over night love affair
do i dare
shock pervades
i stare
overnight
too spare

electric shock!
there you are
why didn't i see you
bright star
i knew

i'm just as trapped
by love
as you
what the Hell
are we going to do

interesting...
you tell me you'll stop writing to her
although we both know
you will still read her blog
every day
waiting....
it won't change anything
it will only hide your interest from me
and whats the point in that
shes still there
and so are you
i no longer pretend

now i'm not having *** with you
i won't let you pay any bills
isn't that the warped perspective...
i  
who always said i wasn't your *****

I sit on a beach
the sea is rough
a pair seagulls hurtle by
a mere foot above the waves
I try to imagine what it's like
to be them
moving through the air at that speed
looking down
wild ocean frothing foaming
surging below me
so close
that when a wave breaks
it reaches up to pull me under
feeling the cold spray splattering my chest

I
inhale
a deep breath
not sure
which words
it will carry out