I think i don't need to repeat it again,
I woke up feeling okay and happy,
And didn't even bother about you.

Like usual,
I saw you,
We didn't make any eye contact anymore,
As i always try to avoid it,
And everything went well,
But yes,
I missed you,
And darling,
You look good today.

Last night i thought i was moving on too fast,
As i started to fall in love with somebody new,
But that feeling was just temporary,
I don't feel anything towards that guy,
In fact,
I just don't want to have any feelings.

I still smile every time my friend said your name,
Your name, its like,
The sweetest and calmest lullaby ever,
It would a lot more better,
If you were mine.
Well you weren't.

I just want to tell you,
You look good, every single day,
That girl who you have a crush on,
Is so lucky,
To be loved by you.

*.....i wish i was her....someday......

She was there,
Through my thick and thin,
Through every sorrow i went through.

She might not know everything,
About the problems i went through,
Because i never intended to tell,
As i can solved it myself,
And never want her to involved.

She was a warrior,
The bravest warrior,
She was everything,
She went through a lot,
She stumble and fall,
She got up and fly.
Her life was full with flowers,
Fires,
Wind.

She is the one,
The one i will always love,
Even the saddest truth have been revealed,
I dont want to bother,
She is still,
She will always be she,
And she will always be my mother...
And forever she will...

Still the same,
No thought of you passed by since morning,
Maybe a little,
But i tend to not bother about it.

Tomorrow,
We'll be seeing each other,
Even if we did not,
I still can feel the energy you released,
And i'm afraid,
That i'll fall for you,
All over again.

Let just wait and see,
How this continues.

Today,
Like usual,
The thought of you,
Didn't appear,
Didn't saw you today,
Didn't worry about you today,
But ofcourse,
I missed you....a little.....

I had fun today,
Bones didn't ache,
Tears didn't fall,
I laughed a lot,
But,
I talked about you.. a lot too...

I would say that,
I've moved on,
89% , im sure,
I've moved on,
But your way,
Your smile,
Your happiness,
It just seems to linger around,
And marked it territory in my heart,
But i'm sure,
It wouldn't last longer.

I wish everyday was like today,
I didn't feel pain.

I...
I have accepted ...
Every flaws you have,
On your body,
I have accepted,
All those scars, marks, dark spots

I have accepted you,
More than i accepted myself.

Those scars on your left hand side,
I'll call that fighter's scars,
Cos i know,
You've been through something,
When you were just six or five,
I might not know the whole story,
But at least,
I notice and i know why,
And that scars,
Are beautiful,
Just like you.

That lips of yours,
Others might notice,
That you have one of hella different lips,
A little bit different from the others,
But dear,
That is beautiful,
Just like you.

Both of us have so many flaws,
But i've accepted yours,
More than mine.

But we weren't meant for each other....
But i've accepted everything....
With all my heart...
Don't i deserve a place in your heart?

I wish you were mine,
So i can tell you,
How much i adore your flaws,
I can go on and on,
Without even bother about anything,
Because you are so beautiful and nice,
You're the nicest man,
I've ever met.

I'll tell you that,
.....Everyday....

another day,
Again, without you in my head.
I don't want to lie,
It does feel empty in the inside.

Heart bleeds,
Non stop,
Whenever the thought of you passed by,
Inside my head.

The pain is still there, dear.
It is unbearable.

We bumped into each other today,
Oh god,
Only god knows how much i miss watching you from a far,
But now,
You're in front of me,
Walking down the stairs,
Passed by me,
I forced myself,
Not to look and stare at you,
Like i used to.

One strange voice from the inside whispers...
you can never get over him,
Another one screams,
move on my darling!

but i don't know...
I really don't know..
I really don't know how...
I miss everything,
I miss those deceiving eye contacts...
I miss watching you...
I miss everything about you...
Eventho it was just a ...crush

It's day 3,
And im confused
And i....
*missed you

i managed to wake up,
and not think about you.

i was kind of proud,
with myself,
this time,
i'm moving on so fast,
too fast.

this morning,
it doesn't feels like my usual morning,
where i'll be in school,
waiting for you to come.
I'll be looking down my watch,
every tick,
just to make sure that,
i see your face first,
before school starts.

during recess,
it feels different too,
usually,
i'll be searching for your shadows,
but not today.
today,
i did not even bother,
you came or not.

everything just feel so different,
am i moving on too fast?
or is it too slow?

i knew it from the start,
from the first day,
i liked you,
i don't deserve you.

i know,
it was just a crush..

its day 2 my dear,
how are you?