joy all around but none in my heart
laying my back against the wall as tears fall like stars
its hard to feel joy when there's sadness in your heart
i miss my love, its like we're miles away
its hard to enjoy Christmas when you can't celebrate it with your true love

five years since you left earth
i still feel lost
i still feel alone
i wish i had more time to learn who you were
i am thankful for the times we had together
i wish you did not die

fukc cancer
it took you from me
when you had so much to teach me

i promise to live a Godly life
so i can be with you again
please look after me in the mean time
watch me live the live you wanted to live
i do this in your honor
its the least i can do

i love you, nan