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S Jun 2021
if not now, then when?
S May 2015
new picture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
V
S Oct 2016
V
I don't want to give up
S Jul 2015
A glimpse of red
that you really just caught sight of

chiffon caresses
that you really just felt

it's night time
see the light
S Jul 2015
I want someone to write me a poem
S Mar 2021
I'm scared
i'm so scared

I'm a scared little girl

I may have grown up but inside I'm still a scared little girl

I MAY BE ON THE CUSP OF ADULTHOOD BUT I AM A SCARED LITTLE GIRL, I'M AFRAID OF MYSELF, OF LIFE, OF DEATH, OF THE WORLD AND EVERYONE AROUND ME, MY THOUGHTS, MY BEING, THE CONSEQUENCES OF MY ACTIONS

im scared
and the little girl inside me always had to hide away
silenced in my haste to grow up
the haste of everyone wanting me to grow up
and live far beyond my years
and now that everything is said and done
and the damage is done
and the damage is done
all she wants to do is be a little girl
and she just wants the world to be a little kinder
maybe a little more softer on her

I want the world to see her for what she is

just a ******* the cusp of adulthood
not a woman\don't treat me like a woman just yet

but they never do
they never did

they wanted her to be in their world
where everyone was so much older than her
they shirked their responsibly towards her

and she learnt too much about the world too early


"it's a dark place out there kid, be careful, don't come around here again"

that's all they had to say
THAT'S ALL YOU HAD TO SAY

but never mind
never mind
never mind
NEVER MIND
NEVER MIND]NEVER MIND
NEVER MIND NEVER MIND NEVER MIND
S May 2017
There's a story in every time zone
S Jan 2017
Be the better man
S May 2014
It always intrigues me how things change
change no matter how big or small is significant
change starts off small and builds itself up till it's unrecognizable
change can make or break anything
sometimes when someone changes it's because of you
you've made them into this monster
how do you turn them back?
S May 2017
It's better if they don't know
S Jun 2017
Night after night she waits by his side wondering how she could be his perfect woman
S Oct 2016
Why did we have to get even
It's not like we ever gained control of a situation that has always been imbalanced
It's not like we will  

Why does it take me over
The urge To become someone I hate
Destruction
It rips everything apart
I
Rip everything apart
But it feels so good
Especially when I feel so bad
I like feeling this alive
Makes me question
If
I'm really
Dead
S May 2014
I start to internally scream at night?
S Jun 2015
how can i crave contact with people
yet ignore everybody that contacts me

GOD

satiate my craving
S Apr 2014
i want you to feel what i feel through my writing as if it truly is my minds word and not just me fabricating a bunch of crap up with a few large words or a poetic sound
S Jan 2022
I wish I could watch every moment of my life so far like a movie

I mean, I don't know what good that would do but I don't have a purpose for this
I just want to see things that I could not remember

I want more depth
I want to see things
and chew on them
I want answers
I just want to see



I guess I do have a purpose for this
S Jul 2014
More.All we ever want is more.All i ever want is just more.Nothing is enough.
More of what though?
I can't keep myself on one subject, I just left 3 other pieces of writing in the space of 10 minutes
My MIND IS RAGING ERRATIC ELECTRIC AND I CAN NEVER HOPE TO RESTORE ORDER, EVERY LITTLE THING IS STORED AND YET CONSTANTLY FLOATING IN THIS SPACE FOR THOUGHT. IT'S FRUSTRATING FULFILLING AND INTRIGUING BUT MOST OF ALL A MYSTERY.
to be finished
S Jul 2015
my voice is the soundtrack to my life
S May 2017
I look good in the red light
S Jun 2015
human nature: to lie
what is lying
a trap? a weapon? a prize? justification? a game?
just words that we overreact to?

to lie is to serve justice
S Apr 2015
the come down is the best part
it's so familiar
so real
it's when I want you the most
ask anyone....
on the come down I yearn for you and only you
and i relish in that feeling
because it's so strong
that when you're not next to me
I manifest the parts of you that i want
and i hallucinate
a little bit
and i close my eyes
take another hit
and you're gone again
S Aug 2020
it's time for the story to begin again i guess
i woke up
slowly, but i woke up

it stirred inside of me
i feel so alive

that cold shiver
it takes over my body
coursing through me
sapping me of my energy
a parasite
i'm a mess
long black hair

but i'll make you so happy <3
S Apr 2017
Anger is like that villain we used to laugh at in cartoons
when we were kids...when we were invisible

I learnt that all of them craved power,
craved control,
a purpose,
and not much else.

They wanted to be noticed,
they wanted to make a change whether it was good or bad,
make their mark in this world and the hereafter
they were special
they were different

I learnt that they live inside of us,
in our hollow shells that we call a body.
Late at night when you can't sleep,
these villains are awake,
plotting and planning,
and wondering
just how they can achieve world *******
over your body

Anger makes us shout so we get noticed
Anger makes us different,
it changes us so that we can never recognise ourselves in the mirror
ever again
and we never know whether that change is good or bad,
and i don't think we'll ever know

Anger gives us a purpose,
something to blame,
something to hate,
we channel all our efforts into hate
till it consumes us

Today my time has come,
to be one of the villains that used to live inside of me.
They consumed me,
broke me down and turned me into one of them...

I am anger.
S Jul 2023
As the night closes in I think about how  loneliness is not about the absence of people in our lives, rather it is the people around us and our lack of interest in them that makes us feel lonely
S Apr 2015
She stared at his arm
she glared at his arm
marks on his arm
scratches on his arm
taint on his arm
what had she done?
what had he done?
she opened her mouth,
and lifted her arm
striking fear.
Flinching away
inching away
shrinking away
until he's gone,
scratched away.
S Feb 2019
how did i just walk away?
I always looked back though, every time

I miss you
I miss us

I'm numb right now
and all i want to do is run to you
because I know you'll be there for me in every perfect way

you're always there
It's just me that never existed

I always leave without a warning
and come back when you find peace
just to rock your world one last time
S Jul 2020
i'm so lost
S Jul 2019
These tears fall like little candy drops
iridescent and soft
so tempting
you can't help but taste one

---
now you're addicted
you always need 'just one more hit'
and i'm the streets best dealer
---
S Jan 2019
is this why i can't find happiness in someone else?
are you the reason why i'm so deprived?

has my heart belonged to you this whole time?
i just...I don't know

you make me feel so strongly that i can't even tell what emotion i'm feeling

every part of me is telling me to ignore you

but i don't want
I really don't want to
S Nov 2017
His eyes are shutting, his mind is spacing out and his body is shivering.
These tremors are no joke and they all seemed to lose hope when his eyes rolled back and he slowly started to fade away.
But nothing is as it seems, funnily enough this was really no overdose, just a man who lost hope in the moment...just like you.
So at night when you sit and ponder, spare a thought for him and lose yourself in wonder...that is before you go under,
and it's too late to repent.
S Nov 2020
why why why why why why why why why
S Jan 2020
:

Looking out of the window
Static
Nothing moves

Lines so perfect they blur into a feverish dream
I’m waiting
I’ve been waiting so long
For something to happen
For change
Just to feel something

Trapped in these four walls
Trapped in these people
Helpless yet so strong

Untapped potential wasting away
Or is it burning slowly
Getting more powerful minute by minute
S May 2015
i could compare us to two glasses smashing against each other,
i mean before we collided
we were just beside each other
but it happened
and ****
it caused the loudest noise
****
it cut through the air like a *******
**** there was glass everywhere
we were beautiful
pure, but tainted
clear
you were almost a like a heuristic to my desires
----------
i think
maybe
someone
swept
us
i mean, the glass up
and discarded it
i mean, us
but oddly enough
we were thrown away, yet a few pieces of you remained with me
but
i'm not sure if you have any pieces of me
or if you even care to
you might do
but that's just a waiting game for me right?
you're still somewhere, with me, in me
glass cuts like a *******
so i'm gonna **** it up and drink this ******* blood
S Oct 2016
The spaces between the glass are not equal
S Mar 2023
at night I think about being your glass table girl <3
x
S Jun 2015
x
restless and just craving relief
x
S Apr 2017
x
Lonely for you only
X
S Apr 2017
X
We have traced every line
On this map
And as I lay here
I'm yet to care
X
S Jun 2017
X
I want fantasy
S Mar 2023
the highs of mania and the lows of depression are harder to ride as time goes on
especially when I can't find any answers
especially when I can't understand myself or the world around me
-
suffocating on my emptiness
I walk around
yet I am nowhere to be found
xo
S Jun 2015
xo
my tongue
my tongue
melt on my tongue
melting
on my tongue
dissolving on my tongue
disappearing on my tongue
you disappear on my tongue
i disappear when i feel your tongue on m...
i feel you
in my bloodstream
i feel you
in my gasp
when you hit me
when you enter me
when you take control
i feel you around me
why are you around me
like a thin mist
you're not here
****
who is around me
you
S Apr 2015
you
10:18
scrolls through phone
10:21
sighs
10:22
forcefully unbuttons jeans
angrily pulls them off
winces in pain
10:25
grabs laptop in determination
10:29
my mind is drifting....i think of you,
i see you around me, i touch you, i breathe your name, i'm surrounded by a manifestation of you
i can't take you i want you away from me
i can't take you i want you near me
10:48
time sure fly's when you come across my mind
in my mind
you are my mind
10:49
foc...us
us
focusing on us
10:51
i played with caution but you and time teamed up together and aimed to tease me, to torture me, to bring me pleasure where i see distress
a sick sense of satisfaction
flows unto my vice
it's a two way street
or maybe a 6 way street
maybe a city
with all these vices collectively linked
i detach
reminiscent
of us
focus
fo...***
**** us
11:10
**** us
11:15
**** us again
11:30
**** me
11:31
i wonder what he wants from me?
i wonder what he feels for me
what he see's in me
what he really thinks of me
does he see inside me or does he just want to be inside me
whatever
11:40
hah..the feelings faded
back to you being nothing
until the next time
11:41
i think of you and smile, gently,appreciating in mock admiration
S Dec 2020
if we traced the white lines on this cracked mirror
i'm sure we'd both find the x
S Jun 2015
Hospitals scare me
aside from having watched somebody pass away
they scare me

embedded in my chest is the weight of seeing extreme happiness to complete isolation
why should both events co-exist with each other
which one does my heart warm up to more?
a small child who has a better chance at life
or
an abandoned soul who is believed to have overstayed his welcome in this ******* planet

does this bring us on to the topic of privilege
or ignorance
S Jun 2018
forget about me
S Jul 2019
i'll just have to be his little girl instead
i have been for a long time
and secretly i always will be
S Apr 2017
i pretended that i was ready for you
for what we did
but i can't go on pretending that i'm okay with slipping into my old ways
you just have a way
of corrupting me
and you think it's okay
but have you ever seen me
when it's all over
i can't even see myself
and
i don't ever want to see you again
i'm blind
until the next time
S Sep 2017
looking at life through a lens is comforting
S Feb 25
you once told me that I make you feel the most alive
but that i have an amazing ability to make you feel really alone
-

I understand now
at the time, i said "that's really beautiful" and he said "its's the truth. The truth is beautiful"
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