My heart aches in confusion
Going through each and every decision
scared to take the next step
scared to ask for help
such a shame for you to not know
you show your real self, they tell you no
lost, dont know which path to take
how many more turns should I make?

My soul is crying on the inside
tell me, where did you hide?
in a cave of self doubt
tell me, is there a way out?

fake it until you make it, they said
plus all that guilt inside your head
why cant you just accept me instead?
tell me, where will this even lead?
Where are you now that Im in need?

You planted my seed
and watched me bleed
with no ***** and a perfect feed
You're a flower and Im a ****
Becky with the good hair
Tell me how could this be fair?

I am screaming
daylight is dimming
tell me when can I stop spinning
get me out of this feeling
tired of my being
and everything Im seeing
this is when I start weeping
put my dreams in safe keeping
numb me and ready me for sleeping
at least this feeling is freeing
that evil voice in my head is winning
tell me, where is the silver lining?