Staking it all for once, this was all you ever cried for
The truth hidden behind the ocean of lies
You allowed time to pass you by so quick
You were never on your own
Tonight this becomes OUR crime
Youth inside the crevice of your mind rendered blind
Time passes, hour glasses, crazy how they fly
Reminded by the fine grains of gravel in your eyes
Watch the erosion from your tears wear away your foresight
The blood wiped clean, these toxins can't penetrate too soon
Slowly fade away, the drugs can't fight for you forever
Stop trying to terminate it, Stop where you are
The exit isn't far from here but there's no escaping destiny
Shred up the evidence of any severed wreckages
Stranded thoughts within the quicksand’s of a mind outside of prejudice
Erase the messages
Evacuate the residence
This competence won’t go ignored
I felt too many feelings and now I'm going to back you down to the ground with the affliction of my own pains that lingered and still dwell in these pits of agony I call my own

Put in all my effort
Sadly enough we lose battle such as these
I blew past traces of our love
I knew how risky my attempt was
I loved you more, I wanted more but what we had is no more
She knew I was not enough
Kindness in her heart wouldn't allow it
Her mentality was on something else
She was too distracted to see it
I had to bare and witness
The consequences of my actions
This pain, self inflicted
Never lost faith
For Gods sake, how could I ever forget what you really meant
A symbol of love in my life
Sad how I'll never find it again
Just to know that it exists in this world makes my teeth cringe
What we lacked was hope
I sense no sign of it
Is this suicide because everything is dead
I mourn for her love to be resurrected to take away this pain
I know nothing will be the same
Hope, faith, God, dreams, kept in mind
Then... all that could change

The expansions of space
the matrix we learn to re-create
lucid dreaming conquers the mind
lust drains the mind rendering it blind
past issues fade like clouds
pedestrians pass in the confusion of time
inner thoughts expressed aloud
surrounded atmosphere all around
limitations is what keeps humanity underground
infinity: a number of fantasy
kept up like gasses and when the bubble pops acid drops
slipping into the abyss till gravity stops
amid the ashes is where life crashes
so long as it stays concealed in darkness
everything comes out to light
in such sparkling moments
in energy in rebirth
the fallen jaguar rises taking the form of night
chosen by the stars
given divine right

What slice of heaven
Fell down from pie skies
To fall in our laps?
Oh,
Wouldn't you know
It's a full life

Everything before you is the result of your peers.
You refused to speak up about your valid fears.
So now, as the end of your existence nears.
Your cries for help fall upon unconcerned ears.

Structure, format, foundation, everything breaks down.
It affects the way you think, feel, act, and believe.
You become what you hate, you embrace the vile sickness that overcomes you.
Nothing is spared, your psyche becomes a shattered mass of lost promise and broken dreams.

What is left is what they think is right.
Up is down, front is back, and day is night.
Blinded by the world, afraid of the light.
Your hopes and dreams are no longer in sight.

Panic, dementia, insanity, corruption.
These ideas are now what you embrace.
Corroded are the traits you once pride yourself on.
Go be one of them now, you have sealed your fate.

My soul now needs a resting space, 

To escape from my internal storm. 

Your heart seems like the perfect place: 

Tender, soft, innocent and warm.

But I could never expect you to let me in,

For my soul is definitely not pure.

I have struggled completely between vice and sin,

Trapped in the viciousness of life’s allure.

But I see that you are different, the look is in your eyes.

Your scent is innocent, natural, and sweet.

Your calming presence is a break from the cracking of my skies.

A feeling of hope comes every time we meet.

Your existence alone inspired me to write this. 

Imagine what I could if we shared eternal bliss.

My real emotion and feelings hide,
I struggle to keep it all inside.
Behind the words of discontent,
Behind the voice of dissonance.
Behind the scent of false allure,
Behind the scope of what's impure.
Behind the hopes that never last,
Behind the fears from my past.
Behind the smile of a million lies,
Behind the glance of sullen eyes.
Behind it all you may finally see,
The struggle that rages inside of me.

As I become a memory, you become a verse.
The burden that you bear for me
Becomes a new day's curse.
We gave each other everything: time, faith, and trust.
We ignored the song of loneliness,
The scent and allure of lust.

As the scene shifted, your role began to change.
Your commitment felt lifted,
Your affection felt strange.
The shot clock expired, the title match done...
After the events that transpired,
You also lost your sense of fun.

So what's next for me, I don't know.
The things I want to see,
The places I want to go.
All of these things I will firmly hold true.
But the joy these will bring,
Won't match the joy I got from you.

We search for better means to end out pain,
But it's these drugs that keep us sane.
Numb to it all, we simply exist.
That escape from it all we just can't resist.
Scared of the world, we cower in fear.
Hoping that the end is truly near.
The truth of it all, we know to be just.
The feeling of emptiness, ready to bust.
But we bottle them up, mask them with lies.
To hope they can't see through our dark eyes.