Silence fills my needs
don't you understand
for I am weak!
Strong dear I'm known to endure
but love
not love
that's too much to ask for
the day I fall
I fall too deep
I come apart
thru the heart and soul
onto my knees
weakened at your breath
******
alot like death
lifeless at your sake
I give, you take
Masochistic
lick the chains
On my knees again
scraped
darkened
I'm all yours
Pull of hair
bitten to the bone
I'm in love again
condemned to your skin
baby I'm in love again
It's all over my sins
For I
am not ashamed

4:27 am
Outside on my balcony
Four stale ciggarettes
Smudged red lipstick
Hint of whiskey breathe
It's cold!
Silk robe
On a vintage bar stool
Feeling inspired
By no other than you
Incredible
Hours of flirting
Minutes of kissing
Endless of touching
240 seconds of a *****
"Thanks doll call me sometime again"
Gone.
Here i am incomplete
Felt like nothing
Why?
Oh why?
We had such a good evening
Then dinner for two
Imagined
What damage a thought can do
Thought it was worthy
Almost too good
Girl afraid
Simply used
He got his
What do I get?
Sloppy kiss goodbye
Four stale ciggarettes
****** tonk breathe
Good hair for nothing
Simple regret

Dont mind if i sit
Waiting on the edge
Of maybe
Where i get a call
Rather than a text
We use to ...
Ugh! there i go again
Going backwards in time
Where i had a curfew for school
And you were twenty four
No i dont miss those days
Everything makes more sense today
But i do wish you still lived three hours away
Rather than nine
How youd call at twelve a.m to say goodnight
While all the house slept
Id hide to laugh and say it back
Its not the same
No one else kisses my forehead
And gets away with cruel jokes
No one has
Understood how easily i laugh
And see through what i have
Cant wait to see you
Best friend at last
But its never enough time
By your side
♡