.
You go to to your next class
and you see the girls giggling.
They're talking about party's
and the latest boyfriends.
You feel like just letting go.

So take time away.
To a different place.
Save it all for another day.
Spend time with the one you love.
They'll help you understand.
Why life is such a wonderful thing.
so take time away. Take time away.

You feel like you're visible.
And you know someone cares.
You walk the halls
getting recognized.
You feel like you're getting
This thing called life.
And you're so glad.

That you took time away.
To a different place.
And saved it all for another place.
Just laying down with the one you love.
Feeling the warm sunshine.
Ant you glad that you took time away.
Took time away.

When the time
comes you'll know.
That my destiny
will surely show.
And then you'll see
that i'm ready for anything
that comes my way.

But please hurry.
Cuz right now my life feels empty.
What is the meaning
in this crazy world we're living in?
So please hurry.
My destiny.
Cuz right now my life feels so empty.

It's so hard
getting up each morning.
To find it
the same as before.

So please someone.
Save me
cuz right now my life feels empty.
What is the meaning
in this crazy world we're living in?
So save me
My destiny.
Cuz right now my life feels so empty.
Please someone.

Its the shadow
That haunts her mind.
The one who
turns her friends
Into enemies
Her fear.
**Her Nightmare.

Spray from the falls caught the sunlight.
Glittering halo.
Magical and human, healthy and glad.
Swallowed my tears.
Glittering halo.
Our parting bittersweet.
Swallowed my tears.
Hugged long and hard.
Our parting bittersweet.
Patted her cheek one last time and turned away.
One day we'd bee together again the two princesses of Bamarre.
Spray from the falls caught the sunlight.
Patted her cheek one last time and turned away.
One day we'd be together again the two princesses of Bamarre.
Magical and human, healthy and glad.

Dance sing love my life motto.
Dance like there's no tomorrow.
Sing your loudest.
Love more the you heart can take.

Dance when your feeling sad.
Dance when your feeling happy.
Dance in the pouring rain.
It will make you feel SO free.

Sing when you don't know what to say.
Sing when your walking all alone.
Singing makes you feel so confident.
I know from experience.

Love every living thing.
Loving someone make you feel warm inside.
Love is what makes the world go round.
So help the world a little.

Gentle touch.
Passionate kisses.
Driving me crazy.
Filling me with desire.

Bodies pressed close together
Hearts beating as one.
Breaths becoming shallow.
Same thoughts on our minds.

Arms clinging
to one another
to afraid to let go
Not wanting this moment to end

fantasies dance
across closed eyelids
vivid and true
Hopeful and happy

From my eyes
the tears fall,
as the pain
Spreads throughout
My body.
The pain of a breaking heart.

My heart is breaking
right before my eyes.
And worse of all
it's breaking in the hands
Of the one
I'm in love with.

My heart feels like it's been ripped out
stabbed and strangled,
beaten up and run over
then put back
and left
to die.

I don't think it will
ever be able to
love again.
It's broken
far beyond
repair.

Love is like a rose bush,
Beautiful on the outside,
But prickly and painful on the inside.

Love is like a hurricane.
Stormy and grey.
But suddenly peaceful for awhile.
Then back to stormy.

Love is like a conman
Gains your trust completely,
Then steals away everything you have.

Love is hurtful.
Love is hell.
But love can be beautiful
Love can be true.

Love can be like a little kid on Christmas,
Exciting and magical.
Breathtaking and blissful.

Love can be like a sunny day
Warm and fuzzy
Comfortable and safe.

Love can be hurtful or beautiful.
Love can be Hell or true
It all depends
On how you choose to act.

As the midnight hour
Descends upon my world
My mind wanders to the
Place is often visits

The man of my dreams
The feel of his touch
His soft lips on mine
The sense of his love

I close my eyes and there he is
In all his shinning glory
calling to me
with arms opened wide

I don't know how he did it
Captured my heart so easily
I thought I put walls of steel around it
But he broke through them as if they never existed

As I step outside,
the frosty air nips at my nose.
The weak sun hits the lawn,
Making it sparkle like thousands of crystals.

The slippery ice threatens,
to make me fall and slid.
I breathe out my mouth,
and watch the breath float in gray puff.

The wind swirls around me,
In a winter ballet.
The trees swaying,
to and fro.

No sounds can be heard,
as I walk quickly up the street.
The gray sky looks peaceful,
as if its hibernating.

The air is chilling me,
right down to the bone.
The wind keeps dancing,
and kissing me with its Winter kiss.

I miss the feeling of your body
pressed tightly against mine
as I held you in my arms

I miss the smell of your skin
when we would curl up in your bed
and cuddled all night long

I miss the way your head felt
as it rested on my chest
when we would lay on the couch watching TV

I miss being able to sleep
with you by my side
you are so beautiful when you sleep

I miss your smile
and how your eyes would light up
whenever you were happy

But most of all I miss you
and being able to call you mine

(To my Baby Girl)

Let me jump in the back
of that old pick up truck
and drive all the way to Alaska
where the cold wind there
will freeze my heart
so I cant feel this pain
that's killing me now

I'm trapped
in emotional overload
and I cant
seem to find my way out
I'm sitting here crying
suffering from all the
failures of my life

Happiness is such
a foreign concept to me
not a day goes by
where I don't at least
shed a tear or two

the smile that you see
plaster on my face
is about to crack
and show the
sorrow that I feel

I'm trapped
in emotional overload
and I cant
seem to find my way out
I'm sitting here crying
suffering from all the
failures of my life

Nothing I do
Is ever right
Everyone was telling the true
I'm nothing but a
waste of space

No matter what I do
it just ends up
falling through
failure should be my
middle name

I'm trapped
in emotional overload
and I cant
seem to find my way out
I'm sitting here crying
suffering from all the
failures of my life

I'm nothing
but a disappointment
to everyone in my family
I am what is called
the black sheep
no one is
ever proud of me

WHY can't for a change
I be good
WHY Can't I
be the golden child
Goddess WHY??

I fall to my knees
in a helpless
Misery

I'm trapped
in emotional overload
and I cant
seem to find my way out
I'm sitting here crying
suffering from all the
failures of my life

Push me down on my knees
Tie me up
I am at your mercy

Master I am yours
yours to do with
as you so please

Whip me
spank me
bite me

I will do
whatever you
want me to

I am your submissive
my only response
to you

is
Yes
Master

trails of dark red
run down my leg
from five freshly
cut wounds

blood mingling with tears
as a devilish smile
spread across my lips

this is my secret
this is my blissful
release

Cherry blossoms rain down
on me as I climb the tree
with my book in hand
I settle down for a peaceful read.

A gust of wind sends blossoms
into a beautiful tornado
twisting and twirling
in a spring time ballet

The sun hits them
making them look
like delicate pink jewels
dancing in the golden rays.

Crazy Beautiful
Misunderstood
Brilliant as can be

shy
bold
unquie

Wise beyond her years
Eyes that don't miss much.
A heart that loves so deeply

She is a girl
who only comes
once in a blue moon

I am proud to call her
my little sister
She means everything to me.

She is more important then she realizes
She is my strength my rock
Without her I'd crumble.

And I hope one day
she will let me in
And let me be her rock

Because there is nothing in this world
I wouldn't do for her.
that's what big sisters are for.

Summer Skye I love you sis
Always know that
No matter what
I'm here for you <3

My Whole Heart
Is beating for you
And only you
Your name is whispered
Throughout it

My soul woke up
The moment my eyes
Fell upon you
It aches to feel your
Presence every day and night

My being craves
Your touch
The shivers it creates
The feeling of belonging
I get when I'm in your arms

All these little things
They all add up
To a simple solution
Do you know what that is?
I'll tell you

I love you
With my whole
heart
Soul
And being

He taught me how to love again.
To Open my heart to someone.
He gives me the respect that I never knew before.
He treats me like I'm his number one priority.

In his arms is where I find my safe place.
I can break down and cry and know it's OK.
He's there for me no matter what.
His love for me is greater then anything.

Whenever I'm around him my heart starts skipping beats.
I can barely control my urges to kiss him.
When I'm with him I can't help but say "I Love You."
But I really want to say "I'm in love with you."

His touch sends shivers of longing down my spine.
When he kisses me I always ache for more.
With him I can let my guard down.
And finally be the real me.

Love use to scare me, But with him I embrace it.
He makes me feel alive.
With him I feel safe, Like nothing can hurt me.
And I know this is only the beginning.

I put makeup on
to hide the tears

I lugh just to
chase away the sadness

I sing songs in my head
just to keep from thinking

But I don't think that's enough
anymore to keep away
the impending breakdown
I'm destined to have.

All I want to do is scream
until my throat is raw

Then scream some more
until I lose my voice.

Then still try
to scream

But I don't think that's enough
anymore to keep away
the impending breakdown
I'm destined to have.

When I'm with you
I feel like I can fly
When I'm with you
It feels like the whole worlds frozen in time
No one else is there
We're the only ones here
And that only happens
when I'm with you.

You've got my heart
Kicked into over drive
It's beating so loud
You can hear it from across the room
It hasn't been quiet
Since the day I met you
When you look my way
It stars skipping beats
And I hope you Know
That it's beating for you because

When I'm with you
I feel like I can fly
When I'm with you
It feels like the whole worlds frozen in time
No one else is there
We're the only ones here
And that only happens
when I'm with you.

Baby come lay down with me
Pull the blankets over our heads
and we'll be in our own little world
Snuggling all night long
In your arms I know
I'm home because

When I'm with you
I feel like I can fly
When I'm with you
It feels like the whole worlds frozen in time
No one else is there
We're the only ones here
And that only happens
when I'm with you.

Boy you're everything to me
You're the one
my soul's been searching for
When I close my eyes
all I see is you
You're the only
One for me

When I'm with you
I feel like I can fly
When I'm with you
It feels like the whole worlds frozen in time
No one else is there
We're the only ones here
And that only happens
when I'm with you.

When I'm with you
I feel like I can fly
When I'm with you
It feels like the whole worlds frozen in time
No one else is there
We're the only ones here
And that only happens
when I'm with you. R

And that only happens
Boy this only happens
When I'm with you.

Broken and defeated
helpless and destroyed
the fear claws at my stomach
the despair clouds my mind
tears spill onto my cheeks.

Everything I hopped for
disappears in a blink of an eye
once again ******* everything up.

Why can't
I do
anything right?

I try so hard
just to be set up
for failure.

Goddess please
I pray to you
please guide me
through this!
help me succeed.

Brothers and sister i love you guys.
And i love you more then this life i live.
You are why
i hold my head up high.
I need to be a roll model.
For you youngsters.

Summer i love you so much.
We need to stick together
against Ur twin brother Jeremy.
When i visit in Maine i love to hang out with you.
Just the two of us girls.
Given each other make overs.
And Getting mom mad by doing so.

Jeremy i love you so much.
You are always fun to hang out with.
You make up great games
to play when we are stuck outside.
I love how you know what to
do when we are in a jam.
And how you always make me laugh.

Zakary i love you so much.
I pretty much tell you that every single day.
But i cant say it enough.
You share my love for wrestling.
We can sit for hours talking about it.
And we get Kellie [your mom my step mom]
mad in the process.

I don't know what i would do
without all of you.
I would not trade any of you for anything.
I love Summer Jeremy and Zakary.