You ever feel lost?
Like you don't know which ways up?
Forget about half empty,
you can't even find your cup!

Where you had such clarity,
now everything's a haze,
and far from feeling human,
you're a rat trapped in a maze.

Where once you had such certainty,
now everything you doubt.
You had the world in your hand,
and now there's no way out.

What happens to us in our lives,
that causes things to crack?
But perhaps a better question is,
"How do we get it back"?

sometimes I fear
that the words I say
don't properly convey
the meaning behind them

when I say that
I love you I mean
in my eyes
the sun rises and sets
because of you
the stars glow brighter
in the night sky

when I rise from sleep
it's not the bodies needs
that enter my mind at first
but you, and how I am
so far away

It feels as if
we've been apart
so very very long
after so brief a meeting
and yet how strongly
I long, to
hear your voice
in person, not over
lines digital, or analog

To once more feel
the gentle touch of
your hand on mine
to press my lips
above your heart
and feel it's rhythm

the darkness came
for me today
I could no longer
hold it at bay
it came into my
ears and eyes
my nose, my mouth
could not deny it
I tried to remind myself
of all who cared
the darkness was bitter
it laughed and whispered
it uttered nothing matters
there is nothing you can do
give up, give in, let it out
you've let me in
i heard and listened
and then i obeyed

Last night I threw away two razors
This morning I bought ten more
For every step I take forward
I move backwards at least one more.

Last night I only counted six cuts
This morning I counted sixteen
My friend thought I tried to **** myself
But I told her that’s not what this means

Last night I felt like I had no one
This morning you came to my door
But for every step I take forward
I move backwards at least one more.

So last night when you ignored my phone calls
This morning you tried to explain why
You told me you needed a break from me
Of course all I could do was cry

Last night I wasn’t going to do it
This morning you left through my door
For every one step I take forward
I move backwards at least one more.

Last night I was gaining some hope back
This morning you came to say bye
You couldn’t give me a reason
You couldn’t even explain why

Last night I was going to **** myself
This morning you gave me a reason why
So when you left me this morning
You didn’t realize I said my last goodbye.

I'll shut everything off
Because I don't want to think
About you anymore,
And it just so happens
That everywhere I look
I am reminded of
The things you do,
Then I realize,
I probably won't forget
Any day soon.

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice—
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do—
determined to save
the only life you could save.