I know all about depriving myself
Who needs sleep?
Who needs food or love?
I need coffee, I need a smoke break
I need someone to hold me up

It's great that you're here for me
But I can't take what you want to give me

I'll eat your stories, tell me a lie

I know what I'm doing to my body
I know how the mind suffers so
But what is this trap that I've already fell in?
This darkness, pitch-black, that I've caught myself in again

I'll eat your stories, tell me a lie

Did you wake up on the right side of the bed?
I'll wake another, so tell me you know what I want

I'll eat your stories, tell me a lie
Darling, don't think twice
I'm counting on nothing
I know I'm not gonna make it out alive
I'm doing what I said I'd be doing by this year at this time
I'm doing what I told you I'd be doing
Planning a way to end my life
Counting on you to not think twice
Counting on nothing to be a release from this life

****** woke up and said, "Let's pass some time.

I'll give you what I have, if you will take all of my sorrows away.

All of the bad, bad, days.

You can have the anxiety and my greatest mistakes."

****** woke up to share all her things

****** woke up and said, "Here, have my everything."

And he took them

Wake up and follow me home
We can't get that far when he doesn't want me
But I can't let up
He's everything that keeps me up
I'm sure I could write a novel
And package it in two or three

The best kind of love
where everybody bleeds more than once

I saw you through those old-fashioned flings
Sea-glass for Wendy and nothing for me
It began with Benzedrine
And me forgetting how to sleep

For welcome home
You just gotta shed your skin
I'm sure you could if you tried it
And if you let me in
If you let me in

Sleep is calling to you and I

Escape until you've finished tonight

Then rest, with ease, wrapped like warm

Under blankets of sweat of skin

No mate, not now, but soon, around,

You'll find a direction to take

Designated *****
Tastes and wasted time
Waking up bored enough
To jump off a building
Listening to forty
Years of life and love
I share mine of nil
I've had my fill
Of nonsense for today
Iced-over managing me
Lied obscene moderating
Miniscule matters
Multiplied by how much I dread
The amplification
Arduous impotency
Marked on inadequately
Silence as the fall completes

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