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272 · Oct 2018
Untitled
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2018
D
You
Please tell him I miss him
More than anything
I never appreciated him
God, he was such a **** gem
But I wasn't ready
Please bring him Back, God
Please
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2017
I don't quite understand
This judgement
This lack of understanding
People are different
People are strange
Wondrous creatures
That I ponder at
We are all living
Breathing
Infinite creatures
Living these lives
That others find strange
Others judge
And point
And wonder
But what I've decided
And what I've found
Is that every single one of us
Is different
And these odd things we do
We do things
That make us happy
That bring joy to our hearts
And they may be odd
Or different
Or frowned upon
But I've found that
We need to do what brings us joy
What makes every single day of our lives worth it
We can't stand around
Living morbid lives
To please the people
To please the crowd
We need to live
We need to breathe
And live eccentric lives
That bring us joy
And help us thrive
Because when I look back on my life one day
Or let's make this simplistic
When I look back on my year,
I want grand brilliant technicolour memories
Filled with joy
With memories that brought me great happiness...
Nothing morbid
And nothing grey
I wish to see a technicolour life
Of happiness.
270 · Aug 2018
Letter #3
Elizabeth Burns Aug 2018
Dear You

I wish I met you first
Before Damian
I wish you chatted me up first
I wish you were my first everything
We would have been perfect
No issues
No Damian
We would've done it right
270 · Mar 2019
Untitled
Elizabeth Burns Mar 2019
Dear You

I haven't thought about you for a while
I've been caught up in cancer
But there are times you wander my mind
When I hear phrases like
"he was the one"
"he made me laugh and he was so in love with me"
There is an incredible anger inside of me when I see your photos
And then there's a sadness when I see how my eyes used to shine with you
I was so happy with you
Inexplicably happy
I want that again
I miss you sometimes
But then I remember the pain you caused me
I remember the lies
I remember you blackening my name
I remember you being a prolonged rebound that got too serious too fast
I remember giving myself to you
And I regret it
I regret you
269 · Jun 2017
My letter to poetry
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2017
Poetry, I miss your subtle touch
I miss your sweet embrace
I miss your palms against my skin
Whimsically taking me away from this place...
Oh, Poetry
Touch me again
269 · May 2017
Church bells
Elizabeth Burns May 2017
Church bells scream out to my lonely heart
Melancholic
Alone
268 · Mar 2017
Lost love. Broken
Elizabeth Burns Mar 2017
"I'm not in love with you anymore"
You pronounced without a trace of doubt in yiur eyes
Nor a care
For my broken heart
268 · May 2016
Youth
Elizabeth Burns May 2016
Today was a good day
And I was not forgotten
I was filled with zeal and a gladness that will not suspend
I will burst out in a fit of laughter
With tears in my eyes and
A heart made of sighs
Relaxing sighs
Today was something I enjoy
A light hearted day that felt like
Grade nine
We spoke of truths untold and of silly glamorous ideas
We laughed until our lungs had burst and we wheezed in a glorious spirit
We breathed in the air of life and enjoyed every moment fully
Today is a day I wish all were like
No stress in the world
Not a pyre that destroys our sweet innocence and bursts of joy
I seek to live in a furnace where I may indulge in my youth
I seek to have memorable times
That will never be forgotten
I seek to stay this young
Or perhaps to just indulge
And find my last youthful days sufficient enough
Before the years of trials to come
Where life is one big conundrum
For now, I will drink from my fountain of youth
And ooze with a spirit of fresh renewal and rejuvenation
I will feel alive while I still can
I will never allow man to make me numb
For I will not succumb to his daft requests
To show a dreary pretense of adult behavior
And maturity
No, I choose to enjoy my youth
And ooze a facade of confidence from within
For I am young
And this is my last year of it
And I will
Indulge in this spirit.
267 · Oct 2018
Soul mate
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2018
I think I lost my soul mate
The man of my dreams
God please bring him back
Please tell him
Please
Please hear my prayer
I miss my best friend
265 · Apr 2016
First time muse breeze
Elizabeth Burns Apr 2016
There's something so eloquent
About the first time
You hear a song
You focus
You listen
To every word
Your mind does not falter
You remain attentive
Throughout
A duration
Up to 4 minutes perhaps
240 seconds
And you remain still
Soaking in every word she sings
Every chorus
You concentrate on
You reflect on each line
Every pronunciation
Of each word
You feel her pain
You surrender to the hurt
Inside your heart
And you allow her to tend
To your wounds that
You tried to weave back
Her graceful words
Tear open your sore wound
She snips apart those perfect stitches
That took you so long to weave into your tender skin...
And you open your soul to her words
Her words embrace your heart
And you allow yourself to delve into the forgotten pain
That allows itself to reminisce
In your heart
You think of every word he uttered
Every possible thing that ever made you smile...
And then you embrace the pain...

'Now, baby, how can I forget your love?'

Every word
She enunciates
Is so profound
As she leaves
Her lyrics
Braded around your heart
Carefully sketched as part of your soul

And you remember
That first time
You allowed her
Musical breeze
To touch your wounds...

Every word.
Every musical sound.
A mantra left within.
265 · Mar 2016
Memory
Elizabeth Burns Mar 2016
I think it's your impact that matters
The memory you leave with someone
Do I actually make  a difference?
Have I changed his point of you, his thought patterns?
Have I made a dent?
A mark that stains and never goes away

Will, even my smile, stay in his memory?
Does he even remember my name

I think that's what we want most
To leave  a dent
A mark
To stay within someone's heart
Leave a memory...

Will they remember me?
A face with sad eyes that hid tears
With a beaming smile...
A heart on her sleeve...
Her emotions always bare...

Will they remember me?
And my blonde hair

Will they remember me
Blue eyes that always try to shine
Stay positive
Bring out the light

Will they remember
My sensitive soul
And gentle heart
That always tries to love

Will they even remember...
My heart
Will they even rememb...
My soul
Will they even rem...
My smile
Will they even...
My glance
Will they...
My words.
265 · Oct 2017
Demon eyes
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2017
Oh, how you broke me
Eyes of a demon
Hands of a lover
Whispers of intricacies unknown
O my, how you'd make me feel inside...
Intimate
And whisper, O I love you my dear

Oh, demon eyes,
How did I not know?
That you would bring me to my downfall...
How you would break me...
How you made me replace love with lust

Oh, demon eyes
All I saw was that pretty innocent face
And I loved,
Oh how I loved you

Demon eyes,
Stay away
You are nothing to me now
You are no one.
264 · Oct 2016
This game you play
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
You just don't get it
You're so caught up in your little world
This whole minute life you've created
It matters so much to you
The needs of society,
This social norm you follow
You've gotten so caught up in their train
In their "follow the leader", "Simon says" business
You've forgotten individuality
Identifying one's own passion and following it with all your heart, no matter the consequence
But no, you've fallen into the trap
You've forgotten how to breathe
The smoke has filled your lungs  
And you can't get out of their grasp
the grasp of
Their "selfie" world
Where movement is constant
And you never seem to pause nor ponder at yourself anymore
You keep moving, moving, moving,
Never listening, never growing
So caught up in this money game, in chasing your Piggy bank, your best friend and only companion
You don't care that your soul is dead as you do the "well-paying" job...
Your parents picked it out just for you
You don't care
That you've planned his life so perfectly
It's so well thought out... what could go wrong?
And if those doe eyes dare to mention something else... perhaps something abstract

You'll crush him like a flower
It was unexpected,
And he was so unknowing of your hatred of his bewildered mind
And dream so big
Too big
That he
listens
to your morbid, monotonous,nonchalant talk of
Money, of dreaming unwisely
His broken daisy even forgives
He gives off the purest scent
A Fragrance of forgiveness
Or a fragrance
Of falling into the
Trap
And wilting
As he and you live your last days
Of regret.
Pleading to
Tell them this epiphany, but it's too late
You've already set the game
And it's now theirs to play,
To either unravel your story
Or rip out your perfectly planned pages
And paint.
7.12.2015
263 · Jul 2018
Secret #1
Elizabeth Burns Jul 2018
I'm so afraid of being alone
263 · Jan 2016
10w
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2016
10w
I miss the you I met on a rainy day.
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
The words that hang in the air
Waiting to be said
Waiting to be uttered my lips

I type the three words
Every day
Every week

They hang there on the screen
That line pestering me
Mocking me as it beats there on my ****** phone's screen

Like my heart as it accelerates
As I stare at those black words
On the white screen

You sit there
Like a lazy old drag
On a winter's day

Your smoky silence whisking in the air
Polluting this heart
Soiling my skin

You sit there
You three words
Screaming at me

Pestering me
Muttering my pretence
Hearing every doubt in my heart

You, you three words
You chastise me
Your tantalising flames from that cigarette's blaze

My keyboard knows the words I wish to say
To you, but will I ever muster the courage to say:
'I miss you'
Art
261 · May 2018
Untitled
Elizabeth Burns May 2018
Please don't be with her
Please  
I miss you
259 · Oct 2017
The healing
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2017
You know when I knew my dream had come true?
They felt goosebumps from my voice.
They were singing along to my voice.
And that was my dream. Right there. Coming true before my eyes.
They loved me.
They cheered.
They sang praises.
They sang along to my voice. They mouthed the lyrics.
I wrote a song.
I'm getting there.
I'm becoming me again.
259 · Apr 2016
Stumbled, straying words
Elizabeth Burns Apr 2016
I wonder...
Could I have lost the love
You gave to me...
My love for art and...
So many things...
You made me adore...
Now what of it...
These aspects that never visit my door.
Have I lost it?
Did you take it with you on that trail?
My love for
Art.
For
You.

I do miss you dearly.
Quite unfortunate.
258 · Sep 2016
Tired heart
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
I'm wasting away
I am tired
Oh so tired
And I can not allow myself
To succumb to this exhaustion
This terrible trickery of the mind
I have numbed it!
My head is aching with a burning desire to clench the truth with my bare hands
But I cannot
I cannot
For I am tired of sleepless nights
And restless days
I have stifled her roar once again
And God,
I am tired.
258 · Jun 2016
How do I say it
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2016
How do you say 'I love you'?
I want to say it
At the right moment
At the perfect time

I'm overwhelmed by the love I hold in my heart for you
But I am burdened by the fact that I wait
For an intricate perfect moment

I want it to be special
I want to be filled with an intense desire
To say it
I want it to be romantic

My darling, I can not say it too soon
I am afraid
To give you that piece of my heart
So many pieces have been broken before...

My darling
I adore you

But I want the three words to be uttered
In a sweet, serene moment of purity and innocence
I want to be so consumed by the intense love in my heart
I want it to be raw
I want it to be real
I want you to know that I love you in the purest way

My darling, I want it to be perfect
And my darling
I will wait for that moment
For now, I will allow this love to swell up in my heart
Until I
Am so overwhelmed
That I
Explode
With words
Spoken into
Sweet serene air
And doe eyes
That reflect
Our endearing love.

I will say it
I will say
*I love you.
257 · Jan 2018
Cheating men
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2018
I don't think cheating men
ever understand
the wrath and turmoil
they've caused
inside a woman's heart.
That a weak apology
via another party doesn't cut it..
That it hurts.
That sometimes
life doesn't go on.
The feelings stay.
The hurt lingers.
And when she thinks back in you
All there is is hurt
No soft fond memories
Just hurt
Pain
Betrayal
And fear
She fears to ever trust again...
She fears to trust the man
Who stands before her
Begging for her heart
Begging to love hwr aching soul
Yet she is afraid
She is afraid
Because of you
You ****
You cheating man
The pain you've caused
And this never ending turmoil in her heart
257 · Aug 2018
Letter #2
Elizabeth Burns Aug 2018
dear you

You treated me like a queen
And I pushed you away
I know I did
And you did too
You knew I deliberately pushed
Because I knew I wasn't ready
I pushed you to the edge
I'm so sorry
256 · Sep 2016
I miss me
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
I miss her again
******!
She has stifled her voice again
And why?
What has happened to her?
256 · May 2016
Heartbreak
Elizabeth Burns May 2016
Why can my heart never heal
Why does every man break my heart
2 heartbreaks
One year.
I'm waiting for her to break again.
I won't allow it
I refuse to falter to any man's deceptions
I want to be happy
I want to be free
Let go of me.
252 · Jun 2018
Dementia
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2018
Dementia
Stop romanticising It
It isn't sweet and lovely
Like the notebook describes
It's real
And it smells like
Dull paint drying on the wall
Especially when he's alone
And there's no one to hold him
It's loneliness
Confusion
And sickness
Encompassed into one
Sick Dab of paint
250 · Jun 2018
Insecurity (E) - A Constant
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2018
It's as if insecurity (E)
is a constant
A physical constant
that stays put
and is always the same value
such as those in physics
and mathematics and so on.

A constant like those of the greats
Planck's (h)
Rydberg's (R)
Boltzmann's (k)

Insecurity is a constant for me
And I have named you thusly so
Insecurity - (E)
With a constant value
That remains

In every equation.

If one adds security,
hurt will follow.
If you think someone or something is going to stay,
this fails and the constant of the equation will prevail.

You cannot alter this constant
You can't try subdue it

It is what is

It's basic mathematics
249 · Jun 2016
Drink
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2016
Let's go drinking together
Let's get intoxicated together, as you say
We'll get mildly drunk
But I'll be drunk on you
You'll be drunk on me

I'll drink you dry
Like a fountain of youth
We'll indulge in sweet wines
And strong aromatic flavours

Oh my love
Let's get intoxicated
Let's lose our minds
Let's lose our wits
And become insane

I'll become that pleasant person I become
This confident ecstatic girl who doesn't give a ****
She lives freely

Perhaps
I am unwise to say so
To say we should
Drink

Because I get drunk on you
Like a rustic Cabernet
Like a scorching Gluwyn in my throat
My mind becomes hazy
And I don't think about anything that could go wrong
Oh how I adore that feeling

When I
Am
With
You,

I drink.
248 · Sep 2016
Tribute to 04/09
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
I do think of you fondly from time to time, my dear
Your broken heart is etched into my heart...
A piece of me will always feel something towards you
Perhaps it is a silent hatred or a soft fondness...
The betrayal will never leave
But a small intricate part of me
Will always feel some emotion for you
And I pray to God you know that
My sweet Art,
You were my very first...
I'm not quite sure what to call what we were, Art
But we were certainly something grand
I could never call you a friend
Perhaps a self-discovery partner in crime?
Your persuasive art of making me fall in love with poetry and passion...
Your poetry carved into my soul.
Today marks the day we met
One year ago
When my soul was brought back to life
By your sweet, subtle touch...
Know this and know it well
I will always feel something for you, my sweet Art.
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2018
You always claimed
That I was fake
Around certain people
But only those you disliked
Around my ex
Around my best friend
Around those who made me laugh and act in a different way to you
But baby,
Do you ever think?
Maybe you were the one I was fake around
Maybe I was a lie
Or maybe you were just the control freak
246 · Jan 2016
Tread
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2016
I lay my heart before your feet
So trusting
Unwary
Not a single fear
I gave you my dreams
I gave you all I had to give
I gave you all of me
I gave you the option to either tread
Or leave me be
And love every gritty part of me
and treat me with care...

But, you cast away
All trust I had in you
You betrayed me
And you tread on my dreams,
Not softly
But with force and
Intent
To hurt
Me
Such an innocent being.

Oh, "tread softly because you tread on my dreams"
But you decided not to
You decided to
Tread
On my dreams.
'He wishes for the Cloths of Heaven'
246 · Feb 2016
Just Another Melody
Elizabeth Burns Feb 2016
I detest you
Your visage carved into my mind
Burning in flames of hatred
As you allowed my heart to bleed
In a chasm filled with
Skeletal remains and disparaged carnage

There was a war here
In this very heart...  

It was once a place of sweet melodies
Soft voices uttered from our very lips
As your aesthetics gave me a sense of renewal
And I discovered the beauty of your visage
As you made me feel like me again

But now, I sit.
Surrounded by flames
And Skeletal remains
Of a battle that was...
Won?
A battle I condemned myself to
And my fate was unraveled from the coil
As I begged you not to leave me
I begged you to sing to me once more
Our strange duet
A melodious clamour...
A hush
A kiss
Our lips so perfectly inclined

And then you left so swiftly
With my heart in your hands
Without a memory of me
Because I was just another melody...
245 · Nov 2018
When reality hits
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2018
I never thought I'd appreciate home so much... The last time I was home I was packing up for res and had long hair and life was normal. The saddest, most dramatic thing that happened thus far was a stupid heartbreak and I thought the was the end of the world. Then I got back to res and I felt strange. My diagnosis happenened and life changed complete after a man uttered three words into my life that changed my life into a series of hurdles and challenges and life completely changed. Nothing was normal. Life's focus completely changes and home is a far, distant concepts unknown to you. Home became a bubble. Home becomes a hospital room. I never knew I missed my own bedroom so much. God, you never appreciate something until it's gone do you. You don't appreciate anything until you year "you have cancer" and your greatest Fears come to life. You see your parents beg to God you'll live. You don't want to see them because you don't want reality to hit you. Then, you get home and you have to come out of this daze. This is real. This is happening. Cancer is so real and in your face. You can't avoid it anymore. This happened and you can't stay in this little positive bubble for too much longer. The bubble has burst and reality has hit you right in the face.
This happened.
But, you're surviving.
245 · Apr 2017
Fragility of the morn
Elizabeth Burns Apr 2017
I loved him in his fragility...
I basked in this beauty of the morn
Of he and I
In perfect serene
This place where time stood still
And I realise
Just how dear he is to me
I love him.
244 · Jun 2016
Gone
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2016
My darling, you've proven me wrong
Humanity is actually one big mess
The way I am
Now that you really are

Gone.
244 · Mar 2017
Silence of the morning
Elizabeth Burns Mar 2017
Take me back to the silence of the morning
The sweet serenity of gnawing sheets
Not persisting for this day to begin
Begging me to lie here
In sweet, sweet,
Morning air
Brisk
And sweet
Your lips tender
Saying
"stay here"

Oh, silence of the morning
I am nostalgic for your touch
244 · Oct 2016
Scream
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
"Scream"*
A motion picture film playing serenely in the background...
As we stood
It started as a simple hug
Where we breathed each other in
You and I
And I took my head from your perfect shoulder
And looked into those endearing, dark eyes
And I remember the perfection and serenity
As we slow danced
To no music at all
Swaying from side to side
My doe eyes
My pupils dilating
As you leaned into me
As your lips touched mine
Fully
For the very first time
And I breathed you in
And we kissed
My first kiss...
That you stole...


and I allowed you to steal
It
As Scream played serenely in the background...
And I uttered *'I Love You'

With the kind of Love
From 1 Corinthians 13...
I recited...
'Love is patient, Love is kind...'
And I asked you whether that was the Love that flooded from each of our hearts
And you declared that it was
That you loved me in the purest way
You rested your hands on my hips
As my arms hung loosely around your soft neck
And I rested my lips on that tender neck
And soaked you in
And the serenity of
This kiss
The darkness
And the sweet serenity of
Scream playing in the background...
244 · Jun 2018
You're my home
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2018
He's so afraid
So afraid of me running back to you
If he only he knew
I've been in a rainstorm
I've been soaked by the pouring

You're my bridge
I like to be dry
I like to be safe
There's no way I'd go back
Into the rain
After finding
My home
243 · Apr 2018
Vulnerability
Elizabeth Burns Apr 2018
I think it is
One of the most glorious of things
To see
Another being so vulnerable
In the palm of your hands
Eyes staring so intently
So raw
Enigmatic
Yet so clear

Vulnerability in the morn
Ever so soft
Pillows caress softly
Gently
Smooth against my skin
And your eyes
How they stare into my heart

As I sketch this image
Of nurture
And love
As you hold me

Vulnerability
How sweet you taste under my tongue
An enigma ever so true
I love you
243 · Dec 2016
On nights like these
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
On nights like these...
When I am alone with my thoughts
I miss you
242 · Aug 2018
Let go
Elizabeth Burns Aug 2018
When you left
I let go
Of him
And held onto the thought
Of you
242 · Jun 2016
"Just a phrase"
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2016
Please don't tell me you love me
So soon
I'm afraid
That you
Will fear
My darkness

Hidden within.
241 · Jun 2018
How do I heal?
Elizabeth Burns Jun 2018
I need to heal
For real this time
Not with a smart mouth
And a friendship
With flirtatious banter
No that never helped me
How do you heal
When his best friend is desperately in love with you
And acts as your best friend
And leaves you a few months later
Because he rushed into this
And he realizes now you were never ready
But you told him that
You told him that the twenty times he begged you to be his girlfriend
Does no one understand
I was so tired
So tired of the begging
It became so much
I caved
And then it all happened so fast
It's all a blur really
My heart was never in it
He was my best friend
*** felt weird
Everything felt wrong
I guess the hormones were there
But it felt wrong
I'm so insecure
I was never ready
And now he's gone
Because of my insecurities
He promised he'd never leave
He was so in love with me
How does that just change
How
So quickly
Now I'm broken
Broken by my savior
Broken by everything
How do I heal now
How
Someone tell me please
I need answers
That's all
Please
How do I heal?
How do I be my own hero?
240 · Jul 2018
Sick of saviors
Elizabeth Burns Jul 2018
I'm so sick
Of saviors
Because saviors get tired
They get tired of making you smile
They get tired of listening to you cry
They get tired of you
And eventually scream
"You're too much"
I'm sick of men preying on vulnerability
Becoming a woman's center
Making him her happy place
Confusing her heart
Because baby,
Saviors get tired
And they stop caring
They stop calling when you need them
And they give up
And let go
And leave you broken again
Because
Saviors aren't saviors at all
They fake a healing ceremony
And then they leave
And you're worse off than the start
Saviors are fake *******
Cowardly men
Who have no control over their hormones

I'm so sick of saviors
Just leave me be
240 · Jan 2018
10w
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2018
10w
Why do you
Still have
This terrible
Hold on Me?
236 · Oct 2016
Futile Attempt
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
It's like kissing lips
That stand there
Passive and limp
Without a pulse
Without any inclination
To move against my lips
My words are empty
My eyes are drenched with tears
And I am allowing myself
To succumb to this desperate trail of heartache
I do not wish to fight with you
I do not wish to feel anguish
Nor despair
I merely wish to love you
However I wish for you to know that it is hard
It is hard to love someone who does not kiss back
Who sits
And watches me try
And I cry silently, my Love
Praying you'll notice these tears dripping down...
And God, the futility of This act is much too raw for me to bare
God, my attempt to love...
Give me something back.
235 · Sep 2016
You are human
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
What I adore is your humanity
Your ability to embrace life
With shameless guilt
And profanity
And great cuss words as they spew from your lips
I love your path to sanity which involves indulging in the insane
You are my human
And I adore your human lust.
235 · Oct 2018
Untitled
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2018
I hate pining over my ex
But it's what I do
I ***** everything up
233 · Sep 2018
Forgive me, baby
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2018
I've realized
That I have something to thank you for
You built me up again
After he broke me
You made me better
You made me love me again

I recall that I had forgotten his abuse
I had disregarded it and
I had looked upon his pros
And i understand now how that must have made you feel
You knew how broken I was
And you built me up
And yet I still seeked him

Oh baby
I am so sorry
Please forgive me
232 · Nov 2017
I was your Harley
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2017
Do you remember baby?
I was your Harley
You were my Joker
And how true we were
To that analogy
The desire was real
The lust
The passionate love
Oh and the abuse
That was real too
The emotional abuse
The verge of physical abuse
Yes baby
You were my Joker
And I was your
Endearing
Obedient
Little Harley

"Drive baby drive."
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