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Feb 2017 · 369
I drown. I gasp.
Elizabeth Burns Feb 2017
Drowning

beneath a sea
of tears

from dreams
put to a

*silent death.
Feb 2017 · 201
Hello Tired Soul
Elizabeth Burns Feb 2017
Eyes, you are worn
And heart, you have stumbled
You need rest, my dear one
You need love and hope
And something to believe in
Hush, my sweet
Soon your dreams will come to life
Feb 2017 · 536
Alone
Elizabeth Burns Feb 2017
Church bells cry out to my loneliness...
My heart filled with melancholy
The dust has settled around me
And I am alone
I realise this
Even though destiny whispers my name...
I am alone
No one to hold
No one to utter the words, "it's going to be okay"
I am alone
And I detest this dream
I stupidly imagined
Would be bliss
Yet all I hear
Are those melancholic church bells
Calling out
"Lonely, lonely girl...
Nowhere to go
Nowhere to hide
No one to care for your
dust-cladded soul."
Jan 2017 · 305
Dreamless life.
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
And so I sit in my box
My life planned out for me
Every footstep paved for me
My eyes are morbid, still
I have no dream
It is dying slowly
This colourful life I invisioned for myself
Is slowly, ever so quietly
Becoming nothingness
My dream is dead
My eyes no longer light up with passion
This it what I am
Jan 2017 · 254
10w: Broken relationship
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
Relationships ruined us
broke us...
turned into a vicious beings
Jan 2017 · 351
Unexpected Expectations
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
And that night
That wondrous, victorious night
We betrayed our morals
And we drank
Without an ounce of fear in our eyes
We laughed
And allowed the hazy liquid to
Smother our lips
Our lips quivered and shook
From its great immensity
Its strength and valour
As if this bottle was a knight
In a ****** battle
Addict
To the smell of blood
His vigorous effort to defeat the enemy...
Sober, the enemy
Was defeated before the night turned
Pitch black with whispers
Of pale yellow light

And we drove off...
Slowly into the night
As her sheer darkness kissed us

We laughed
The car shook from side to side
Like maniacs we drove

The sound of screaming brakes
I caught my breath
And we stopped
Our eyes bewildered
At the monstrous truck...
Bright terrible lights
That shined...

On our terrified faces
Of what could've been
Death on this road
On the tar pavement...

What could've been
But what was not

We were alive
Breathing heavily
Hearts dropped to the ground
With defeat

Defeated by the idea of life itself...

And our tongues rapidly swept the land
Of this new self discovery
Of a life that must be lived
Of a life
That begs and pleads
For us to live
To breathe
To have a story to tell from each day
To live fully
And effervescently

I say
Live.
Jan 2017 · 269
Apology
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
I apologise for my ease with the arousal of your body...
Yet I can not fathom your mind
Jan 2017 · 313
An icy evening
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
And so we spoke...

We sat on an icy green bench
Misty claws at our lips

Yes, we spoke

Pedestrians passed us by
A glance here and there
At our steaming conversation in this icy seclusion

We spoke

Long and hard
About all that had broken us
Everything they have ever said to us
To destroy and decapitate our effervescent souls

We spoke for much longer

I told you quietly
Softly
That there is a pit inside me
Drenched in void and emptiness
A pit filled with no passion
Loss
Pain
Envy
A broken heart

We spoke...

I told you how...
I never knew Writer's Block
Or perhaps a Passion Block
Could last so long...
Three years in fact

We spoke...
And finally you stopped me.

You spoke

And you told me to ignite it

And I begged...
I pleaded

"How?"

You told me to get a blank page
And write
Write the biggest load of nonsense
Write because you can
Write and ignite that fire again
Write with passion
Write about darkness, envy, betrayal
Every emotion that has ever crossed your mind
But ******, girl... Write!

And flames drew up inside my heart
My silent ember sang again
There was warmth in this icy cold
Enveloping us

Oh...
How we spoke
That evening...
An icy evening...
Just you and I.
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
The dark look in your eyes...
Mysterious, yet effervescent

A loss of innocence...
Purity... Are you still here?

Satisfaction beyond compare
Bewildered and intrigued by the sensation

Surrender yourself...

Forgive me.
Jan 2017 · 515
Facade
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
I am standing upon the
Thinnest
Most fragile
Layer of ice

And I walk
Slowly
Ever so softly

But I hear a the slightest whisper
And I hear a
Crack

I stumble
And my pristine ice
Is broken

Like this facade...
Close to breaking
Just from a mere whisper.
Jan 2017 · 300
A lady of the night
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
Her father was a drunk
Yet she,
She tried to stay sane
She never allowed a sip to touch her lips
She smoked
And she wrote
A lot
About everything she'd ever seen in her life
She lived casually
Forgetful
A quiet
Yet spontaneous life
Carefree
And an enigma to those
Who watched her live.
Jan 2017 · 298
Graveyard blues
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
I hear the cicada
The birds chirping
The breeze

I feel you in this place

The heat is unbearable
And I am suffocating
But the flowers...

There is a scent of you here

I miss you

But there is a stench
An awful terrible something
In the air

The scent of death

And death isn't something beautiful
It's brutal
And painful
And tears at your eyes
As the Tears spill put
Flooding your face.

I hear the cicada
Deafening me
I feel the breeze
Wasting away and

I feel you here
And, God
This isn't easy.
Jan 2017 · 2.0k
Yearning
Elizabeth Burns Jan 2017
Sitting here
Where your body lies
Your heart deafened
Your life gone by

As the birds chirp
And life chatters away
I hear you
Loud and clear on this day

Your life beckons
Full
And dear

I miss you Ouma
My partner in crime
My maat
My beste vriend

Ek mis ons gesprekke
In Afrikaans
Ek mis jou lag
Jou Rooi rosige wange
Jy

En Ek sit hier
Sonder jou

I haven't felt myself since you've been gone
I've been empty
Waiting
For someone to help this yearning
This longing in my heart

I sit beside your grave
Tears clenched in my eyes
Holding back my own life

I miss you Ouma
I miss you so
And forever I will be empty
Without you
As I am
Yearning
For you so.
Dec 2016 · 195
Give and take
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
I give you my all.

You leave me
With
Nothing
In my trembling hands.
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
You meant it as a mere joke
Something I should laugh at
But those words stuck
And I felt a putrid, vile taste in my mouth
As you said it
I thought it was a night of love
I was wrong
I was so wrong
For you chuckled
And laughed at it
And you sniggered
And said ever so hauntingly...
"It was the night you lost your innocence."

And you continued to laugh
As my heart sank
And my pure heart was
Drenched
In black oil
Staining my heart

Never to be pure again.
Words hurt
Even those from the ones you love dearly...
Dec 2016 · 332
Am I?
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
I feel as if I could diagnose myself with something


A disease of sorts
A mindset
Something I've allowed myself to journey into...

This world of no purpose
No joy
****** surrendering
A loss of innocence

Becoming an adult perhaps

I am unsure

I feel a heaviness in my heart

What am I?

Could it be?

How can I be so morbid?

Why don't my eyes light up anymore?

What am I?

I'm afraid to say it

Perhaps I'm being dramatic
Getting ahead of myself

Help me.
Dec 2016 · 380
What happened to you?
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
Perhaps you shouldn't give your all
To a man
Give him your heart
Your body
You open up completely
And fulfill every ****** whim


And what are you left with?

When all you seek is connection...
His heart... His dreams... His depth...

Nothing

You're left with a broken heart
Broken dreams
Because he is your all
He is your centre
And you mean nothing to him
He has a life
He doesn't want you every hour

And there is no problem with that
Perhaps one loses one's purpose...
You become so involved in the other
That you seek purpose in fulfilling ****** whims
And it's not enough
When you're alone at night
In your cold bed
With your thoughts shallow
And swimming wildly in your mind
He has no care

He wants ***.
He wants your body.

Your heart is nothing.

Leave
Leave...

Give yourself some time
You miss you
Be you, my love
Your eyes are sad
And you are no longer you
Where is your God loving heart?
What happened to you...
Dec 2016 · 397
Withering Christmas Heart
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
My Christmas spirit withers
Frozen in a time unknown
At a younger, innocent time
Dec 2016 · 396
Lost and Letting Go
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
I had a conversation with the man who haunts my dreams
Who wanders around my mind like a lost soul
With the man who broke my heart...
Who shattered my innocent dreams of love
And we spoke
It felt unreal
Surreal
Psychedelic perhaps
It felt like a dream speaking to him again
A fantasy perhaps
We haven't spoken in a year
He's broken me
He's hurt me
He's shattered my heart
But no
Not this time
This time I am a warrior
Slashing his words
And menacingly swallowing every look his eyes have as they trail down my body
With lust
No love
Not an ounce of love

We were just a game of lust
You lusted over my body
I loved your artistic melodious heart

You want me physically
I want emotional depth

You want my body
I want your heart

You said I was lost
I am broken
I can not see my path any longer

You were right about that

You always know my heart
But then you seek more...
The more I can not give
For innocence is all I have
To give this world

And this time...
I'm letting you go, lover boy

For you and I can never be
We are too broken for one another
Two shattered souls can never try to seek love from one another
For we only find emotional depth
Something beyond my wildest dreams
I find in you.

But I am letting go
Letting go of your tug on my heart
On those shattered pieces you left in me

Go
Leave
Get out of my heart.
Dec 2016 · 156
Untitled
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
I haven't written much lately
I wonder What's happened to me
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
You and I
When we're together...
I feel like I've escaped my portal of inconvenience and misinterpreted life
I feel as if we've run away
We laugh easily
And smile at the sky
We kiss in dark corners
And we sit on the hood of your car
Like the world is ours
We converse
And I listen to your stories of life
When I'm with
I feel like we have run away
I see
Mischief...
In our late night shenanigans
Dec 2016 · 228
On nights like these
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
On nights like these...
When I am alone with my thoughts
I miss you
Dec 2016 · 417
On nights like these
Elizabeth Burns Dec 2016
On nights like these... I miss you
I miss your poetic zest
I miss your broken touch on my skin
I miss the powerful, intense desire I had
For you...
For your mind?
I miss the obsession I had
With your lips that burnt my skin
With your fingers that delicately caressed my tears away
I miss your tranquil breathing beside me
Oh God, I miss him
Nov 2016 · 1.4k
Goodbye, Alma Mater
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
My newfound life beckons me and it whispers my name so enchantingly
I am beguiled by its eyes that stare at me
I am surrounded
Her scream is Deafening as I stand here surrounded by profound
and rough brick walls
I am someone lost
I have been filled with melancholy much too long
and I say no
I say no to melancholic withdrawal
This is my life
And I will break free of this depression...
This black pit and abyss of doom...
For I see light
A light so bright and blazing
I am bewildered by the haze
but it fuses and it beckons
I am dumbfounded by myself
and the life I have misled
Whilst I sit here, I hear my future screeching and humbly whispering...
Whilst I hear the scraping desks and the monotonous drone of footsteps,
I see my future bright and clear...
Perhaps I am a writer.
Perhaps I am a helper.
Perhaps I am a success
or I may fall sometimes...

My life seems cataclysmic
and I no longer wish to be lost
I wish for inspiration to enter my lungs
and to thirst for passion in every single day
I wish for my words to be potent and powerful
I wish to be an enigma for the world to explore
I no longer want to suffer from nostalgia for my former self
I will not stifle her passion

She is a writer.
She is a teacher.
She is a helper.
She is a dreamer of dreams.

She will stand before a sea of green someday and she will teach the young minds.
She will inspire.

I will walk out of these doors
slowly and quietly
as my feet
soak in every memory
and every piece
of flesh
that has been moulded and formed
by their touch.
I am me.
I have been made by them.
And I will not forget this building
with its rough, red brick walls
and I will forever hear their motto
clearly in my ears
Echoing and calling me back
Resounding and drumming...

And I will say goodbye...
Goodbye, my alma mater...
As starry vistas lie before my eyes...
Thank you for your wisdom
and your touch on my life.
Nov 2016 · 355
The purest form of a muse
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
My muse...
You have returned
In your purest form
A screeching
And thundering roar
Oh my sweet muse
Drench me in your tears
I have thirsted so long for your touch on my lips
Quenched...
Your cataclysmic sounds
Deafening
Yet now I can finally hear
I can see
I can breathe your life again
I am alive

Thunder
Lightening
Rain
My muse
You have returned.
Nov 2016 · 192
The sky, the sky!
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
The sky, the sky!
It angered...
It hummed...
And the sky cracked open
With tears needed to be shed
By the people of my land
Their hearts are broken
And melancholy reigns...
But on this morn
The sky broke
The clouds screeched
And the earth cried
With triumph...

However now I hear the whispers of the sky
She no longer weeps
Her leaves rustled
And her heart pumped life into this earth

The sky, the sky!
The earth is awake.
Nov 2016 · 177
The Rise and Fall
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
This world can not take the pressure to maintain glory and happiness
So one must never believe that their bubble of absolute happy will last
For one only one can be happy
And so the other must be sad
One will never find two pieces of happiness in one place
There will always be a rise for one
And a fall for another
Perhaps you were at the epitome of happiness...
This, my friend, will not last
Sadness will hit
Your melancholy will Dwell inside you
And another will steal the happiness you prayed to keep
For this is the way of the world...
The Rise and The Fall.
Nov 2016 · 494
Broken
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
If you do not want to love me
Any longer
Please do tell my whimpering heart
I am broken
I hate this
I hate us
Right now
Just tell me
And be honest
I think I may be able
To handle your brutal truth.
Nov 2016 · 342
Begging God
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
God, today I am lonely
My heart is wrought and I am empty
I have fought
I have battled

But, God, today I was dancing with you
My King
I was praising Your Mighty Name
And you were dancing with me
As I praised
As I sang aloud
With no fear
And i made a promise
That I would not allow you to leave my heart
You have been jealous
Jealous of these men who have tried to  take your place
You are a jealous God and you have every right to be
I have disregarded Your Presence
I am Sinner
And God, I beg for your forgiveness
Forgive me for lusting
Forgive me for losing myself
Forgive me for forgetting to call Your Name!
God, Dwell in me!
Stay here in this sanctuary
I do not want a man to take Your Sacred Place
I want You
I want a heart like Yours
I am Your Lily of the Valley
And I wish to never wander from Your Arms
Lord, I need you
God, please stay beside my heart

God, I beg you
Stay in my heart, my King
I have come into the Holy of Holies
To Dwell
To stay
To be with you
God, I beg you
Let me stay here...
Nov 2016 · 662
Lily of the Valley
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
Lily of the Valley
Is your heart still pure?
Or are you wrought with doubt?
My dear, you are cleansed in Him
Your naked body before Him
Your rags are cleaned
And forever you will be
His Princess...
His Pure Lily of the Valley
Nov 2016 · 382
Kiss
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
Kiss me and don't go
never leave me
grip onto my back the way
    you grip onto this reckless heart.
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
And when we fell in love...
I couldn't quite decide what to do with these
Overwhelming feelings in my heart
The way your touch makes me feel alive
The manner in which you place your lips on mine and I experience life for the first time
You are mine
And I am forever yours...

You speak about us
As if we are infinite
There is no end to us
You plan to be mine forever
And, God, I wouldn't mind waking up to that glorious smile for the rest of my life
You say, in five years... We'll be planning...
You have faith in us
You want me
You actually want my tired soul
And worn eyes
And I want you...
I want your bad moods
I want the blistering cold
I want dark nights filled with your warmth
No matter where life takes us
I want you to be my forever
I will be here
I will stand by you for us

My forever...
I'd never thought I'd find such love so young...
Oh, God, Let it be.
Quite a romantic outburst...
Nov 2016 · 273
Morbid Walk
Elizabeth Burns Nov 2016
As of late I have felt uninspired
And I apologise profusely
To me
For being morbid
For being absolutely absurd
And not treasuring a single moment any more
I used to have moments of impact
Moments that I could hold onto
I've lost that
I don't know how
But I have
And this is a sad truth I have established
My sad life
Filled with brilliance
Yet I walk morbidly in the misty night
Embarking on a journey
Yet losing sight of the prize
Oct 2016 · 218
Scream
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
"Scream"*
A motion picture film playing serenely in the background...
As we stood
It started as a simple hug
Where we breathed each other in
You and I
And I took my head from your perfect shoulder
And looked into those endearing, dark eyes
And I remember the perfection and serenity
As we slow danced
To no music at all
Swaying from side to side
My doe eyes
My pupils dilating
As you leaned into me
As your lips touched mine
Fully
For the very first time
And I breathed you in
And we kissed
My first kiss...
That you stole...


and I allowed you to steal
It
As Scream played serenely in the background...
And I uttered *'I Love You'

With the kind of Love
From 1 Corinthians 13...
I recited...
'Love is patient, Love is kind...'
And I asked you whether that was the Love that flooded from each of our hearts
And you declared that it was
That you loved me in the purest way
You rested your hands on my hips
As my arms hung loosely around your soft neck
And I rested my lips on that tender neck
And soaked you in
And the serenity of
This kiss
The darkness
And the sweet serenity of
Scream playing in the background...
Oct 2016 · 298
Conversation
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
"Do you know what your problem is?"

"What is my problem? Do tell me."

"You don't understand the raw beauty of your soul. You're so caught up in trying to convince others to find their passions yet you don't allow yourself that privilege... To discover yourself. You're lost. You're on this hopeless trail of your own and you're disregarding yourself. You're allowing your passion to die inside yourself as you convince others to ignite theirs. What is wrong with you? You're this raw beautiful thing and you're letting your passion die. Don't let it die. Find it and resuscitate that whining child inside... Breathe into those dead, dry bones and live. Be passionate. Ignite."
Oct 2016 · 585
The Man with money
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
I believe I have found what I have lost
Right now
I have lost my passion
The word I used to speak about so profoundly
I've lost my hunger
My desire for something to live for
I've lost myself somewhere along the way
On my journey this year
I am merely a morbid creature drifting along
Shutting her heart from emotion
Lusting
Not feeling any sin
Any traces of emotion  
I had a desire for words
For language
I wished to study linguistics and language
As this is what my heart pounds for
But alas
The man with money will not allow me to do so
The man with money will not allow me to study a hopeless degree
I must study something mathematical
That will bring the cash
So I will not end in a dire state of poor finances
I wish not to leave my parents bankrupt
****** I hate this world
Money money money
That's all I see
Like a beggar beside the road
Please please I'll do anything
I feel like a common *****
Forgetting her hidden passions
And merely opening her legs
For the man with money
Passion is lost
I am in an abyss that is void of emotion
And creativity
I am numb
This is the life I am to follow
Void of passion
Void of what I want to do
I thought I had a dream filled with passion and zealous wonders and adventure
But the man with money had a dream for me too...
Morbid and still I will be
A common *****
Begging for your money
Oct 2016 · 900
Enchant me
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
Enchant me
Beguile me
Take me to a place no man has ever been
Take me away on a magic carpet ride
Show me the world
Be my prince
Take me into a land of faes and fairy wonders
Take me away...
And I will never come back
Take me to the second star to the right...
Make me a princess
Enchant this damsel in distress
You heroic knight in shining armour
Give me your handkerchief and recite a poem for me
Pick up my glass slipper in distress as I run from the ball to my pumpkin carriage
Take me away to wonderland
And lead me on trails I can never find again
Crown me Princess of Narnia
Lead me into a wardrobe of wanders
Enchant me
Beguile me
Take me away...
Oct 2016 · 587
I miss me
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
I miss myself
She loved poetry
She indulged in language
She sang sweet tunes
She had a muse

But now she is sad
Her heart is broken
And she wanders

She believed God heard her
She had a definition for her life

But now she is lost
Am I even seeking her anymore?
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
To me, it is a leap of faith
To fall in love
To give someone your heart
Love is terribly daunting
It is beautiful and
Terrifying to give someone the power to destroy you...
You place them inside your heart
A place woven perfectly for them...
You allow him to grip onto your heart the way he clutches onto your back
As he takes you...
As he marvels at the beauty of your body and your very soul
You allow him to see inside of you...
The dark desolate dreams that silently scream...
You allow him to know who you truly are
That sometimes you cuss
And time to time tears flood from your eyes
You give him every piece of you
He grabs your heart
The way he tears at your soul
As you open up every part to him...
Perhaps you do love this man
For when you see him, love swells inside your heart
And you become someone you had never thought you could be...
Passionate and precise...

Love is daunting
Love is allowing you soul to be placed upon inspection
And they dissect every piece of you
Observe you
And you pray to God that they'll love those
Dark and defiled pieces of your heart...
And those pieces that are good and happy
And filled with love to give to them

Love is incredibly terrifying
And I pray that this is it
You will love me
Forever perhaps...
I truly do hope that this is love...
Because I feel that what I have for you
Is that daunting
Feeling of love...
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
Truly I have not found the meaning of life
But I've found a hypothesis
A theory I believe true
How to live a full and extraordinary life
In your own sense of the word extraordinary
Is to be happy...
Grasp the mundane
Dance with the simple sweet days
Where you do not allow the slightest irritation to let anger boil out of you
You suppress the urge to be angry at everyday...
You embrace those subtle, silent moments
Of pure joy
Or even just a moment where the slightest smirk
Adorns your lips
Or your eyes smile at something so small and intricate
You do not need large, extravagant moments in your life...
Embrace the mundane
Sip the sweet silent moments
As if they are delectable wine you treasure on your palate...

Hush.
Be quiet for just a moment
And embrace the terrific anger of that time
The heat of the fight
The applause from the crowd as you walk on the stage
Embrace
Embark on a journey where mundane becomes perfection

This is my recipe for you
Life will never be perfect
Granted, there will be moments of perfection
But not every single day
But do not despair, my sweet

So often you find your dream seems so out of reach
You try to clutch onto it
But it is just too far for your hands to clutch onto

And I say wait

Wait patiently
Because time is raw
And it does not wait for when you are ready
It grabs you by the arms
At the worst time
At the most unnecessary time
And gives you exactly what you need...
Just not when it's right for you...

And time will never listen to you
Your plans will not fall into place
The way you wish them to
Time has a way of taking that plan
And crumbling every detail into a ball
And throwing it the hounds to chew
And make it into a new plan
Your original 'perfect plan' defiled and mutilated

Yes, life is a terrible circus
But I wish that you will walk on
You will try your best to follow your dreams
And walk the path life leads you on
Embrace the mundane
And the heat of the moment when despair stares you in the eyes and anger boils inside of you
I say
Embrace
Embrace time not listening to you
Embrace the moments of sadness
Embrace every adventure you embark on
And allow light To flood your eyes
And your heart to feel full of love
You will find a way to cope
It is not over yet...

This is my hypothesis
My simple theory
And I pray somehow
It may help a tired soul...
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
"That's what passion looks like"
That's what you told me after you kissed me
After I gave you all I had
I gave you my entire heart
Every piece of my soul
And I don't want anyone else
I want you
And only you
My sweet love
You are my passion
I want you forever
You question me
'Will you die for me...
No no that's too easy...
Will you...
Live for me?'
Willing to stay beside you
Willing to be with you no matter what
Willing to hold onto us no matter what happens...
We will fight...
I say 'Yes'
I will live for you
Every day
Forever
You and I
Always.
A reciting of the Joker's lines...
Probably one of the most romantic and passionate lines ever said to me...
And I replied 'Yes' with absolute sincerity and truth.
Oct 2016 · 275
Last Day
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
The significance of this day is undiscovered
And I walk melancholic
On this lonely path

This is my last day
To roam the corridors
To hear their carefree laughter
To be alive in this moment

This is the last day
I am bewildred by my thoughts
Of misery and a subdued heart

I can not be here
I can not dream
I can not succumb to tears

I am alone

I walk alone
I cry alone

No one will care about my morbid heat
No one will care about what my future holds

I am alone
On this awkward,
Lonesome,
Melancholic path.

I am alone.
Oct 2016 · 511
My hopeless, tired walk
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
There is not a single creative bone in my body
At this moment in my life
I am trying
I am begging
To feel inspired by something in my life at this moment
But all my life is at this moment
Is an arrangement of morbid depression and a constant, pounding tiredness
I can not awaken
My future looks dull
And there is nothing I can do
But carry on
On this hopeless trail
As I follow the life planned out for me
Oh so perfectly
I follow you
I follow your steps
Your path
And I declare
That I am tired
Of this hopeless, tired walk
I allow myself to walk.
Much love from a hopeless heart void of creativity and numbed by society's ongoing pull and need to walk on
For what?
Oct 2016 · 948
Praise Song: Your Conduit
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
Jesus, make me your conduit
Make me your soldier
Who oozes righteousness and
Fervently speaks your word
With passion and praise
May my tongue never cease to praise Your Holy Name
Holy, Holy, Holy
Hosanna in the Highest
I proclaim Your Name on high
Oh, Jesus
Make me an instrument of Your Mighty Word
May my lips thirst for Your Word
May the Longing in my heart fail to cease
Make me Your Conduit
So that Your Word may easily flow through me
Praise Jesus
Yahweh
My King in Heaven
I give you praise.
Oct 2016 · 225
This game you play
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
You just don't get it
You're so caught up in your little world
This whole minute life you've created
It matters so much to you
The needs of society,
This social norm you follow
You've gotten so caught up in their train
In their "follow the leader", "Simon says" business
You've forgotten individuality
Identifying one's own passion and following it with all your heart, no matter the consequence
But no, you've fallen into the trap
You've forgotten how to breathe
The smoke has filled your lungs  
And you can't get out of their grasp
the grasp of
Their "selfie" world
Where movement is constant
And you never seem to pause nor ponder at yourself anymore
You keep moving, moving, moving,
Never listening, never growing
So caught up in this money game, in chasing your Piggy bank, your best friend and only companion
You don't care that your soul is dead as you do the "well-paying" job...
Your parents picked it out just for you
You don't care
That you've planned his life so perfectly
It's so well thought out... what could go wrong?
And if those doe eyes dare to mention something else... perhaps something abstract

You'll crush him like a flower
It was unexpected,
And he was so unknowing of your hatred of his bewildered mind
And dream so big
Too big
That he
listens
to your morbid, monotonous,nonchalant talk of
Money, of dreaming unwisely
His broken daisy even forgives
He gives off the purest scent
A Fragrance of forgiveness
Or a fragrance
Of falling into the
Trap
And wilting
As he and you live your last days
Of regret.
Pleading to
Tell them this epiphany, but it's too late
You've already set the game
And it's now theirs to play,
To either unravel your story
Or rip out your perfectly planned pages
And paint.
7.12.2015
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
I sit
Perched beside my window
With this fresh cold air pouring into my room
There is no yellow light outside
It is cold and perfectly serene
I see a mist of blue over my garden
The trees stand silently
And the great pool of water does not stir
There is no movement so early in the morning
The birds merely chirp discretely
Awakening this world to a new day
This is the earth's silent hour
She is awake,
But her eyelids only just start to flutter
This is my favourite beauty
This silent, lonely
Tranquil beauty
Of morning...

The cold breeze is a reminder that I am alive
I am breathing
My tears will dry
It is time to focus
On me
On my life
Exactly what I intend to be

Oh, yes, I do hear you earth
I haven't heard you in quite a while
You softly call my name
And you urge me
To stand up
To no longer stifle myself
However, noted, this is a constant bashing argument in my heart -
Stifling my true self...
The singing Robin I was
The fluttering fairy I used to Dream of being
The galloping princess through daisy fields
Who sighs as she lands in the soil of the earth
Takes a deep breath
And sings out
Words that have flooded in her heart
She sings love songs
And words of praise

She is an effervescent, psychedelic beauty
That I realise...
I will be
On this silent morning
Of the earth.
Oct 2016 · 211
Futile Attempt
Elizabeth Burns Oct 2016
It's like kissing lips
That stand there
Passive and limp
Without a pulse
Without any inclination
To move against my lips
My words are empty
My eyes are drenched with tears
And I am allowing myself
To succumb to this desperate trail of heartache
I do not wish to fight with you
I do not wish to feel anguish
Nor despair
I merely wish to love you
However I wish for you to know that it is hard
It is hard to love someone who does not kiss back
Who sits
And watches me try
And I cry silently, my Love
Praying you'll notice these tears dripping down...
And God, the futility of This act is much too raw for me to bare
God, my attempt to love...
Give me something back.
Sep 2016 · 259
Your Jacket
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
Your Jacket is red
It is the perfect substitute for your arms wrapped around my waist... Around me...
You envelop me in warmth and love, my dear
You are the man of my heart
However, this is a poem of recognition of another who owns my heart
There is a sanctuary built for Him as he lives in my heart peacefully
He walks beside me each day and He guides me to be like Him
He covers me in a jacket too...
A red jacket coated in His Blood
He has given me perfect freedom and perfect peace
He has loved me from the beginning of my life
As I was a child beckoned from her sleep
Awakened by the sound of this new day, This new life made to worship you
Jesus, there is a sacred sanctuary for you in my heart
Please dwell inside of me
And do not allow me to forget
The Jacket coated in Blood that you poured on my soul
You have set me free
May my heart never put another before You
My True Prince in Heaven
The Lover of my soul
I worship and praise your Holy Name
Jesus, Jesus,
Dwell in me forever.
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
There was a dead fly in my
Bathroom this morning
I wondered whether he died a true fly's death?
Was the manner in which he left this world the manner in which he wanted to?
Did he go quietly and softly, with soft remembrance of the world he once knew...
His eyes shining with that last stare glaze
Were his last moments of utter serenity?
Did he see flashbacks of the best days he knew...
When he met the girl of his dreams and the fondness that grew?

Did he die a true man's death?
Or was it fatal and crashed down at him at once?
Did he remember anything or did he just go?

Oh, my dear
I ponder your sweet grave on the basin
Were you proud?
Did you know where you were going?
Oh, my...
Did you die a true, brave fly's death?
Sep 2016 · 2.0k
My soul is yours
Elizabeth Burns Sep 2016
Perhaps I've been searching for you all my life...
A piece that has been missing from me
You've felt what I've felt
You've lived apart from me
All this time
We've lived separate lives
Yet my heart has always been yours
You are my soul thief
You stole it before we even met
The day you came into my life
I became yours
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