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 Apr 2013 explorereality
Clarisa
?
 Apr 2013 explorereality
Clarisa
?
Where do I
Fit in
In your grand
Plans
Where do you
See me
Or should I
Say
Do you see me
At all?
Today comes
with the sun
pulling over the darkness
of a midnight sky
I know in that moment
that we will be
no more
and
never again
because even though
there is love
that is not enough
and there is trust
that is not enough
because there needs to be
that extra spark
that thing
that brings
life
There are two meanings of ****
one is to **** as a verb
the act of *******
the art of *******
a snapshot from our days as animals
bent over in a cave
covered in blood and excrement
*******

the other meaning **** is more ambiguous
**** this
**** that
this has nothing to do with fornication
but adds the emphasis desired
in order to prove a point
a provincial exclamation
a desecration of progress
of morality
of society
**** that
Another day, Something done wrong.
Another day, and it shouldn't be long.
Before I snap, act out of control,
who knows what it is I will do.
You invite me in for discipline and while your at it you tell me again,
Of how I'm a failure and not fit for this place,
Taking me down another notch, to my self hate.
So when I quit and you say it is I who failed you, remember that no;
It is not I that have failed you but it is you who have failed me.
Another day, wasted.
It's not easy to love me
I know
I never really belonged here
I know

I thought I was safe here
It's true
I was sure of my home here
It's true

You don't know me at all
Not really
You'll never wish you did
Not really

Maybe that's why I'm dead
It's certain
Maybe you just don't know
It's certain

Just don't pretend you care
I'm fine
All I ever did was lie
I'm fine

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