True love is
when you shed a tear and
still want him near.
True love is when he ignores you
and you still love him.
True love is where he loves another girl
but you still smile
and say "I'm happy for you."
True love is where you love him
even though all you do is
cry...
and cry...

I thought we were through
i thought i was done
for months and months i felt nothing
we were together but i was gone

when it ended i expected
to feel released,
a new freedom
but instead, i got nothing

i felt nothing
no joy, no happiness, no pain
no sense of loss
or freedom to find something new
nothing

and now after months and months
and almost years,
i remember.
i love you.

i wish you wanted me too.

The day I left my world for yours
I thought I would never return to mine
But you pushed me out the door
I no longer fit your design

Walking down this road
It's dark and I'm alone
I admit I'm scared without you
I don't remember my way home

Your world we made our home
All the fun and memories
We shared in that bright world of yours
Making Love Story our melody

Sometimes there's no more breath in me
My blood ceases to run
My heart no longer beats
Since you are not the one

The funeral of my heart I attended today
It's buried in the sand
So the tides will carry it out one day
Right into your hand

So swim inside the ocean
Promise to think of me
Only there does my heart beat for you
Deep under the sea

My love is knocking
Like a wave pounds the shore
Washing up over you
But yet you lock your door

So my love recedes in tide
To await fairer weather
When it no longer has to hide
And we can be together

Though that day may never come
I refuse to give up hope
My life depends on your love alone
Without it I couldn't cope

I will walk away
Relinquish my ties to thee
Please do not get caught in my storm
Or you will cease to be

Temperamental as the tides
Violent lashing when enraged
Angry that your love subsides
My jealousy will not assuage

But I assure you
This too shall pass
We will have fun again
My tantrums never last

I love you and you love me
Said the seashore to the sea
But our love will float away
We were never meant to be

I finally figured us out
Our wild, crazy existence
We only make sense to eachother
As in the tide we dance

True we were once lovers
Passionate, on fire
But in the end
We should be friends
What we most desire

I know every contour of your shores
And every grain of sand
But I move on, just as before
On to higher land

Moving on is ok
We will always keep in touch
Forever colliding sand and sea
Mixing up so much

You have a blissful life
Awaiting on the beach
Bliss, in the form of a girl
With a lot more love to teach

I will look on from beneath the surface
With a smile you can trace
Glad that my best friend is loved
To see the love light shine from his face

Flowing now are calmer waters
Peace I now give to you
Enjoy the memories left to me
And the love I gave to you

Follow your heart
Never cast a second glance
I'm thankful for the fairytale you gave me
Thanks for giving me a chance
-The End-

Ready to close my heart to you.
Ready to stop the tears from falling
Ready to no longer have the falling leaves and summer wind
Remind me of you.
It seems you have moved forth.
Already closed your heart to me
But are terrified of what could happen
If you cut that string
to your heart to mine
For some reason the tears
And snot continue to fall forth
Continue to rush their way out of me
I no longer want to be affected by you.
Goodbye to the known world
And hello to the future.


My tears make me feel weak
For it was my vulnerable self which you
Once praised me for- is what became to much
It is what forced our hearts apart.
I forgot my fiery self
Forgot the parts of me that burn and sparkle
What make me exciting

I needed you to shake me
Shake me whole
Shake me out of the terrible place I was in

I don’t want you to have all of me
My wants, my fears my desires
You don’t get
You don’t get those secret parts of me
Because you are getting them from someone else
Goodbye till tomorrow
Goodbye till the next time I breathe
And I will be waiting

Time and time again I think of you.
Memories etched in the corners of my mind.
I try to run away, but the tides keep bringing me back to that smile I long for everyday.
I wanted to grow old with you; I wanted to share all the love I could.
There is no doubt I tried to love you, I tried to show you everything I could be.
That was not enough.
Not enough to keep you from running away.

Every night you creep back into my dreams, reminding me of what I desire, yet cannot have.
I see you in my dreams and wish to never wake up, just to hold you, just to feel you, just knowing you are there is all I have left.
What I would give to run my hands through your deep brown hair one more time, or to hear you say everything will be ok.
But I know that is not reality.
I wake up every morning to the cold, dark truth that awaits me.
I want nothing more than to forget you ever existed in my life, to have never fallen in love with you.
Only then would the hurt be absent from my heart.

Seeing you so happy, so free, only hurts me more.
I wanted to give you the world, and if only given the opportunity, now that I see what I lost, I would give you everything you desired.
I know you no longer love me, I know you no longer care. I just want to know what we once had was real.
One day I hope to move on, one day I hope you will be just another stepping stone.
But for now you remain a poison in my mind.
There is no doubt that I love you, and a part of me always will.

So here I am.
    Within your heartstrings.
     I like to think I flow through your mind like blood flowing through your superior vena cava.

Constant;
And non-chalant.

And there you are.
                    Rolling and rolling and tumbling around the empty train station in my mind.

Like a tumble ****.
Where did you come from?
Were you ever really mine?

What is the color of my eyes?

Grey, like the clouds.
At least that's what they tell me.

But you aren't here very often and only sometimes do you come around with your talent of using words to your advantage even though I'm the only person who sees through your fake persona and too long brown lucious hair.

But this one's for you.

Just like the one I wrote when I first started but that was a different story.
That had a different meaning.
A different message.

That one said;

"I love you."

This one says;

"I still do."