So often

all the light outside

is blotted out

by the heart's darkness inside

........but even courage wavers

love is sometimes fearful of its own shadows

        the heart lives in doubt of its purity

this is the very tragedy of humanity

Before you can become

     you'd need to embrace

     and live within the Calm-



    reason has no answer

    the heart tends to wander

    without the Stillness, you'd falter-



    the self and desires must die

    nothingness is the door to bliss

    we are each but a shadow that passes by

We are diminished never

by our any mistake

each does abundantly deliver

a valuable lesson for our take

The past   etched in time's memory

engraved in my mind-scape  

     faces     places

colours.   sounds    smells.   moments



undercurrents of emotions

of feelings

of images

glimpses of joy  

    of sorrow

of laughter

of tears

of love

of tenderness

of resolutions

of doubts

of regrets

of remorse

of loneliness

of what had been

  or could have been

everything had evaporated like dreams



but all seems so dim now     neural debris  

weakening dendrites

the past is but shadows.      an illusion

  a shadow-play  



the essence was then --

most memories have vanished or faded

at the present hour

the past      what are its uses  ?

what are its abuses ?



time measures all          swallows all  



it takes no sides         neither as a friend or foe



the past  I was  

the present I am

the future I don't know

...but don't chide me

   for choosing to be alone

   amidst life's cacophony

   I risk losing my own-



  none shall rob my liberty

  in solitude, seeds of joy I've sown

  closer to understanding life's mystery

  all my doubts and sorrows are gone

I will join you

in laughter

the sky is blue

beautiful is the weather-



lend me your hand

we will walk together

through life's smiling land

in love, joy and wonder