My life isn't over yet
There is still a long way to go
I know its easy to get stuck
Stuck wondering
If what I am doing
Is really where I should go
But I know
I have a long way to go
Until I get home
But there is still
So much to do along the way

people ask me what do you look like
i answer i look like me
for i have know this
for what seams like
thousands of years.

Today is my birthday.
Today is my mother ******* birthday.
I am now nineteen.
**** it *****.

I don't remember, any more,
The exact shape of your hands
As I held them in mine,
Caressed them,
Memorized the length of your fingers,
The depth of your calluses.

I don't remember, any more,
Exactly your height, how much
Taller than me
You were, where
My head rested on your chest
When you held me tightly close.

I don't remember, any more,
Your scent, when we lay together
Creating our own
Magic rhythm,
Matching our heartbeats as we
Touched the sky, together.

I don't remember, any more,
The sound of your voice, calling
My name as though
It were a song
Within itself, a precious treasure
You valued with all your being.

And I don't remember, any more,
The color of your eyes, the shape
Of your lips,
Only...
How your eyes crinkled at the corners
And your laugh, as you told me,

"I love you."