In the darkest region of my brain
A somber eye swollen with pain
Begins to shed salty tears again

Some seep through cracks
On dilapidated walls of shattered dreams
Others burn through misty reason like sunbeams

They drip into a puddle in a rhythmic beat
One after the other from the crow’s feet
This insane chant to endlessly repeat:

-Awake, alert, aware-
Of my wrath beware
The green-eyed monster
Will break its chain
Feed on your brain
Drive you insane
-Tap, tap, tap-

I know your ceiling so well.
lying on my back.
with no clothes on.

forget me not?
no, forget me knot.
tied like a noose
around your neck
because you suffer
from every regret

as you enter my mind
i think this and feel left behind
because you look away
from my endearing glances
you kindly listen to my bold
romances
but im alone
in this entrancement
i need you like
i need to breathe
and you look away
like you want to leave
and it hurts
i want you to forget me
so tie a forget me knot around my neck
tighten it till theres no one left
death would be merciful
compared to this.

I've sat down to write this a million times,
focused on the luminous white screen with its blinking cursor begging to follow the flow of words.

But it never came, never flowed as freely as it used to. It's not because I don't have the time, it's not even because I don't have the words, it's because when I'm finally left to think about things, I'm frozen.

The words will come, eventually, I'm sure of it, but until then, i commit myself to shouting them out in my head, in my thoughts, in my sleep.