FeelMyFeelings

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

Red, Yellow, Green, Orange, Blue,
and i like ponies too
Flying high in the sky,
watch as the clouds go by
Only in a fantasy land are they perfect
Watch as the days go by is it really worth it?
Now you’re searching for that *** of gold, wondering if you’ll ever find it
Dreams of looking at rainbows and the ponies I’m riding (no ****)
Floating on cloud nine knowing the ponies will always be my beautiful place to hide
colorful scenery that was a hell of a ride
I’m waking up now, bye bye ponies,
It was a dream guess it was dream everything is not what it seems
Hopefully, one day, I will get to fly

I wrote this poem randomly with my friend... It was fun

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

No more home.

I live under a tree,
I call this tree home,
very old, very phased,
long branches, big leaves,
no sunlight let in,
nothing but shade,
it’s not the kind that keeps you cool on a hot day,
it’s the kind that keeps you frozen because it’s already cold,

The tree is slowly dying,
38 years strong,
it’s becoming unhappy, and unneeded,
unloved, and uncared for,

The tree is almost dead,
taking everything under it along,
all it needed was love,
just wanted to feel it,
it kept us protected for so long,
the stronger we try and hold on,
the faster it begins to fall,

The tree is gone now,
I have no place to call home

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

Duckies.!!

My favorite past-time is going to the lake,
The one with all of the ducks,
Somewhere deep in a country,
Not many people knew,
“Throw the bread to their mouths,
They’ll catch it” she would say,
Jumping and throwing, seeing who could throw it the farthest
They would catch them,
Right in between their beaks, then like magic,
They’d disappear,
My favorite past time,
It’s where the wild flowers grew and grew,
They were taller than me sometimes,
I never ever knew how they grew so tall,
Until I myself did too,
My favorite past time,
It was a long time ago,
Back in the time when to know a lot made you grow,
Back in the time when,
There was no drugs, no drama, and only,
Me, us, and the ducks

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

(Hell)o.

Hi, it’s me again,
It’s depression,
I can ruin your life,
Make it terrible,
Mess up everything.
I can change you,
And take everything away.

Hey, it’s me again,
I’m bipolar
Take the medicine,
It will ruin everything,
You can’t laugh, or cry
Be sad, or even be happy.

Hello, it’s us,
We’ve joined together,
We’ve ruined you,
You’re now going insane,
Haha,
You can’t stop us,
Your life’s over.

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

Help her!

Does she look happy?
If you answered yes,
You don’t know her.

Does she look happy?
If you answered yes,
You’ve never seen her cry,
Her pillow soaking wet with tears.

Does she look happy?
If you answered yes,
You’ve never seen her wrist,
You’ve never seen her legs,
You’ve never seen the heart,
The one that’s not there.

Does she look happy?
If you answered yes,
You’ve never read the suicide note,
It’s already written,
She just needs time.

Does she look happy?
If you answered no,
Why haven’t you helped her yet,
Why are you still waiting,
Why are you still reading,
Go help her.

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

My poem to her

I miss you,
In was that I can’t describe,
There since birth,
Now I can’t even find you.
I miss you,
The way that you would sneak me things,
Hide me places,
Hold my secrets, never tell.
I miss you,
The way we would sleep,
And talk,
And how we would always cook and eat.
I miss you,
I need you more than ever right now,
But I can’t even call,
You don’t talk,
You can’t even call,
I don’t know your excuses.
I miss you,
You really don’t understand,
A bond broken,
We don’t have the tape to fix it,
I miss you,
I need you around,
Be the first to feed my kids,
The first one they know as their best-friend,
The first one they ever learn to love.
I miss you,
I need you around,
Be the one I fix the plates for at my wedding,
Take the pictures as I cut the cake,
Give the speech of how good I used to be.
I miss you,
I need you around,
Stay with me never die,
Lay around when I need to lye,
Be there when I need to talk.
I made a promise to you 7 years ago,
And you won’t let me fulfill it.
Please,
Let me keep it,
We have enough broken promises between us,
Please can we keep this one,
I miss you.

FeelMyFeelings May 2013

Finally Friday

It’s Finally Friday,

The last day of the week,

The only one that really counts,

Watching the clock all week,

5 days of sitting and watching,

5 days of waking up at the worst hours of night,

Trying your hardest to finish,

5 long long days,

But it’s finally Friday.

It’s finally Friday,

Now we can just chill,

Just hang, Sleep!

We get to sleep, 2 days of nothing but,

Sleep!

You know you need it,

You got so tired from waiting,

Just time to sleep,

No need to wake up early,

Or stay up late, if you want,

Just sleep.

Monday it was the worst,

Tuesday, not the best,

Wednesday, just another day to remind you,

You still have days left,

Thursday, just a day thrown in for torture,

But Guess What,

It’s Finally Friday!