I wanted to be different
to be able to
hold back somehow

to look like a different
world- a new
flower.

But I was still the
same. Inside, outside

You were like an owl
covered in wise
feathers, drenched
in sadness
licked with a coat
of happy
regret

All my heart
went into your
arms and I
fell down the
mountain again.

We've got
to stop writing
These Letters.

Dear Lord,

Please give strength to the failing, support to the unsure, rise up behind the legs of those who threaten to topple, and be the barrier between us and the wind. Grant us the courage to wake and to sleep, to breathe in and out, and to ask for help. Give us too, the courage to accept it.
Protect us from ourselves and help us reach out to others. Let us not cast judgment and be blind to our  faults, but let us look past them.
Help us to be present and help put us back together, so we can continue our work to put back together the world for You.

Amen

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if you write
it...
They will come.

it started
as a crumb
a shining
thorn in the
side of my finger
and grew
til abruptly,
on the bus
I looked around
unable to
breath.
startled
because
the memory of
you had suddenly
lifted heavily
away
from my
shoulders.

Learning how to be alone
is an art.
I do not mean
with, without
a lover.

Learn how to
be alone in
your self.

feel the skin
the way your soul
fits in
your bones.

rest there

like water
and stay as
it tugs
for the
longer you
can stand
it,

the stronger you
will be
when you
journey to
Stars.

waiting
for you...
I should
get a
better watch.
because this
one doesn't
tell me things
I wanna hear.
like
"he's never
coming
back".

I can see now
the smooth expanse.
but your cards are still
up and you're not
telling.
so I put
my head down
and just
hang on.