you are the most intelligent man ive ever met
and yet
go against your own best advice
does the second statement
render the first
null

did love sculpt me
into twisted form
she the storm
blasting away bark
to reveal form
or
expectations extreme
beyond the norm
causing the storm?

why is it
men cannot   see
that what   appears
to be    vanity      (in a woman)
is often
fear
because female looks
are so important
to the male
my dear
;o)

love
what a ******* disaster
you fall hard and inevitabley
get broken
by the love object
who doesn't love
or
they fall for you too
only when it fades    for them
they seem to accept it
with indifferance
not too much later
turning their eyes to ever younger prettier fresh flesh
happy to tell you what an old interest you've become
and "what else did you expect everyone does it"
well I don't
won't
can't
accept that
why?
it's not as if I am out of touch
with reality
no teenager me
love in spite of that
too intensely
how I wish I could
not love
as much
in love is as lonely   as
out of it
when your in it
alone

"For I have spent eternity bringing you a gift"
Neither the oceans
nor the stars
can equal this
I cannot give you my heart
my soul you already have
seeking a looking glass
i look at myself
remembering

mid winter evening
comes upon the sky
stars glitter  
earth and sky are one
everything bound
and unbound
in eternity
a gift
seek  
look to yourself
and the stars

If the beginning
started out of
chaos and the void
did they not exist
before the beginning