quintin sinclair

quintin sinclair Nov 2017

Is it possible for me to be without you?
I can't survive without you.
I walk through the halls searching for you.
When I'm with you,
I need to be touching you.
In any way possible we must be touching.
It comforts me.
You fill that empty space where happiness must be.
You make me happy.
You make me feel like I'm alive.
So no, it is not possible for me to be without you.
I just go crazy.

quintin sinclair Nov 2017

Attacked.

STOP IT
WHY MUST YOU TORTURE ME WORLD?
EVERY SOUND IS DEAFENING
MY MIND GOES NUMB
EARS START RINGING
VISION GOES BLURRY
DEATH STANDS DOWN THE HALLWAY
A STARING CONTEST
MY PARENTS TURN AND TELL ME I'M WORTH NOTHING
I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW
I'M FALLING, DEAR FRIEND
WON"T YOU HELP ME RECOVER
INSANITY TAKES MY MIND
MY AIRBAGS TWIST AND WRITHE WITHIN MY CHEST
MY DRUMS POUND BLOOD THROUGH MY VEINS
SCREAMING IN MY EAR
ANXIETY TAKES OVER LIKE A MONSTER
OH FRIEND, WON"T YOU PLEASE LIFT ME UP?

quintin sinclair Nov 2017

Continue.

Spirals in my lungs.
Like vultures in the sky.
Trying not to fall.
Like grasping onto air.
You stand and watch.
But that's okay.
Because I want to fall.
Falling makes me happy.
Falling gives me hope.
I need to fall.
Fall in love with you.

quintin sinclair Nov 2017

Glad.

I'm so glad that I have you.
I want you to be glad too.
No, I know you're glad.
I want you to be happy.
I see your 'smile' everyday.
But I want to see you smile.
I won't give up until it happens.
I want you to be glad.

quintin sinclair Nov 2017

Yesterday.

My gut is raising above my lungs
I feel it in my throat
I stayed up far too late last night
My balance like a ship
On the water in a storm
I glance around to look at the glowing eyes
Peering upon me
My body stumbles through the hallways
I take another breath
My eyes flicker
Pulses emerge from my chest
I feel like ****
Yet I do not regret it
I needed the escape
I needed the release
I needed to feel

quintin sinclair Oct 2017

Cry.

Please don’t cry little one.
I see the worry on your face.
Who ever has done this.
They are a disgrace.
To have caused you so much pain.
Your precious eyes settle in fear.
They tell me to stay away from the tears.
But I won’t leave
No matter what.
I will stand by you.
Through thick and thin.
For you are my one and only kin.
So please don’t cry little one.

My best friend/significant other is very upset today and I don't know why. I wrote this poem for them, although they'll probably never see it.

quintin sinclair Oct 2017

Blink.

Blinking is the hardest Thing.
For with every blink.
There is a breath.
And with every breath.
There is a lesser chance of death.
A lesser chance of life.
A lesser chance of that release we contemplate at night.
A lesser chance of what we seek.
A lesser chance of everything we need.
Living. Is the hardest Thing.