it’s so hard
to walk the talk
when you are
as selfless as a candle
-burning yourself
just to give light
to others

you’ve tried to hide it
but it’s too late
i already saw it
the hesitation
the hesitation
in your eyes, in your voice
i told you it’s fine
to spare you from explaining
and to save me from shame
but i saw it, i knew it
the hesitation
the hesitation in your heart

believe me when i say
that these scars
are not a reminder of you
believe me, these scars
are a reminder
of how deep my love can be

i lost to lust
and let it win
now i feed myself
between your legs
hell indulgence
tastes like heaven
let it consume me
until i’m done

iloveyou
without a space
there’ll be no room for mistakes
no it doesn’t make sense
it’ll make no difference

let me
just this time
let me walk away first
spare me the heartbreak
of watching you leave
spare me the pain
of setting you free
let me, just this time
let me walk away first
let me feel the pride
of the one leaving
not the pity
of being left behind
let me, just this time
let me leave you first
i’m tired of watching you leave

lay me in bed of flowers
i want roses- white, yellow, and blue
i also want a red dress
put me a make up with shades of blue

keep the lights on
i want my place bright
sing me my favorite song
don’t leave me at night

let my friends- fake and real
say all the nice things
let my family cry and feel
all the sadness and loss that stings

mourn, mourn for me
give me your best cry
say you’ll remember me
with eyes of jeopardy

but on my last day here on earth
don’t make me feel that i’ve lost to death
instead please tell the afterlife
that i’ll bring sunshine and light