i love you as absolute
as the sky is blue
who cares if there is absolut
running through my veins

i love you like a green grass field
and I love you like i don't know why;
its a good thing I'm not sober
or else these words would not spill so easily.

i love you like words are spoken
and music is listened;
i love you like a poem is written
and the picture is painted.

I love you with every breath
and I love you with every sigh;
you may upset me at times,
but i love you despite the sadness.

i love you when im angry;
i love you when im mad;
i love you when im happy;
and i love you when you cried.

you're a lovely creature and
you make me happy.

i love you when i don't;
because you're all i have left
to love and to hold
you're the only thing that matters.

you're my baby and my life.



xoxoxo.
*i love you.

its been a while since
i decided to let words flow
on a blank screen

its been a while
but i needed a bit
of self-given sanity

i feel too soft
and too sensitive

i feel too loud
and too offensive

i feel as if i cant
operate in a manner
thats acceptable anymore

i write to bleed
the thoughts that plague me

i bleed when i cant
write the words that made me

and its nice to finally be able
to let go and
feel calm

so i dropped in to say
im still alive



xoxoxo

the sound filters down,
and i fill with elation,
laughing.

i can hear you
even from so far away,
you always were loud.

big sister,
i know you always guarded me,
and you always loved me.

you were my knight in shining armor
when no one else would come.

you will forever be my
north star,
my shade spot on a sunny day.

big sister, you make me smile
even when no one else can.

though you have your faults,
we all do,
you're still my blood, my family.

here's something to help you smile.

xoxoxo

life is slow
life can be fast
death is slow
and death can be fast

but i'm still in between
stuck in this limbo
of emotions and memories.

i'm stuck this way,
and it was all you.

you did it and
you don't take the blame.
you did it and
i want it back.

i used to smile and laugh
and play and pretend.
i used to be filled with joy
and have no scars.

you made me this way
and i hate it.


i love you.
xoxoxo

two words.
two syllables.
two people madly in love.

twenty fingers.
twenty toes.
twenty thoughts racing through her mind.

two legs.
two arms.
two hearts beating in unison.

this is the story of a love
so strong and pure.

she loved to smile,
but didn't get to often.

he loved to laugh,
but no one told a joke.

together, a perfect unity.
apart, a perfect tragedy.

forever sometimes falls
a tad short.
forever sometimes gives
false hope.

forever is a long, long time.
but its fine,
ill spend it all with you , she said.

he uttered a few words,
lets just be happy right now,
no rush.

she gave him everything
and he took out the trash
when he was done.

she was alone.
and he had put her there.

his guilt was nonexistent
and her misery was apparent.

this was not the boy from the start,
it was a troubled soul
and all he wanted was a notch.

she was close to death,
emotionally,
physically, she was scarred.

he found her and asked her name.
he loved her and gave a ring.

three years.
three words.
three syllables.

i love you.

you saved me.
xoxoxox

sometimes you just
look in a mirror
and get a shock.

you walk around
thinking to yourself
why would anybody
want to be around me?

you forget that it not always
what you see in the mirror
that makes you unappealing.

its deeper than skin
and you hate it.
you can't help it.

you wish you could change
who you've become.

you wish that you could
unsee those horrors and
undo unthinkable acts.

you wish that you could
be innocent again.

you forget that not all monsters
can be visible from the outside.
like the monsters you trusted,
who deceived you much like
you deceive others.

this is why,
you hate who you are.



xoxo
i love you.

your freshly kissed skin
smells of raindrops and thunder.

when you lie close to me at night,
i imagine we're in a storm
and the only thing left is
you and me.

when we are awaiting
the final drops
to wrench themselves loose
from the ever-greedy sky,

we lie together under the sheets.
skin to skin.
heart to heart.
soul against soul.

i love the feel of
your freshly kissed skin,
and i love the way you smell my hair.

i love the way your body
encases mine,
so close.

where does your skin begin?
where does mine end?

it makes it feel
perpetual.

the smell after the storm
that binds us closer
reminds me of you,

even when we are apart,
i think of you and me that day.

i love you.

xoxoxo