Em - Hello Poetry

Em May 2020

i must stop and think,
have i found love?
my burdening self belonging to a beauty,
and having that in return?
what is love? i do not know
i pursued that path before,
but the ground broke away beneath my clinging feet
perhaps i may try again to decipher the darkness
but who really knows what lies there anyway?

Em May 2020

no one

no one cares. they lie.

Em Apr 2020

out

I can't get out.
I need to get out.
I need to be me. To find me.
Please. Let me. Out.

Em Apr 2020

Untitled

i dont know what love is. i say that i love you but i have no clue. perhaps this is what love is, if so, im not too sure i'd care to feel it again.

Em Apr 2020

i knew

i knew it was over as soon as i didn't trust a word that left your lips.

Em Mar 2020

understanding nonexistence

Death is weird. What is it really?
A whole entire living person is there. breathing. laughing. existing.
And from one moment to the next, they disappear forever.
Never to feel their warmth again.
All those memories they felt. their deepest regrets.
all those tears they cried in secret.
are locked away for eternity.
Never to be able to look them in the eye again, how does that make sense?
I can't understand it.
My brain refuses to comprehend it no matter how hard i try.
They're with you. Then they're not.
Death is weird. What is it really?

Em Jan 2020

without you

i now live without you.
but i would never consider this living.