He smiled
That was all I remember from that day
That's all that mattered.
His hair feathered,
His eyes deep,
His body... sigh...
Incredible.
He might seem like everybody else
But there is something different about him
He has a gasp personality?
What an amazing thing.
Not something found in highschool anymore

But all that I really love
Is that smile
It takes my breath away
Takes my words away
(Annoyingly)
Its a real smile.
And its perfect

All I could ask for
Is that he would smile,
Just once,
For me.
Only me.

Are you ever going
To give me a chance?
Or should I try
To forget you
Like a dream that's
Too good to be true

My hat over my head
When they picked the first notes
A dancing little melody
Strung over two guitars
Just a simple jig I guess

I lifted my head a little
When the first voice sang
A young country cowboy
Made my heart twitter
Just a skip I guess

I sat up in my seat
When that second voice sang
A dark country twang
I said for him,
I'd move out west

Clipboard oh clipboard
Oh where could you be
Right when I need you
Please don't hate me

Clipboard oh clipboard
I have homework to do
Clipboard sweet clipboard
Where are you!

You held me in your arms
Yet still my tears fell

On the darkened floor
Full of swaying bodies
And flashing lights
Only this moment was still

I wouldn't look you in the eyes
But I knew you could see

In this blackened room
Full of pulsing music
And endless confusion
Only my love ceased to be

I looked away from you
Broke away from your arms

In the cold night air
Benethe diamonds in the skies
And endless beauty
Only my heart beat in the silence

I stood alone in the dark
As a gentle rain began to fall

"My angel!" he calls
"I long for your touch."
"My angel," he cries
"I love you so much.."
"My angel!" he yells
"I need you here.."
"My angel," he whispers
His eyes full of tears

Each time I see you dance
My heart just skips a beat
Love and rhythm
In perfect harmony

You couldn't be more perfect
When you're dancing to the beat
Motion and music
In perfect harmony

But when the music stops
And reality strikes the beat
Drama and heart ache
Have the only harmony

I'm dancing alone now
To my lonely heart beat
Love and heart ache
In perfect harmony.

The fires burning bright
In the devil's haunted halls
The souls too weak to fight
His clever deadly calls

His leering smile is waiting
At the gates of hell for you
Your resolve is slowly fading
You believed the lie was true

You see the death too late
No time to run away
Turn around and face your fate
There is nothing left to say

You have become the fatal slave
Of the midnight shadow dance
The fire burns you in your grave
You gave up your final chance

No sleep for the weary
No rest for my soul
For the nightmares come to haunt

Everything known and unknown
The love that I lost
The shadows of her past
All the fears she was hiding
I took on as my own
Now they plague my dreams

No sleep for the dreamers
No rest for the broken
For the nightmares come to haunt.

Like the lives that only live for the love they haven't found
A single soul is searching for peace in the hell of lies
Like the fire burning in the pit of insanity's home
A single life is barely controlled by the bounds of being alone

Like dreams that only dreamed of the dark called death
A single shadowed dance gave life to her last breath
Like the sun setting fire to the earth when it leaves
A single brightened glance gave her peace when she last breathed

There are lives that only live for the love they haven't found  
But still their broken hearts are too shy to make a sound.
There are fears that only frighten when the soul is bound
And only a single fear could always make her drown

There are dreams that only dream of the dark called death
But only a single tear will echo her life long debt
There are songs only sung when one draws their last breath
And then a single weeping child is all that is left

I know you spell it with an i
But that would have been to easy
You know I had to make it rhyme
I had to make it cheesy

Close my eyes,
Breathe soft and deep.
Feel the music
Wash over me.

Release my worries
Step away from life
Sway with the rhythm
Dance in the light

Close my eyes
I don't need to see
The music surrounding
Shows the world to me

Music is my voice
When I cannot speak
Music is my sight
When I don't need to see

A pheonix rises to greet the sun
Ashes falling from a life just begun
Against the hollow depths of the shadowed night
This bird rises in glorious flames to fight
With songs of the soul that can't be kept silent
He lifts his wings high into the darkening dusk
But the last rays of the sun turn this pheonix into dust
His shadow joins the darkness of the sorrowed skies
And the life and light in his eyes slowly dies

He seems to be lost, but as the sun rises to light
He flies across the sky sharing his fire of life
As he soars through the air, hope on his wings,
He vanquishs the midnight with the beauty he brings

My eyes turn blue for you
Every time I cry
The coldness inside
Turns my eyes crystal blue

When you see me smile
Don't be fooled
Please see the reflections of truth
In my sapphire eyes

I just want to be invisible
To not have to stand
In front of the world
That criticizes everything

To not have to stand
Against a father
That tells me to just work harder
To not have to stand
At attention
As I receive every insult

But mostly,
I don't want to stand
In front of the mirror
And see my biggest critic of all

These sightless eyes, they burn with tears
The tears of forgotten souls
A once future pain, now in my heart
Sears agony untold

The shadows draw closer, closer to me
In an attempt to break my hold
My grasp on humanity, on life, on love
Grows weary cold and old

Falling slowly down to hell
The hell I created
I lose myself, my life, my love
To the one I never hated

Lost, ancient, forgotten love
Fights for what I lost
Never alone like never before
I will win no matter the cost

Ask me who I  am.
Ask me of my story
Pretend you care about my life
But ignore the scars on my body

I am but a shadow in the field
Haunted by those ****** whips I fear
Taunted by those freedom songs
Broken by tear stained years

I am a shadow of a human
No, not even human, an animal
I'm a number
A price, a nobody, expendable

Look me in the face
And know that only we slaves
Will die alone with endless scars
And empty eyes in our last days

You asked me who I am
You thought you knew my story
You see the broken child inside
Only now it's too late to say I'm sorry

The wind whispers through the trees
Softly singing, trying to comfort me
But no song could sing me to sleep
On a night when the stars are so bright
That they look like the lights that were in your eyes

Before everything went wrong
Once upon a time the breeze sang our song
In the moonlight we would dance along
If I fell, I was always caught in your arms
We dared the world to tell us we had to be alone

Never make a dare you can't take if it's done
Your songs will turn to empty sound
Your love will decide to turn around

Your stary nights will turn
To whispering winds and darkening skies

Why are you going to Nashville?
"Business,
That's all I can tell you."

I hug tighter to his chest.
I know what ever it is
I shouldn't know.
I can pretend I don't.
But I know he won't be safe tonight

I look into his eyes
Endless blue skies filled with love
Gaze back at me

"Be careful, love"
I can barely whisper
"I always am, my angel.
This won't be the last time you see me"

I attempt a laugh
"It better not, I'd **** you"
I hesitate
"or rekill you."

One last kiss.
Before he leaves
"Be good" I tell him
"I know you can't keep that promise,
But I can at least tell myself I told you"

"I love you, angel."

I love you too my Hunter..

I refuse to cry
But I'm breaking inside
Wish I didn't have to say
That heart wrenching good bye

I wish time paused
With her in my arms
Wish I truly had her
Before she was lost

Stting in class
Avoiding the past
Telling myself I haven't
Shattered like glass

Tears pool in my eyes
But I push them aside
I want to be alone
I don't want them to see me
                    Cryin'

What happens if I meet your eyes?
Those dark brown eyes
I secretly love.

What happens if you meet my eyes?
My hazel eyes
That secretly long for you.

I'm afraid you will see,
See the dreams,
The wishes,
I wish when I see you.

What happens if you hold my gaze?
Will you see all the broken dreams?
The dreams shattered,
Shattered when I saw her.

What happens when you see my eyes?
My hazel eyes
That just want to see you.

Some times the slightest touch
From someone you never knew much
Makes your heart go wild
With the pitter-patter
And nothing else matters.

Dark hair with a blond streak
Brown eyes that make me weak,
Dark brown eyes full of laughter.
You've stepped in my life
And now I'm falling, outta time

Gentle, strong hand on my waist
Pull me closer don't make me wait
To feel your lips on mine
To feel your body pressed against me
Feel your heart beat

White weather falling
To glisten below
The sunlight reflecting
Crystalline rainbows

Tears flow softly
To freeze in an instant
Chilling my mind
Past so many walls, resistant

Sorrow hidden  
Carefully behind my smile
Not many have noticed
The pain in my eyes

White weather falling
To glisten below
But I'm all alone
In the beautiful December snow

I am a song of the centuries
I whisper the worries wound within
I spin stories of unspoken secrets
I tell tales of truth and treachery

I am a woman of words

Eyes meet yours
No sound is made
Pain filled silence
Ever stayed

Hidden wonder
In your smile
Endless possiblities
Go on for miles

But I am seeing nothing
But mindless
Painful
Confusion

Broken hearted
Spirit killed
Future unknown
My heart
*still

Lift off!
Feel the pressure on my chest
Ears popping as we climb west
The big city fades
Crisscrossing, curving city highways
Turning to mere lines, grey against the green
Still rising
Past the first layer of white misty cloudy
Emerging above the cotton candy mounds
Gentle pillows, pale against a brilliant blue sky
Soaring through the air so high
I feel like I'm on top of the world

I am not a girl in your eyes
I play basketball with the guys
I work on cars
I willingly get *****

But I don't fit in.

I am not a guy
I like dresses
I like to look beautiful
I willingly suffer in 4 inch heels

I don't fit in.

I can't cook like most girls.
I can't act like most girls
But I am a girl.. technically

I am a singer
Of any and every song that can be sung.
I am a writer
Of tales of truth and treachery
Of secrets and stories
Of love and loss
I am an artist
Or so they say

I don't fit as a guy
I don't fit as I girl
I don't fit in any one group
I fit as me

And I am the only one

And some times being the only one
Means being alone

Blue and green
A salty sea
The waves drawn
By the moon above me

The stars reflect
Like crystals on cloth
Drops of fire
Fallen on the water

Dreams cascade
Like a waterfall, down
To rest on the shore
At the start of the dawn

I still lie awake
To watch the sun rise
The sleep in the sand
My mind in the skies

I miss you
I mis your eyes
You know the ones
I want to stare at forever
I miss your smile
You know the one
That I cant forget
That always made me smile
I miss your voice
You know the one
That made me swoon
That made me feel safe
That made me happy
I miss you laugh
You know the one
That made me laugh too
But most of all
                         I miss you...

Not four letters,
Not even three.
Just two simple letters
Could change everything

So why is it so hard
To talk to you
To just say
*Hi

Dreams are crushed by a cold blank stare
She fell to the ground
Of death not even aware

She stepped in front as the bullet sped
And yet my life
Was barely spared

Broken hearted I fell to my knees
Life in turmoil
I didn't want to see

The dark red blood mixed with my tears
I heard her last breath
Confirming my fears

I stood by her as the killers came near
They took my life
My blood seared

I fell beside her as life faded from my eyes
I took her hand
As I died

You once heard
All the music
Of the coming night
Of the whispering winds
Singing psalms and ballads
With guardian angels
Singing the gentle lullabies
Of a loving mother
You held a dream
Once upon a time
You held a dream of hope,
Singing beautiful melodies,
Of a family
Of never being alone

Now you hold only the shattered dream

Of never being alone
Of a family
Singing beautiful melodies
You held a dream of hope
Once upon a time
You held a dream
Of a loving mother
Singing the gentle lullabies
With guardian angels
Singing psalms and ballads
Of the whispering winds
Of the coming night

All the music
You once heard.

Burning light
Sears through the night
His tears reflecting
The fear and anger, bright.

Dark brings chaos
Like none before
In only an instant
Life breathes in him no more

The sounds of gunshots
Echo through the streets
Piercing women's screams
Make even the strongest weak

A whisper of a memory
Of a song I use to hear
Is drifting, shifting, echoing
To invoke a single tear

A hint of that lonely melody
Of a hidden crying coo
Is sighing, dying, knowing
The end will come too soon

A breath of a last note
Of a final empty dream
Is fading, greying, leaving
Only a single silent scream

Who hears the scream in the middle of the night?
Who bears the brunt of the burning fright?
Who wishes most to see the light
Of the mornings dawn on the horizon

Who else but a nightmare

Who has skin of pale cream and eyes that dream?
Who has laughter that ripples like a stream
Who has steps that always seem
To bring beauty where ever they go

Who else but an angel

Who screams in the night
When the person inside
Decides tonight is the night
To **** the light
Who hides her fright
Behind beauty bright
When the world decides
Tonight is the night
To take her light

Who else but a Nightmare Angel

When you photograph a memory
You keep it for life
For tears, for laughter
For love, for hope
For remembering those golden days

But an image fades
And it disappears in that file
Alone in the dark
Till maybe one day
Someone will see it
And smile or shed a tear
To see your life
In that photograph of your memory

Beautiful yet deadly
Though you would never know
You're high above reality
The colors seem to glow

The beauty of the rose
Disguises the harming thorns
Don't tempt the fatal cost
For a moment away from scorn

Your life will fade away
No future left for you
You followed a crooked path
Now only death is in veiw

No light to return to
No breath will pass your lips
You are standing above nothing
To die, you only have to slip

A picture is worth a thousand words
All captured in her smile
Words whispered in love
And the words shouted when she left

Your picture is still on my wall
The one of our first kiss
Everything was so perfect
How could I forget

Your words in the letters you gave me
Are safely hidden away
But even if they were lost
Your words would still be here

A picture's worth a thousand words
A thousand broken hearts
A thousand lost dreams
A thousand words I wish I had said before you left

The twilight sky is silent
The world for once at peace
Though only the brush of an angel's wings
Could give me final release

Then the dawn is slowly waking
With a breath of cold clear air
But the sun will warm me quickly
Knowing my angel might be there

Sun shining bright above me
But my heart has turned to ice
Too slow it beats so weakly
For now I know I have lost her twice

The tears fall from my heart
For I wish she was here with me
In all of my dreams, I dream of her
And forever with her I wish I could be.

You say you won't come, but you never leave
Then say you don't care,
                                But I don't believe

Still promise a chance for me to see you soon
Just step in a dance to a song in tune
My song's made of words that lure you in
Every move filled with pure sin

You say you don't look, say you don't see
You say you won't listen,
                                But I don't believe

I join one hand with yours as the other lingers
Tracing your body with gentle knowing fingers
Listen to my voice sing a minor melody
Feel my eyes enchant you with the love you see

You say you aren't hooked, say you will leave
But you don't pull away,
                                 And I don't believe

Respond to the beauty you know you can't resist
My graceful harmonies and taunting kiss
You can't pull away for a moment, always come back to me
You might be refusing, but you know you won't leave

You said you'd never love
But you don't believe

Roses fallen
Petals strewn
Destruction yet beauty
Red stark
Against the white tile
Like blood
Fallen from my heart
Falen from my wrist
Fallen from my mind
Like tears
Fallen from my eyes
Fallen from my pain

A body fallen
Limbs strewn
Destruction yet beauty
Red stark against the snow
                    Fallin’

Bodies swaying
Music pounding
His body pressed to mine
I knew it was wrong
I had a girl
But I couldn't seem to stop
I couldn't stand
He sat down next to me
Leaning up against him
Muscles tensing at my touch
I look up
His face was so close
A mere 2 inches
He took my breath away
He laughed
And it was perfect
Soft yet deep
My heart was beating so fast
I looked up again
Our lips almost met
And then she came
But this time
When she kissed me
She didn't take my breath away