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481 · Oct 2016
Midgarden
NiTSUDD Oct 2016
It hurts so much to know i've blown my chance.
They always go away.
I have to sin and put them in a trance.
Just to make them stay.

Its hard to know, that they have gone
Never to return.
Its cruel this stove that they've pinned me on.
They're so cold to watch me burn.

The perfect face i saw.
Made me feel so small.
My loving may be raw.
You must be the angels call.
469 · Apr 2016
A Wasting Heart
NiTSUDD Apr 2016
Late nights of you I'm bound to yearn.
Still my heart I give you to waste.
Though your fair flesh was sweet to learn.
The aching end a bitter taste.
Can this world not show me any more?
Oh ever is my wound to heal?
So what do I keep breathing for?
Real emotion's such a drag to feel.
467 · Dec 2016
A Pawn Among the Chessboard
NiTSUDD Dec 2016
I feel I'm such a peasant
Who will just live then be forgetten
A pawn among the chessboard
A tiny speckle in the present
A cookie cutter bud of cotton
453 · May 2016
Dirty Lies
NiTSUDD May 2016
Yeah well nothing felt right.
Oh but we were'nt looking for love.
Just another body tonight.
We dont care what he thinks above.
So you ask me what i like.
I beg you tell me a ***** lie.
As you ride me like a bike.
I'm just another nameless guy.
But I'll give you my rage.
I know you'll enjoy this pain.
This will be just another page.
Of the lies we feed to our brain.
But we are not writing now.
We're just doing the motions ya.
The best way to lives how?
Numb and drunk to emotions ha!
As we drain all our health,
Oh we don't look in the eyes.
Because we may see something else,
How bout we just tell more ***** lies?
Song
449 · Aug 2016
5 Whole Nutmeg
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
"I had to ride a bicycle home when it was really kicking in and it was really tough to make it home because I felt drunk and doezy, and felt like i was biking through a fun house, then listened to a few tracks by AWOLnation and felt like I was the star of some epic trippy music video."
441 · Mar 2016
Bottles
NiTSUDD Mar 2016
Ya know we work instead of party.
Nothing that means a shorter life.
Yeah we work instead of party.
Cause longer is better, right?
Yeah then we sleep until the morning.
Then we get back to our lives.
We sleep until the morning.
Beause dreamland ain't real, right?
433 · Jul 2016
My Friend Gloom
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
I am stuck with gloom
Hardly leave my room
I can't win
I don't grin
I lay in bed til noon
I stay alone with gloom

When will flowers bloom
No sunlight with gloom
I drink gin
My head spin
I stumble round my room
I stumble round with gloom

My life days used to boom
Now they're filled with gloom
I don't sin
Don't get it in
I just wait for the tomb
Wait with my friend gloom
430 · Aug 2016
Clan Lucid
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
Everyone's leaving earth
There's no room for dreams here
Grounded by the gravity of being man
Would you climb aboard?
And orbit with outcasts
For following the path
Was never in their plan

With flags unfurled
Eyes closed and minds open
They comet the skies, theyre a lucid clan
Would you take the lead?
Then learn to follow
The stars beckoning for you like nothing can
427 · Feb 2016
A City in Flood
NiTSUDD Feb 2016
He wears a fake seal
Knows nothing is real
Got fed with the salt
And made a dark deal
The devil in his chair
Breathed him new air
Promised of a goddess
A lock of her hair
The king gave the tools
A list of the rules
Sat back and watched
The slaughter of fools
Let free fall the blood
A city in flood
Plant them in the earth
But dig only mud
Til mass ends the show
Still with more to go
Does hell reward sin
I soon shall know
422 · Sep 2016
Fucking Off
NiTSUDD Sep 2016
Procrastination is like *******.
It feels good until you remember that you're ******* yourself.
409 · Dec 2016
New Moon
NiTSUDD Dec 2016
Life was a cell with a scenic view
Not a moment free, yet not a thing to do

Oh where should I take us my guardian spirit
I've a voice to move mountains but no one to hear it
I've had visions at night that will haunt the town's mornings
I've shook many a folks but they've ignored my warnings
I've given and taken and find myself hollow
I've searched many bright ally's for a figure to follow
I've loved and I've hated and lusted for an end
I've stepped on your heart than prayed it to mend
I've lied and I've listened to the mouthpiece of heaven
I've sworn in their eyes that I'd soon change my livin

And I've been blue
What can I do
All of this rain
On me and you
Oh it's a new moon that's gonna rise!
406 · Feb 2017
Dark Clouds Above
NiTSUDD Feb 2017
The city had dark clouds above
And the streets were plain
Everyone is either making love
Or else expecting rain
403 · Aug 2016
Out of this World
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
Everyones leaving earth
To search for a new place
They all roam
Cause this home
Is not the way we planned at birth

I guess the more you see
The less you will embrace
A normal life
With petty strife
Its all been done but not by me

Silky mishaped strangers
Skin of green
Black hole eyes
Where have you been
Show us the dangers
Of the scene
Wet with cries
Streaming to get clean
403 · Jul 2016
It Could Be
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
Only hours away, it could be a man with a million dollars.
Only minutes away, it could be a guy with a gun.
Only seconds away, it could be a love that will last forever.
But if it gets away, there might not ever be one.
401 · Sep 2016
When Saul Mauled The Maker
NiTSUDD Sep 2016
Through an egoman's view
Saul mauled the maker
Though his words rang true
Saul deemed he a faker
The throne in the kingdom was ravished with smite
The maker made use of his power and might
He banished his attacker, yet to his dread
The maker as witness, Saul's air had spread
With his cherished creation, immersed in sin
The maker bolts the gate. No more welcome in.
397 · May 2018
Although it is only life
NiTSUDD May 2018
Although it is only life
I'm still shaken by the dearth
Of all the weary wayfarers
Who've been forced to walk the earth

In the ritual of mad
Until their body's have been drained
Searching for something else
That cannot be obtained

Look at me, I'm on my knees again
I had hoped that you would be the end
of all my
of all my...
396 · Feb 2016
Grudgeful Ear
NiTSUDD Feb 2016
He stands and he listens
but what does he hear?
Oh what is that sound
which rings in his ear?
What has struck him now?
What mortal fear?
He once wore chains and will always think,
that he is followed by their clink.
395 · Jul 2016
Hibernation Envy
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
I wish i could fall deep
Into a slumbered sleep
But i guess i must reap
What I've sewn
I'd sleep all day and night
Until everything is alright
Because awake i must fight
Being alone
NiTSUDD Sep 2016
Wild on the rope i swing
What child like hope you bring
Everytime you smile at me
While dangling on the cliff of doom
A strangling of a stiffest gloom
Like spangling of a lifting broom
You bringeth a smile to me
387 · Jun 2016
Alexandra
NiTSUDD Jun 2016
Well she came from up above
Must have heard the earthly calls
Every day she falls in love
And every night she falls

And the clouds rain down
Alexandra

Shes got much more to give
Than anyone can know
Shes got a place to live
But shes always on the go

Alexandra
The clouds rain
Alexandra

I could spot you when I walked in
You must have just came from the garden
Can you ever trust a man again?
I see dark clouds a closing in

Alexandra
Let her rain on you
Alexandra
Let her cleanse you too

I saw her in the moonlight
I was fast asleep
She stunned me with a sharp bite
She sunk her teeth so deep

I must've known that i was dreaming
Cause i didnt pull away
The others did run screaming
But i was here to stay

Alexandra
She knows just what to do
Alexandra
She's got me and she has you

Alexandra
I heard it as the wind blew
Alexandra
She's got me and she has you
Song
386 · Feb 2018
My soul's a heavy sleeper
NiTSUDD Feb 2018
My soul's a heavy sleeper
And I take the path that's paved
I gather up the pipe dreams
And ambitions that I've saved

I send them up in smoke
Like the phantoms of my mind
Into the great horizon
Where nobody else can find

As men we are great instruments of discord and unrest
I subside to my cradle and I nurture from the breast
Of all who came before me and I hear their puerile cry
They feed me with a ladle as I let the world pass by
380 · Jan 2017
When I ruled the dreams
NiTSUDD Jan 2017
There were times when I ruled the dreams
No difference between the future of reality
and the world in my womb garden
Green grass
Clear skies
Warm breeze
Those days would surely last forever

Now a sense of senial reality prevents ******* of those lucid thoughts
I dream for those dreams to return.
379 · Jul 2016
:-P
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
:-P
*** is cool, but have you ever had garlic bread?
377 · Jun 2016
Bloody Violent Dreams
NiTSUDD Jun 2016
****** violent dreams.
Victim's lovely screams.
Ah Ah.
Crimson flowing streams.
****** violent dreams.
Oh Oh.
The mad man wakes up sweaty he is here again, here again.
It looks as though his sick addictions dear again, dear again.
Half asleep he walks down to his basement, basement.
Grabs his tools to work on a new patient, patient.
Storms into the city too excited, excited.
Somehow the evil in him's reignited, ignited.
****** violent dreams.
Ha Ha.
372 · Apr 2017
I'm a Spiller
NiTSUDD Apr 2017
I'm a Spiller, Spiller, I. I spill. I'm a Spiller, Spiller, I, I spill. Disrupt the trash that you organize, I spread my wrath right before your eyes. I'm a Spiller, Spiller, I,  spill. I'm a Spiller, Spiller, I, I spill.
368 · Oct 2018
Incomplete
NiTSUDD Oct 2018
A voice said look me in the stars
And tell me truly men of earth
If all the soul and body scars
Were not too much to pay for birth

Whether below or above
Living in excess or dearth
There is no amount of love
That can save you from your fate on this...

Look at me!
I am on my knees again
I had hoped that you would be
The end
Of all my
Of all my...
364 · Feb 2016
White Spotted Snake
NiTSUDD Feb 2016
There's a story to be told
A chilling sight to be hold
Turn the sinners into dust
Lit the fire, killed the cold
Yet each home repeats the mold
Savage souls were born in lust.
363 · Feb 2017
Hello Hello
NiTSUDD Feb 2017
Hello Hello
To You from I
But who are you
And who am I?
What blinds do block
my fish eye
Digging for water
Up in the sky
I have no more urge to love until I ****
I have no choice but to believe in free will
You're laying on a comet
Awaiting certain doom
I spill my word *****
Have you any room?
I must've been high as a kite when I wrote this because I do not recall doing so, but I kinda like it.
358 · Oct 2016
A Walk on the Beach
NiTSUDD Oct 2016
She allowed the sun to kiss her ankles
But her face remained a privilage of the air
As her features illuminated in the sunlight
And the opulent gold shown through her hair

In the aftermath it was clear that her calculations had been correct
The forgiving wind massaged her skin and gave her the peace to reflect
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
I asked "Can i join?"
He said "It's a train to nowhere"
I liked what I heard
So I climbed on board.
356 · Jun 2016
My Only Game
NiTSUDD Jun 2016
I know that you're out there
I see you through lucid air
Baby wake up for me
Won't you tell me your name?

I know that you're out there
You are my only care
And I have to find thee
It is my only game.
349 · Jul 2016
My Clearest Thoughts
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
Through passionate visions
nightly anguishing tells
Your tranquil incisions
Rings hallucinated bells

Ancient contented evenings
were not worshiped to entire
Now the past is fast beaming
My fractured soul is on fire
346 · Feb 2017
Wednesday in PJs
NiTSUDD Feb 2017
Missing my class
Im way too high
Smoking my grass, watching my gpa fly

Snacking on Lays
Watching a cartoon
Wednesday in PJs, a quarter past noon.
346 · Jun 2017
Dream of Elina
NiTSUDD Jun 2017
I've not awaken
Could this be real
There's no mistaken
The way I feel

Elina
I think I've seen ya in a dream oh my
Before the world seemed to go awry
When I was a child
With visions running wild
I made a world where only skies could be blue
That's where I first saw you
340 · Aug 2016
Ginger
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
Once the feelings start
Theyre hard to control
I gave her my heart
But she took my soul
334 · Nov 2016
A Vintage Urban Cinema
NiTSUDD Nov 2016
Lazily the thunder purs
Wealthy women draped in furs
The trumpet smooth and sky black
A heavy rain washes time back
334 · Sep 2016
Pure Imagination
NiTSUDD Sep 2016
Come with me and you'll be
In a world of pure imagination
Take a look and you'll see
Into your imagination

We'll begin with a spin
Traveling in the world
Of my creation
What we'll see
Will defy explanation

If you want to view paradise
Simply look around and view it
Anything you want to, do it
Wanna change the world?
There's nothing to it

There is no life I know
To compare with
Pure imagination
Living there, you'll be free
If you truly wish to be
The classic song from the 1971 movie ***** Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. I had never appriciated how  beautifully written it is.
333 · Jul 2016
The long walk home.
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
Im beaten and im broken
Im face down in the ground
What sweet grace i have spoken
But nobodys around
who can hear me
Baby
Cant you hear?
See its driving me crazy
That i cant have you near

You gave my whole world color
When everything was gray
Your glue held me together
Til you took it away
Now im in pieces
Baby
Its not fair
Because i know youre just fine
And you dont care
328 · May 2016
Dog Without a Bone
NiTSUDD May 2016
Ive often dreamt me
Like the man on TV
Singing Riders on the Storm.
Or the man in the ring
Dancing and punching
Make you wish youd never been born
And im not certain how,
but the time has come now
I look the mirror in the eye and ask why.
Living life for a strangers eyes.

I could just live for me.
But nobody would see.
Ah but who really cares!?
It may sound unkind
But leave all behind,
And trek alone through the woods in the bare.
Alone to the woods in the bare.
An actor out alone need'nt care
325 · Apr 2017
Leavin Home
NiTSUDD Apr 2017
Your warm smile turned me cold
Same with all that you do
Sweet child, with the heart of gold
Imma steal it out of you.

And I so l left the city
Didn't even turn around
The mountaintops sure look pretty
But I think I'm going down
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
Thoughts as the sun climbs high
Pinkish haze watercolor kiss the sky
Thoughts of i and all my daze
Roaming through my lifely maze
Recall the times of youth and passion
The grass as green as you can imagine
My future a carnival and i a saint
Now days are long, and i know i aint
I review the flash, it was all wrong
Choices made make a sad song
My mirror shows me someone i hate
What was the cause of my fate
Still a young man but wearily tired
The thought of death pulls me inspired
321 · Sep 2016
All is Quiet
NiTSUDD Sep 2016
Knocked to the sand with a wave of fate
I reach now for the hand but I am too late
Would you be the one to bring back the bait?
For hours upon hours i yearn for that date
321 · Jul 2016
Ah well
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
Ah well
The easy life
That i never wanted
Leave me
You had it all worked out I see
Well is there anyway
That we can skip this part
Because one time
Well I knew someone
And she just wanted to cry for me
Well its alright
I guess I'm down for that
It might be worth it
All the same
308 · Feb 2016
The Sea of Make-Believe
NiTSUDD Feb 2016
My head aches from sobriety
When you're not blind its hard to see
The world as it ought to be.
Is not the way it is to me.
The zombies seem to know their way.
Carrying contently through the day.
I stare at them through windows broke.
Laughing at this inside joke.
The punch on them but the laughs on me.
As I'm the one who longs to be free.
From my uncommon sanity.
In the sea of make-believe.
306 · Aug 2016
You are my shadow
NiTSUDD Aug 2016
Oh fairest maiden dressed in blue,
with blessed eyes i gaze at you.
Your lips speak volumes, no need to talk.
You are my shadow this lonely walk.
305 · Jul 2018
Blind Marchers Guiding
NiTSUDD Jul 2018
.................................................................­­...
Dolefully trudge to my chamber this night.
Carrying burden of this inimical plight.
Scrawling as a means to drop this weight light.
But alas, who will read these words that I write?

.........................................................­­...........

Heaven in a dark place.
Jokers with no face.
Not a moment free yet not a thing to do.
The theif paints his cell walls.
With crushed plants and it falls.
Ivory clouds speckle the sky of blue.
Deep in the brain stem.
A bulb burning light dim.
Wallows the roots of everything once feared.
Blind marchers guiding.
Hunters found hiding.
Messy brigade leaves the ruins cleared.
Time will move on and on and on and on and on you too soon.
By the time your eyes adjust to the sun you'll be seeing the moon.
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291 · May 2016
AAAHHHHHH!!!
NiTSUDD May 2016
Sunlight beaming down
On my small town
But my mind is at it once again.
This feeling aint new
Just thought these days were through
Hello there darkness, my friend.
There's nothing you can say
So please just stay away
Before I burn your bridge as well.
Keep me in a cage
When I have this rage
You don't want to catch this Hell.
289 · Jun 2016
Tainted Tongue
NiTSUDD Jun 2016
Trying to shoot straight
But it may be a waste
For the seeds I have ate
Still leaves aftertaste
289 · Jul 2016
Man Not Kind
NiTSUDD Jul 2016
My head is a fortress of sinful desire
Berated that others are the same as me
I wish they were cool, just I on fire
But we all crave genitalia, violence, greed
They say man is good, deepdown so saintly
But I've known the truth, and i think you do too
A holy being in robes and halo just aint me
But I've just been trying to fit in with all of you
284 · Nov 2016
This Dreadful Waiting
NiTSUDD Nov 2016
Oh I'm so tired of this dreadful waiting
Laying home in bed and *******
With nowhere else to know
And nobody else to know

What's really getting old is aging
With this envy inside me raging
As I wait to start something new
As I'm waiting to get over you

Oh these four walls expand forever
This is an unescapable endeavor
Oh you witch you must feel so clever
But your potion won't last forever

Will it?
...
This dreadful waiting
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