you took my innocence
during that one night of lust
we were both seventeen
the night we made love
and it felt so right
I thought you
were my
soulmate
but I guess
we're all wrong
sometimes in life

Quality friendship time
rolling cigs and
lighting blunts
drinking wine
having fun
living quite a bit
for the hell of it

I love my friends
I love my blunts
I love my ***** shots
and wine glasses
I like laughing loud
and speaking my mind
all while I'm high
and having fun

My friends make life hilarious
they make me smile
when times get rough
I feel so very fine
when I'm here with them
they make me feel okay
when life leads me
the other way

A smile frozen
No sadness there
Time has not broken
We still are not aware


This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

Your temper rises
With the length of my shirt
The bruises are no surprises
As you push me down into the dirt

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

No fight left
Just some  broken bones
I'm to weak to heal this cleft
No where to go; I have lost my home

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

Everyone I've tried to fool
Already knows
All they think is that I'm cruel
They won't listen to my woes

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

They think I pushed you to this
Somehow that I deserve to be beat
I feel like I'm falling into the abyss
I'm so tired of your deceit

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken
  
In the dead of night
With hopes not to find
I began my flight
And started to leave you behind

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

But then the case began
And I started to feel hate so deep within
To you This was all a plan
You grin at my scarred skin

This is just a photograph
A moment taken
Only one time to laugh
Before our love becomes forsaken

No longer will I run
I turn with intent to ****
The time to hide is done
This time it's not for thrill

I .
Will.
****.
You.
DIE.

memories stick around
but they become
easier to ignore
easier than before

your face does still matter
but it's gotten easier
to not always remember
the days we crashed
into a depressing slumber
your eyes are still precious
but I've learned how to cope
and not fall right under
under your spell
like I used to
I guess I can say
that I'm getting
right over you

memories are cherished
but the present isn't
we changed and so much
I cannot stick around
I'm too good enough
I am so much stronger
but I used to be weaker
but clarity made me wiser
we were never meant to be
as a whole, us together

your everything wasn't pure enough
I can't give to someone who always takes
but never seems to give a lot back
I lost so much, went out of my lengths
just to keep your heart beating
just to keep you near me
but this time, I'll be leaving
I hope you'll be good
right here without me
but of course you will be
I am a stranger
you never loved me
but sometimes
I know you do
even though you
never took the chance
to prove your worthyness
sometimes I believe you
and tell myself I'm not over this
but it's time to be moving on
but you'll always be
the one who
took my heart

I found strength
in all the pain that you caused.