people make me feel so empty

I'm just so complex I find it hard to hold on to the understanding that I have of myself

****, where will I take myself

Lust, lustrous....lust....lost

It'd be nice if more people interacted with me on here

Everything that I am today, right now, right this second is everything I wasn't
Everything that im not today, right now, right this second is what will make me

learning that marriage is sometimes like a horror film is hard
You learn it the hard way
Sure there was a an alright environment
But the truth when it was revealed was enough to crack the strain
The injustice that in the moment everything is plausible
But when you look back and realise your mistake, all you can do is apologise
******* go back in time, grab your past self and scream, scream as much as you can because it'll be silent because when you return from the past you'll revert back to old ways. Marriage is hauntingly beautiful and I guess it's just sheer luck