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I can't help but ponder
Where I wander
In my midnight travel

A strange endeavor
That involves whatever
Mysteries to unravel

Where my worst fears are realized
In a world I've idealized
And truths come out of hiding

Sadness is lurking
Emotions are jerking
And fact and fiction are colliding

I'm not sure what's occurring
Everything is blurring
Nothing is what it seems

Anything is attainable
Nothing unexplainable
In the beautiful world of dreams
If I said I just needed to hear those words
You'd say I'm a stereotypical writer
Or a totally uncreative plagiarist

In this moment I'm not a poet
Just a broken person starving for acceptance

Rejected, abandoned, worthless
I'm sick of my definition

My heart is longing for your approval
Broken pieces would be repaired
If you would just care

Can't you notice something positive?
I want to be worthy

Am I so revolting
you can't even set your eyes upon me?

I crave a basic sentence
With the same intensity
a drowning man craves air

Fill my lungs with life
Let me breathe you in

Please just say
I love you
This is one of those days
I don’t know what to pray about
This is one of those days
I don’t really want to praise your name
This is one of those days    
I feel so alone

But I’ll close my eyes and thank you anyway
Thank you God, for giving me the ability to breathe
Thank you God, for letting me sing
Thank you God, for helping me move my feet

I know if my mom was beside me now
She would raise her hands and say
“You do all things well!”
I know if Derek was here today
He would raise his hands and give you praise
So I will do the same

Thank you God for staying beside me
Even if I don’t feel it
You’re always there
12/19/2012
It's a long story
How to steal a heart
Sometimes boring
And very hard to start

Sometimes tears may sneak into your eyes
Sometimes the chapters just seem to fly by
But this time I think you'll be in for a surprise
Because the story was never read to you right
This one has no twists, villains, or lies
Just the simple truth that I want you to be mine

Not just to have you in my possession
Or some whim of a lustful obsession
I want to steal your heart right from your chest
I'll take care of it and do my best
Because home is where the heart is so I'm told
So I will give you a home where we can grow old
Where you can be yourself and you'll never know a stranger
And all I have will be yours and you will never be in danger

We'll have windows to watch the rain
A fireplace to melt away pain
A bed of feathers to hold you tight
Through every beautiful starry night
But the best part of this home is something for you
Something to prove my words are true
Something that may seem quite new
I won't steal your heart without giving you mine too
There's a wall around my garden
and in that wall appeared a door
I've lived here many years now
but not noticed it before

Its paint is worn and faded
you can see wood right through the green
and though its peeled and cracked in places
you can see nothing in between

And for some reason, until today,
I never gave much thought at all,
About what the world might look like,
On the other side of that wall.

But now I gaze upon that door,
Which has suddenly appeared to me.
And place my hand upon the latch,
And step out ....cautiously.
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What cruel twist of fate it is
that our paths were meant to cross
at a time when everything aligned
and conspired at our cost

We convince ourselves "another time,
a different life, some other place"
because karmic interference
is easier to face.

I wonder will there come a time
the pain becomes so great
that you abandon life with one unloved
and pursue a leap of faith

You see I lack the strength I need
to turn and walk away
and so I sit and wait in hope
you'll come to me one day.
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