I give up.
I'm a **** in the midst of beautiful flowers.
I breathe in smoke from the beauty's disgust of me.
I love a gorgeous flower.
But that flower is too much for me.
I'm not enough for it.
Is it wrong to just bask in your glory?
Is it wrong to give up trying and just relax?
Is it wrong to not give a **** anymore?
I just wanna be able to look at you.

I'm done with all of this.
I'm sick of never doing the right thing.
I'm done with hurting over this.
I'm sick of always wanting you here when you can't be.
When you won't be, when you don't want to be.
I don't want to see your face in my dreams,
and be haunted by it for days.
I'm done with craving your touch.

See my strength.
I'm not as weak as you think I am.
I'm not going to break with the slightest weight.
I'm not a camel and you are not the last straw.
Hear me when I tell you I am not fragile.
That I can support more than you think.
That I've done it before.
That was more burden than you could ever dream of being.
You will not crawl into my nightmares as burden.
You will crawl into my nightmares as being lost into the blackness.

How do you love when you're filled to the brim with hate,
Intolerance for the one person you loved so much once upon a time?
I don't want to destroy what I've tried so hard to create,
And I've found myself leveling off with pure internal crime.
How do you keep on going with life when you're blind,
Unfaithfully stumbling to find the beautiful new you?
I've loved and lost and found you locked up in the same bind,
Hopelessly hoping for something not quite the same hue.

I'm sleeping in a calm dream,
Images are spilling out of reams.
Hold me,
Take me,
Throw me out into a castle of beams.
Slay me,
Shank me,
Bury me in a field bursting at the seams.
Hurt me,
Slap me,
Shove me into an ocean that'll no longer gleam.
Bite me,
Slave me,
Drown me in your evil scheme.
Kick me,
**** me,
Make me a part of your supreme regime.
Love me,
Hate me,
**** me with your glass-shattering scream.

I want to tell you everything I'm thinking.
I want to hold you and whisper sweet everythings in your ear.
I want to ask you the questions I'm dying to know.
I want to condemn my heart to the blackest of nights without you.
I want to wrap my arms around you, breathe you in, and melt into the
     essence of you.

Your skin,
so sweet,
so soft,
so smooth.
Your taste,
so addicting,
so dangerous,
so luxurious.
Your eyes,
so beautiful,
so daring,
so cunning.
Your lips,
so lovely,
so consuming,
so overwhelming.
You,
so perfect,
so loving,
so intoxicating.