As I sit on the picnic table
that is supported by the deck
I absorb the scenery
That is all around me.

I see the little nest that had been deserted
and left to protect itself against
the harsh winter that lay ahead.

I look down to see the snow covering
the ground's true beauty and wonder
if the snow will ever go away.

Then I look at the old tree with
its bare limbs coated with a layer
of the two week old snow.

All of a  sudden a little gray squirrel
climbs over the rusted old fence thinking
he will find some acorns in my backyard,
only to find he had been wrong.

I guess  I never really noticed how beautiful
my backyard could be.
I always thought it
was like everyone Else's,

but as I sit on this picnic table
I see the true beauty
that the snow has hidden all winter long.

I lay quietly in my bed.
The open window above my head blows the soft blue curtain over me.
I sit up and go behind the curtain.
I open the window a little more.

The cold night wind whips my face.
It feels good against my burning skin.
I rest my head on the window sill and close my eyes.
The sounds of the night comes rushing to my ears.

I hear crickets playing their dispair filled songs.
While the hedge sways in the wind with their old bones cracking.
A distant dog barks at the night shadows.
A lonely car drives by its tires spitting pebbles.

Behind the curtain with the window open.
The moon shining it's light down on my.
It feels like a whole other world.
So peaceful and beautiful that only I know

Maybe if they had fought more.
Maybe if they had yelled or screamed.
It wouldn't have been as great of a shock.

I had no warning.
No hint at all.
They covered up the signs so well.

On the day they told us.
The news stabbed my heart.
The tears, I couldn't hold back.

My family was splitting apart.
Daddy was moving out.
He and Kellie were getting a divorse.

It shattered my world.
It tore traditions apart.
My world was never the same.

My hopes that maybe they would get back together.
Were smashed to microscopic peses.
The day Daddy intruduced us to his new girlfriend.

It's been over two years.
And the pain hasn't gone away.
It still seems like a terrible nightmare.

I can't think of a poem.
All filled with rhymes.
That flows like a river,
Or fits like a charm.
I just can't think of a poem,
That the teacher will mark with an A+.
No detailed words come to my mind.
I think and think for hours on end,
Nut I just can't do it,
Can't think of a poem.
Can you?

Blood red petals disguised by
blackness thick as fog.

Forest green stem hidden
in a vase of dark brown.

wilting from the lack of
strength to go on.

abandon to die no
longer able to light up a room.

lifting it's head the roses
struggle to get some light.

But sinks back down and accepts
it's fate of becoming Roses in the dark.

The Leopard
The Fox
and the Kitty
a very unlikely bunch
different in every aspect

The leopard
Speaking his mind
Opinions spewing
the oldest
but maybe not the wisest

The fox
The fighter
The poet
she is the youngest
but definatlly the wisest

The kitty
Court jester
most subborn
tap dancing her way through life

But somehow
these three make it work
Protecting eachother
always have the others backs
The perfect disfuncional
Three musketeers

The cold waters hit my feet
As I stare out at the nothingness
That is the sea

The water laps at my ankles
stealing away all the warmth
in my body

a horrid chill seeps in
dragging up the misery
that was locked away in my heart

A crushing weight presses
down on my chest
threatening to suffocate me

The water hits my legs
I stare down at the
criss crossing scars

The scars
where cold metal
Met fragile flesh

The Metal sliced as the
Flesh snagged and gave
letting blood flow

The water laps at my knees
Obscuring the Scars
Hiding my past once more

The Pressure on my chest
Gets heavier, threatening
to cut off my oxygen

Final thoughts
start crashing in
Like the menicing waves before me

The water tugs at my waist
growing impatient
wanting me for itself

The water bites me
with its icy jaws
slowly pulling me under

My life flashes before me
As I realize how pitiful
and sad it had been

The water closes over my eyes
drowning away my life
Then.....

..........There Was Nothing