i want to recite my favourite poems to you until you get tired of my voice

but i secretly hope that never happens as well

because these pages , though the words of another human ,
spill my soul

they’ll teach you how to understand me better than i ever could

One of these days someone is going to fall in love with you
The way you fell in love with them
It will be like a second nature to the both of you
To love yourselves
and to love each other
Oh how beautiful
Oh how soft
Your love
It could build mountains
It could create wonders

I’m sorry i couldn’t bring myself to get out of bed someday’s to go to work. I’m sorry i gave up, quit, without letting anyone know. That’s beating me in the *** now and i wish i would have listened to you.

2. I’m sorry that i’m not your ‘pretty little girl’ anymore . i’m sorry i’m not anything to be proud of. Now that i’m starting to realize things , now that everyday i’m needing to be more of an adult , i’m realizing that maybe you were right all along.

3. I promise i’m not trying to make things ******* you , if anything , it’s just as ******* myself.

4. I’m not ‘just like him’. I am my own person . I am worthy . I am not someone you can just commit your love to , and leave.

5. I’m sorry i tended to reach for you whenever i felt in despair. I should have known there was someone else. Maybe I don’t want the sympathy , Maybe I just want your voice telling me that things are alright.

6. Maybe i miss getting tea with you , even though you barely drank any. Maybe you remember the way i like my tea , or maybe you don’t.

7. It’s not anyone’s fault but my own. Who ****** me off now? No one. It’s my brain that’s ******* me off.

8. I’m sorry the drug store takes all of our money.

9. This isn’t a cry for you back . This isn’t a cry for anything. This is an apology. Here it is , here I am , I’m sorry.

i understand why you ate that yellow paint
van gogh
van gogh
i want to be van gone

Inside my chest there's something you can't take apart,
In the front side is the most warming heart.

But it's not the same in the back,
So cold and dark nothing but pitch black.

I dare you to test my patience and limits,
Because you never want to know what's behind it and you would never last a minute.

**Jacob Cuadro