i lost 'me'
somewhere along
rusty tracks
i'd found myself one day
nine years old
counting chirps birds made
suspended in the air
swinging
                           up
and
  
  down

now i'm down again
now i'm not sure what age means
the word "nineteen"
tossed out and
looked down upon
always too young
too naive

now i'm smoothing out edges
with the rough skunky smoke
i'd learned to let go
and a
calloused heart

one ex lover
silent
in our room
while i sit here on the couch
alone
******
hungover

another man
down the street
with my heart
and his lover's head on his chest
if i'm the mistress
i guess that makes him
the cheating *******
but i can't help
but sympathize

at least i've got a full pack of smokes
and my cat
to keep me company

Happy Birthday to You
I Give All Of My Love To You
With Many Wishes For You
I Hope Happiness Finds You
And May All Of Your Birthday Wishes Come True

Happy Birthday Mum
You Are The Bomb

When It Hurt's I'll Hold You.
When It Feel's Like You Can't Go On,
I'll Be There To Make It Worth It.

When You Hurt I've Got Your Back,
We Will Play This Game Called Life,
It Will Never Forget Us.

When It Hurt's, I've Got You.
When It Hurt's,
Call Me And I Will Listen

When It Hurt's Come To Me,
I'll Be Here For You.
I'll Be Your Shoulder Day Or Night.

I Was Once Told That I Had No Choice,
My Life Was On A Set Track.
I Didn't Believe This At The Time,
I Got Told The Same Thing Again Today,
I Still Don't Believe It.
For I Have The Very Powerful Word's Of A Very Talented Person,
They Are Almost Part Of Me And I Live By Them Day By Day.
Once I Accepted These Word's,
Accepted That My Life Will Be What I Want It To Be,
I New My Life Was Worth Living.

Now I Have Accepted The Fact That Nothing Is Impossible,
I Can Now Live My Life,
The Way It Should Be,
The Way I Want
After All It Is Not About How Hard You Can Get Hit,
It's About How Hard You Can Get Hit And Keep Moving Forward.

If You Let Someone Change You,
You Are Never Going To Win,
You Are Never Going To Get Anywhere In Life,
Because Let's Face It,
Life Isn't Fair.
So If One Person Can Change You,
Then Life Is Going To Get You On Your Knee's Begging.

Your Fate Is What You Make It,
So Don't Be Scared,
Never Back Down,
Never Change.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying,
I'm Scared Of Dying Knowing I Haven't Lived,
Not Really.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Just Scared Of Dying Old And Alone,
Full Of Bitterness And Regret.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Scared Of Everyone Else Dying,
I Don't Want To Be Alone.

I'm Not Scared Of Dying
I'm Scared Of You Dying,
You Are As Much A Part Of Me As My Very Heart And Without You
My Life Is Not Worth Living

In a relationship and I only see happy singles
Now I'm alone and only see happy couples
Funny how we don't appreciate the little things in life
Of course it hits when its gone

They always say it takes getting knocked down twice
to see it coming and feel ready
Yet everytime I'm in a relationship
I fall too fast and too hard
Over and Over again

I know I shouldn't complain
I've got my freedom
But everytime I see a couple
I regret every last kiss
and every first heartbreaks