I pull at it as if to tear it off,
To touch it,
It doesn't feel right
Agitated
Frustration
Anger
Screams out of me, I release
Till all breath is spewed from my lungs
In need to inhale of that which
was exhaled, dizziness takes
Me over I fall
Crumpled
Fallen,
Disoriented  
  Life, I love myself, but then
Hate this skin, I feel though
Others not me should be enveloped
In this Carcass, I
Cut it,
Hurt it,
Bleed it,
But its me that is in this shell
Even though I know this wasn't meant
For me, its the one that I must in this lifetime live in.

~

Placed on a mantle, the ship torn and tattered
Its bottle long gone as it smashed to the floor
Shards of the memories swept and discarded
Tossed out to sea at the edge of the shore

The captain, a man of great means and stature
Stood at the helm till the storm it had passed
All but the crew warned of coming disaster
Seeing the clouds filled with darkness en mass

Rough were the waters, the flags were a waving
Violent the waves that did spill on the bow
Taller than buildings at rest on the homeland
Survival the quest even not knowing how

Deep was this ocean, despair on it surface
Blue as the night with no moon there to shine
Calling his name as he held to the railing
Wondering if this just might be his time

Flashes of long ago parted his memories
Regrets began flowing as if on their own
It would be different if he had the manner
Hindsight to tell him if only he’d known

Washed up on shore with the ringing so loudly
Felt for the earth as the tide did recede
Gasping for air as if none had existed
Tasting the salt of what he did believe

Burning of wounds that did cover his body
Ripples a’ sheen as the sun it did rise
Blurry his vision the focus he needed
Sent on this voyage of his own design

Running away seemed the answer to freedom
Hauntings of loss came to welcome him home
So far away did the scene seem much sweeter
Not on your life as he now stood alone

Back to his senses, this ship was his letter
Words he had written not ever to send
Caught in a down pour of flooded emotions
How could this happen to him once again

When out in the distance upon the horizon
A nacarat sky did call to his face
Turning attention to what had just happened
He noticed the path of his fears did erase

Calm placed its hand on the waters before him
Soft was the wind that did partner his breath
Sending a strength that before had been frozen
Causing the chill that half scared him to death

Smooth was the ocean, this ship very buoyant
Sails to the east took on air to their fill
Moving his ship to the edge of nirvana
Downhill the sailing a’ bridge of the hill

Peace did engulf every board that he strode
Lush came the vision of land at his stern
Caution now tossed to the winds of devotion
Using the lessons his life it did learn

Happy the ending though just the beginning
Spring brought the crocus atop of the earth
Smiling of daisies in form fitting fashion
Now was the day of his new found rebirth

There was no ship and there was no captain
Raging the seas but a figment of truth
Storm clouds ahead was to my own reaction
That was the chapter and I’ve found the proof

Merely a story with no complications
Telling the tale of my life once before
Tossing and turning till right side was down
Till the horizon placed you at my door

This strange adventure is how I was feeling
Lost in a world with no earthly delights
Cast to the corner and taken advantage
Until the day that you came to my life

As if the sun found my eyes so wide open
Warmed up my heart with a joy ever new
Embracing the touch that I now find does comfort
As of that day that our love came to view

Long were the years of my loneliest outlook
This day that time shall remain locked away
For as your love it does greet me each morning
Eternal my dreams will be born every day

So call me a captain, the world is my vessel
Sitting a’ port at the head of the gate
Love is my ocean so far everlasting
For now it hath brought me the perfect first mate

~

I get the crazy part,
but let it go now