Today I saw the ocean
Saw the horizon on the sea
Looked out across the water
And felt the misting breeze

Held onto a decaying fence
Let go of my worries
Standing on the sea cliff's edge
Remembering days like these

The days of sand and childhood
Waves crashing powerful and strong
Sounding the ocean's chorus as
The sea gulls sang along

February twenty ninth
Only once in four years
If only days this wonderful
Were not so few and rare

I've heard it said
that "no man is an island",
but with the trenches he's dug
getting wider and deeper everyday
it sure seems like an ocean is coming between us.

and then the rain fell

Call me naive
Call me entitled
Call me a useless and self centered child

Say that I'm worthless
That I look like a *****
Call me a *****, hurt me like no one before

Tell me I'm ******* up
That I'm unwanted trash
Throw your best punch, metaphorical belt for a lash

Show me your dark side
Give me your worst
Disrespect me like you must think I deserve

I hear all this poison
Seeping in through my ears
It feeds my self loathing and my nightmarish fears

You see the dark circles
Stuck just under my eyes
From long restless nights and stifling cries

Yet, I'm still standing
Not sure how or why
But if I came this far, there's a plan for my life

All the double edged people and schemes,
they make a mess then go home and get clean.