It's like some sort of joke
giving you something or someone and taking it all away
Is it supposed to be funny?
To want what you can't have
to reach for what you can't grab
Is life really supposed to be this way
to feel your life slip away
day by day I search for what I need
But I will always have that craving
for what I want
but can't have.

It’s only been a few days but I’m losing my life
I can’t cope without you, I turn to my knife
You’re bringing me down, but you make me high
You make me laugh and then you make me cry

I’ve tried to forget, but I’m addicted to you
Sometimes I neglect, the things I should do
I know you pain me and I need to get out
But the hold you have is making me doubt

Can I get through this, can I be free
What will it take, to get me to leave
When will I realise it’s making me down
Can I be strong when you’re not around

You’re just a bad drug that I’ve let in my heart
I’ve got to get through this and keep us apart
I need to regain some control and belief
Give me a month and I’ll feel the relief

The days seem so long but more so the nights
My misery stops me being able to fight
I used to be tough, I used to have fun
I used to be happy, just look what you’ve done

You stripped all my joy and left me in pain
I don’t think I’ll ever be the same way again
I feel so depressed, don’t know what to do
I know what I want but I can’t have you

you can feel it in the air
charged energy wanting release
in the soul a hunger
knows no full or cease,

at night the dreams fuel
more than i could ever tell
desires that burn sun hot
whether from heaven or hell,

so the thought only grows
until it is all to feel
now to do the deed done
flesh turns fantasy real.

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.