I miss you and I just hope you're proud of me and I miss you

If I could stop it I would

If I could control it better, I would

If I could completely live without it and remove it from myself entirely, I would.

I've still yet to find a way to do so

Let down

I've started writing down my ideas and I couldn't be more happy or excited :-)

My creativity hits its peak at night, I'm not going to ignore it any longer I'm ready to blossom

Dogs are happy and excited to see us even when we're not eager to see ourselves

All we ever were

music could take me away from a crowded room and drop me off at a beautiful sanctuary where I am free to dance and sing as I please

I just had a guy call me both "easy" and "sluty" because I chose to have *** with someone while I was single.


So...basically, to him, you're ***** if you sleep with someone and also equally as ***** if you don't.

It's 2017..
I don't know, it's just sad.

"HeWillNotDivideUs"

If you feel like telling someone you love them, please do it

If you feel like visiting a friend, please do it

If you feel like calling your mom or dad, please do it

Never wait for an opportunity, find them, because reality is we never have tomorrow.

It hurts me that I'll always have this soft spot for you, I'm mad at myself for letting it go that far.

However, I'm more upset at you for knowing that and taking advantage.

It's funny because I know what I want I just don't know how to get it

The only downfall to music is the places it takes you.

...I thought I was over you, then your favorite song came on.

I love music, and I don't just mean I like listening to it. I love music in a different way than I've loved anything else in my life. I don't love music like I love breathing or eating. Music is apart of me. Music is a part of my identity. I feel as though whenever my writing is at a weak point I can simply use music and feel like every word I ever wanted to say is being shouted in the perfect audience's face. I love music, music makes me feel free. Free of my anxieties, free of my waves of sadness, confusion, music is there for me even when I'm too stubborn to let it in.

I wish I wasn't such an emotional person, I wish I didn't feel things so strongly

2016 was the equivalent of sleeping through your alarm and being late for work.

I know I'll be okay
I know I'll be okay
I know I'll be okay
I know I'll be okay
I know I'll be okay
I know

I'm too young to be this sad, ****

I've been unhappy for so long that I've forgotten how to be happy, I've mastered how to fake it though.

Losing a boy in my 20's isn't so bad, the real tragedy is me thinking that losing a boy at any time can dictate my future.

School makes me so happy,

Planning out my classes, thinking about all that I'm gonna absorb..

just being at school all day is going to be so refreshing and uplifting, I can hardly wait.

I understand that it's completely normal to not get along with all of your family members but this specifically hurt me the most. It's unfortunate and really quite sad that I now see you in a completely different way. I know you're supposed to love family unconditionally and I obviously do still love you but it's not the same at all.

With the world the way that it is now, I strongly refuse to accept anyone in my life that isn't kind, warm, or just doesn't treat others with basic human decency. There's enough ugliness in the world I do not need to purposely surround myself with it. Life is so much more beautiful when you center your surroundings with loving and giving people/situations.

Not everyday will be a great one, but I know that by removing the ugliness and coldness from my life, I am already able to guarantee myself brighter days.

Be friends with your family members, it's the most special bond you can have.

If you love someone tell them;

If you love yourself, say that as well.

I just want to know when it's gonna be right for me

You taught me how to be brave, you also taught me how to be confident and walk with poise. You taught me that it's never wrong to want to accomplish and do things for myself. You taught me that i CAN do whatever the **** I want. You taught me that I don't ever have to do things just because everyone else is doing them. You taught me that it's okay to be on my own, independent, and most importantly you taught me how to think for myself, and I will always thank you for that. You taught me how to love myself. You gave me the confidence to feel like I finally belong to something that I love, you make me feel welcomed, warm, and loved.

I wish I could tell you, you've done so much for me. I wish I could tell you and explain to you the confidence and inspiration you give me. You motivate me to never give up, you taught me everything I need to know to find my wings. I love you forever.

Jesus...what are we going to do now

Had my first anxiety attack tonight in almost three years, I wish I knew my trigger but I honestly have no inclination of what it could be.

Nothing makes me feel more alive than music

I am so happy that I live in a home where Spanish is spoken everyday

I just once want to be visited by love and not be left wondering what's wrong with me when it doesn't work

It's truly terrifying how wrong you can be about a person.

It's so strange to think that at one point in my life not so long ago, merely a year actually..that I thought you were one of the most trustworthy and real people I had ever met. I was naive and foolish to convince my heart that you would never do anything to make me feel small. I believed this rather fast because in my eyes you proved yourself to be a flower in a field of drying grass within such a short amount of time. Within weeks I was falling in love with your words your ambition, and your hands that would gently grasp the bottom of my chin, and the smile that would pierce my eyes. It's so strange, as fast as my heart became enamored with your presence it quickly became cautious of any voice even mouthing your name. The lips that once grazed yours suddenly grew tired and sick of the taste. How foolish I was to believe that anything real could ever last. Hell..I'm still discovering the early stages of my twenties. What the hell did I know?

I don't know what's wrong with me

I always think I know what I want then once I get it I suddenly don't want it anymore..
I wish I knew why I was like this

When someone keeps pushing you down and challenging you at what point do you stop pushing because I'm starting to feel tired

Beware of just merely existing


                   You have to live

it was as if I saw my own self being pulled away slowly by strong ocean waves, but I didn't call out for help, and I didn't use every ounce of inner strength to save myself because what was the point?

It's funny,

i went from having absolutely everything I thought I needed, to just a shell of bones left to wander around aimlessly

What a difference a year makes

-a year ago today I was so immensely in love with you.
a year ago I was planning a weekend trip for us.
a year ago I was thinking about what birthday present would be both sweet, and creative.

What a difference a year makes  
-one year later, I'm spending my money on myself.
one year later I'm traveling to my favorite cities with a new group of people.
one year later, I learned that before you I was living just fine..and that lively spark that I believed you gave me was there all along.

Before you,
I was breathing just fine.
I was leading my own way.
I was living.

After you,
The sight of you driving away from my house as we said our last goodbyes will never succeed in leaving a permanent mark on my life.
After you..I will not just continue living, rather I will burst through my old shell and create a new.

I'm happy to say that my inability to fall asleep at a normal hour was an issue for me long before you showed up

a year without you allowed my mind to become more open than happy months spent with you ever could.

What beautiful air to breath

Some things just take time

I need to visit the beach soon..something about the sound of the waves and the chill of the breeze has a way of silently telling me that everything I am worried about right now just isn't that important.

Let the end of things come when it's meant to

When I listen to certain music my mind goes to certain places, depending on the type of music.

I have my sad playlist made when I need a good cry..
it has almost as many songs as my "I'm having a beautiful day and I feel like dancing playlist." I like to keep that one full, always adding new melodies to the bunch.

Music makes you open minded, it makes a person free, it lets a person feel accepted without feeling like a burden.

Music, for me, holds more power than my words written ever could.

The best part of it all? There's so many songs that have yet to be listened to, which means there's an infinity of journeys I have yet to take.

I didn't mean to pass you by


and I never wanted to be passed by

"Take a hug and pass it on"

A woman's education or daily routine should never have to be compromised because someone doesn't understand the word no