Hemingway said
There's nothing to writing
You just sit at a typewriter
and Bleed

I'm sitting
I'm typing
I'm bleeding
                 bleeding
                           bleeding

My blood is full
of numbness
of everything
of nothing
wordless feelings

My heart is pumping
pumping the words
they swim in my veins
and travel all the canals
in my body

They glide from my heart
to my fingers
to my hips
to my toes
to my brain
then rest again in my heart
until they make that journey again

And yet - What can I say?
When the feelings are there
When my heart is full
When my lungs are empty
and no words come out

I just keep sitting
         keep typing
and  keep bleeding.

I looked at the mirrior today
I only saw me without you.
I searched myself from within
And I couldnt find my soul.

I listened for my heartbeat
And I heard nothing...
I searched for emotions
All I could find was grief and sadness.
I looked out the window for sunshine
And all there was ,was darkness.
Could I ever be me without you?
Could I ever be me without me?
I looked at the mirrior again and I saw nothing..

I wish that I could see you one last time to tell you that I miss you.

I wish you could hold me tight in your arms like you once did.

I wish we could talk about the plans and dreams we had.

I wish that I could go back in time and change the life you had.

I know you can not come back because thats not how life works.

But it dose not stop me from wishing that there was a way to bring you back

Look I'm tired
And terrified
And I'm stuck
And petrified
Cause I have no way
Of ever knowing
If I have purpose
Am I even showing
The direction I want to go in
I've fought so hard
To be who I am
To place the next card
And it's gotten to the point
Where I just seem to not care
Anymore and that scares me
And to be utmost fair
I want to care
I like liking myself
And I enjoy being happy
Not being stealth
In who I am or who I want
So why am I feeling down again?
It's like I can't control it
And I've tumbled down the lions den
Well I plan on fighting this time
Not because I have a lot in reserve for a fit
But because truthfully I owe it to myself
And, of course, because I deserve it

o
my
god

i hate you

so rude

i can't

When you look at that person who always smiles or laughs, You say he/she must be living a wonderful life and you wish of having their lives.But what you may not know is that person has more problems than who you think has the worst life.      
  I made this unknown so I can express my feelings here and get out of the real world.I made it so no one can judge me.So I can get whatever I want out.Last but not least, so i can be strong, so I can go back to the real life with a bit of courage.