how about a prologue?

love hides,
love flies.
we're death
we're life.
we're together,
we're terribly apart.

we're just alike,
stuck with our lakes
of desire.

we're so different,
me, an artist.
you, so logical.

you say the words,
i feel the emotions.

i'm stuck like this,
stuck so far from you.

we're so close,
fighting to be closer.

insomnia keeps me awake
most nights.
and i ponder on you.
your eyes,
the sculpture of your face,
and a ghost of your lips.

i say it too much,
i know.

doesn't make it less true.

i love you.

xoxo

I wish that i had waited
for you.

i wish that i never
had to love
before i met you.

you're all i ever wanted
and more that i could ever
deserve.

how do i tell you?
how do i whisper the words
that have been eating me
alive

i love you,
there i've said it.
and i've meant it.

do you?


xoxo

i mean to tell a story,
but words formulated
spill into a mess
at my feet.

excuse me, miss,
i think you dropped
your dignity,
right there, on the floor.

kicked around and spit on,
no consideration, but
what did i care?

excuse me, sir?
I think you dropped
your heart,
right there, in plain sight.

ripped apart and taken for granted,
"love is not a victory march,"
a silent mantra, gone dead.

excuse me,
have you seen something?
have you seen the
knowledge i once possessed?

i seemed to have lost it,
a cocktail of bad decisions,
lying at my feet.

don't judge me,
for i already have judged you.
hypocrisy runs deep,
my love.

xoxo

To whom it may concern
I'm just another ****-up.

It's hard for me to express
all the words on my mind.
Though there are many things
that I'd like to say here,
it never comes out right anyway.

Yes, I am a lost soul, though
I've never been much for finding things.
Content in our misery? Not quite.
Though there are stars
that always shine the brightest
and they're there if you bother to look.

Not the best at many things,
like drawing, singing, spinning, dancing.
I wish I could say that I was confident
while doing the things that I love to do.
I've never had the pleasure
of keeping my hopes real high
The master at keeping my head down low.

Loving life was never easy.
I've never said it was.
Scars prove my journey.
No one knows I go through these things
but maybe you understand better now
About who I am.

I never wanted it to get this far.
I never wanted it to be this dark.
and my mind is constantly
plagued with these thoughts.
It's safe to say that my mind is alive.

I'm not outspoken and I'm not quiet.
I'm not fat and I'm not slim.
I'm not ugly and I'm not beautiful.
I'm not boring and I'm not fun.
I'm Morgan, nice to meet you.


xoxo

It's so hard not to brag,
about the fact that you're mine.

And your eyes tell a story of your years
and my hands yearn for yours in match.

i reach out in consciousness,
and i grasp for you with
least tangible resources.

something cries out in me
reaches for the stars in your eyes
and like a butterfly net
around its prey...

i'm yours.
you're mine.

together, we're each other's only.
promise that you're mine
and that your curiosity
is sated by inquiries.

futures are spelled out
and ribbons entwine with visions
i see a pretty dress
and flowers with baby's breath
for luck

i long for a fire,
you long for the ice.
our touch creates a bond
and im stuck on you.

you're in me always
and i'm stuck on you.

your eyes and hair,
the way you obsess
and your strange habits.

our tastes are miles apart
but i'm still here
and so are you.

your name is caress to my lips,
your touch an electric shock
to the nervous system.

the way you hold me
reminds me of tender days
spend in the sun and i'm alive...


and i'm stuck on you...

xoxo

36 scars later,
and I'm still falling part,
desperately piecing back together
what's left of my dignity.

36 shots later.
and I'm still recovering,
from a shocking blow
to my self-esteem.

36 songs later,
and I'm clinging to my past,
hoping for another pass
at the man i used to know.

36 flowers later,
and you're still kicking up daisies.

xoxo

Take me to an open field,
In the middle of nowhere.
Someplace far away,
where I can kick and scream,
and cry and curse your name.

Take me someplace where,
society doesn’t exist,
where no one can stare or point.
everyone needs to have a good breakdown,
every one in awhile.

take me someplace,
where I can feel safe, invisible,
alone.

take me to a fairytale
where the prince swears,
and the queen smokes ***.

Take me to a wonderland
where the Mad Hatter,
was never really crazy.
and the white rabbit is black,
then you can try to scream like me.

try to lie like me.
try to live like me.

if you could be happy,
you know we could try.

Take me away.
take me where green grass grows,
and love survives.

try and live alone.
If I can escape,
you know I would.

My mind is a maze,
but there are no shortcuts this time.

life can’t hide beauty,
but love can hide anything,
from the ugly place in your soul,
to the beauty of another.

take me where the sidewalk ends.
take me to the stars.
take me on a trip to Mars.

we could see everything,
as long as we believe,
and I will dream,
as long as it takes,
for my walls to crumble down.

this is not the end.
there’s got to be,
a place that is,
the place i want to flee.
take me to a world unheard.

so many stories to tell,
and too many to hear.
we can’t hide the truth,
but we can try.

we can’t deny the pull,
but we can control the tides.
take me to our home.

take me away to a place.
where parents agree,
and never cross the line.

take me to my destiny.
I want my world,
to be covered in life.

crawling with the essense,
and loving everything,
and let love live as I cling to death.

I want to die,
but not today.
so much unfinished.

so much to do,
and as we see,
this world appear.

I want my fantasies,
to run wild.

I hate the love,
but love the hate.
I love to love,
and you can’t change me.

there’s my home.
my one true place.
the love lives,
and all hatred dies.

there has got to be,
a place where I can,
be set free.

It has got to be withing reach,
and I have to try to reach,
out for my heart’s sake,
take me away to that place,
the heart dwells.

feelings swell,
but love prevails.
Hatred dies with my kiss.

Its not the end.

I wish we had more time.
Our seconds are rushed.
our hands are pulled.

can you take me away,
away to that special place.

Hate must meet justice.
there is a future, there is no past.
live life like your last second.

dare for different.
love what you fear,
and never forget the taste,
of the world that will never disappear,
from our minds and dreams.

Take me someplace surreal,
Where fantasies and dreams exist.

xoxo