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Ellie Shelley Oct 2014
I just want to inspire,
I remember coming here last year,
And **** did I admire,
The kids who got up,
And had the guts to speak,
Because I thought my voice was weak,
I just needed to find my time,
And it's so cliché but my time is now
And I'm going to own it
It's just like Carter said on the first day
"We're a little bit of this and a little bit of that"
Well I'm a little bit brave
And a little bit scared
But I am one hundred percent trying to reach you
Scream out if you are afraid
You will never know what you are made of
Till you at least try
There a unspoken afraid poets
Dreamers
Believers
Go getters
Waiting for a sign
Look no further
Your sign is right here, right now
I don't want to just reach the afraid
I want to praise the brave
The Spoken brave poets
The never silent
The achieving
The do-ers
My goal is to inspire
Because **** I want to admire
your spoken words
your written words
Your words Just Waiting to be written
You poets
Will be poets
It your time,
so stop waiting,
Own it
Ellie Shelley Sep 2014
Antisocial
but social
"X"
Ellie Shelley Oct 2014
"X"
I am putting an "X" on my hand
Stating all I was once against
Now all I crave
I'm staying good
Resisting temptation
You
Ellie Shelley Dec 2014
You
You want me back
But dear how do I tell you
I've moved on?

I loved you dear
And maybe I might
Still love you.

But dear
I have some one new
But I truly miss you.
Ellie Shelley May 2015
I'm not mute, as far as I can tell
And even then I signed the words into your skin
But you signed back with one hand on my throat and the other on my hip
I tried to use my jagged teeth as a fast escape
But that just earned me a no
(Not the no I wanted)
and as I tried to say no you gripped my hair and pushed your "yes" farther down my throat
apparently gaging turns you on
You pushed me on a wall and my hat came off with my dignity
and my sanity
I kept muttering no
and I didn't cry so I started laughing
So you went harder grinding me on you
And I said no
I said no
And I looked over and there was a girl sleeping
I tried to speak louder
But nothing could wake her from inebriated dreams
till someone came in and I ran out of the room
leaving my hat
with my sanity
I cant finish this, and it doesn't sit right in my stomache
Ellie Shelley May 2015
Every marred line
Red paint down
My white arm canvas
Dried blood on my jacket

but you dont ask twice  

Falling down
paint bucket nearly empty
I stumble away
Fresh blood on my jacket

You Wont Ask

So I dont ask
If you mind
me unzipping
my veins
No one even ******* cares
My bestfriend is gone
why should I care
I dont care
bye
Ellie Shelley Jan 2015
He’s standing
He stands so poetic
He stands by a tree
He stands strong
He stands weak
I start falling
I fall to my knees
I fall to the ground
I fall from the weight of my infatuation
I fall thinking of you
I am breaking my back
I break my back
I break my back trying to not think of you
I break my back under the weight of this
I break my back trying to not think of this
I can’t admit this
But I can’t just omit these feelings
You see I have only your name
I have not your feelings
Your emotions
Your fears
Your love
You only know my name
You do not have anything of me
You don’t want me
Ellie Shelley Jan 2015
JannaLee Perry
She is so amazing but she doesn't know it. I love her to death, and she is my best friend, and I hope she will always be by my side <3
Ellie Shelley Oct 2014
I'm an addict
I'm addicted to the way you always smell like *** and cheap beer
they way you press into me so hard I have to conform to you
Your hip press into me too hard
And I give into you
I'm addicted to you
Your words
Your lies
I cant wait for you to feed me your ******* lies
I cant wait for you to force me down
I'm addicted to giving in
I'm addicted to letting you do this
No ones knows you
I wont tell them about you
I wont tell you how I cant get away
I am addicted to being your ***** little *****
I dont know what this is
None of this is real
So yeah
Ellie Shelley Oct 2014
I must disconnect
Myself
From you
But How
Do I disconnect
Myself
From my life source
How do I disconnect
Myself From
Oxygen
How Do I disconnect
Myself From
You
I’m trying to
Be
on
my
own
Ellie Shelley Dec 2014
I fell in love,
I didn't even mean to

But does anyone ever mean to?
Ellie Shelley Dec 2014
You there 
Yes you 
You sit there so quiet 
Pretty blonde hair, green eyes 
You play with dolls you don't notice peoples size 
You see beauty and that's all 
You there 
Yes you 
You sit there so quiet 
Pretty dark blond hair, green eyes
You cry in front of the mirror because someone told you someone told you to hate your size
You see ugly and that's all
But wait  
You there 
Yes you 
Pretty red hair, green eyes 
You stay so quiet
You sit in the bathroom 
You play with razors because someone told you someone told you to hate yourself 
You see red and that's all
But wait 
You there 
Yes you pretty black hair, green eyes 
You still sit in silence 
You play in the bathroom 
You won't keep anything down
They taught you to keep up the hate
Hate yourself 
But wait 
You there 
Yes you 
Faded blonde hair, dull green eyes 
You will lay there screaming, *with no one hearing *
All you are is an empty shell 
They taught you hate and *now it's too much *
You'll lay in the hospital 
But It’s still to much
But wait
You there
Yes you
Hair freshly dyed blonde 
Eyes shut so tight
Ribbons over freshly cut wrists
Best dress on, white stained with red at the hips
You lay so quiet 
*Whispering your final goodnight

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