I was stuck without a paddle
In loves pool
My legs grew tired of treading water
My arms became weak and floppy
Like an old mans ****
My hopes of finding land were washed away in the swift currents beneath my feet
I was done for
A goner for sure
But as I was slipping into the deep
With my arms stretched out toward the dying sun above me
Everything went dark
A hand pulled me out
And onto a raft made of wilting roses and dying romance
I glanced into the eyes of my savior
And saw it was you
You pulled me out before I could drown
And when you looked back at me
The roses started to bloom once more
And I realized something both equally horrible and magnificent
That no matter how hard you try to hold on
Sooner or later
Broken hearts mend
And you either move on
Or you sink forever with those rocks in your pocket

You've got three thing to tell me
Get up
Get moving
Get going
And one day I'll reach you

Come see me
Come on over
Come get me
These thing come out of your mouth one after the other
Almost like you say them
To all the boys.....

You're amazing
You're wonderful
You're a real beauty
Keep on building me up, only to keep knocking me down
I'm worse than ruin
Because I won't stop trying
My once wonderful palace of stone and gold
Becomes a castle of wood that's rotted and old

I love you
I want you
I need you
Things I keep expecting to hear or read when you send news my way
I open up my feelings with eager eyes
And let your vague writings fill my damp, tattered and deflated ego
Did you know
I think of you every day
Not of heated nights, with petals and drained champagne
Even walks down the sandy stretch under a mystical night sky
I think of simple moments the most

Please hold me
Please kiss me
Please make the pain go away
These mutterings belong to me
Words I repeat like a cultish chant deeply in throat
Every time I hope I am running through your eclectic mind

So I know you, who's life is faced paced and full
Will never look my way with longing and desire
You won't stay up late summer nights saying my name in your head
You won't even read this sad excuse of a backhanded proclamation of love
Better yet
If this does cross your eyes
And you somehow make it to the end of my rant
You'll still never believe that I'm wailing about YOU

So I've got three more things that I need to say
I love you
I love you
I love you

There are plenty of fish in the sea
That's what they've always told me

Well I've seen those fish
Dark and menacing
Moving through the current
Like a machine
No grace and no style
Their colors bland and murky
Nothing like you

The fish I've been searching for
One of beauty and careful grace
You swim through the deep
Like a ballerinas tear

Each of your scales
A different shade of the sky
From the fires of the set
To the morning blue

There are plenty of fish in the sea
Is what they've always told me
But the only fish for me
Is you

Left foot
Right foot
Back to the daily routine
Up and down this road I go
Wanting to go further
But I don't

Left foot
Right foot
I'm thinking about jumping
Not from a ledge this time
But into your arms
But the distance is too far

Left foot
Right foot
I'm coming to see you
To convince you to take me
So you can finally see
What I'm all about

Left foot
Right foot
You stopped looking my way
I don't think you know
What you do to me

****

I feel the leather plastered to my skin
Strength and power flow through me
My heart is steady
My hands aren't shaking
I'm solid as a rock

My face is hidden
Behind my sense of justice
And I fight
With purpose and drive

Blood doesn't bother me anymore
The warmth is an odd comfort
On these frigid
Romantic nights

Each scar a reminder
Of the journey I started
What seems like eons ago
When I was unmarked and clean

My pages are thin
So many stories left untold
You can't buy me for $2.99
And I don't have a collectors edition

I keep on fighting
The battles that no one else will
They are my mountains to climb
And I'm never coming back down

I could tell you I love you
But where the fun in that?
I'd rather we keep playing this game
The one you don't know we're playing
I could show you the rules
But there aren't any
I could teach you how to play
But I'm a terrible teacher
And even though you are clueless
You are still totally winning
But I'm not a poor sport
And there's a chance that I'll win
That we'll both win
Because you see my dear opponent
I'm pretty good at board games

I need to get new shoes
The laces won't tie because my hands are shaky
I can't even feel these toes because they're freezing
If my chucks weren't meant to be this muddy why would God make it rain?

My hometown told me to hit the road
They even gave me a map
To a place called "*******"
Sounds nice

I gave a homeless man my coat
And he set it on fire
And said
There's more than two ways to skinn a cat!!

I'd give my soul for my dog,
but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't do the same
Makes sense to me
I'm the WORST.

My new best friend keeps asking me to let him go
But he can't leave before the best part!
Because here's when I roll up a twenty-

AND INHALE THROUGH MY NOSE

I gaze at the stars
Bathed in moonlight
The air is crisp
and I'm loving it

My mind starts to wander
Towards my insignificance
How nothing really matters
In the long run

Just as drops of rain
Don't matter
To the daily man
Who's needs are far greater

Then why is it
My love for you
Feels greater than any need
Of any man

There was a story my uncle told me once
About a girl who had more problems than a flower by the highway
He told me she had the name of an animal
But he couldn't remember what one
This girl had a fire inside
That everyone envied
So they called her names and pushed her around
And tried dousing her flames with the waters of doubt
"You can't do that" they would chant
"Try as you might, you'll never be that"
So she left, took the next bus outa town
Packed her bags and followed her dreams
Of making it big, and one day being on the silver screen
She was dead set on rocking their world
By showing them that they couldn't tie her down
She was the hand that was going to shake the world

And if you head east
But not quite to the coast
You can find her out there
Even to this day
Living her life out loud
And making sure that everyone knows it

One stone overturned and I've got a whole quarry to go
Thirty seconds go by and I've still got three life sentences to serve
I've got so much to do with no one to help me
So this goes out to whatever is trying to **** me
You better do a better job next time
Because I'm at my limit

I stared down at my foe
Lying on the dense forest floor
Bloodied and broken
Harsh shallow breaths,
from both parties are the only thing that break the silence
The calm after our bout of champions
I reach down, with my knuckles wounded and wet
And pull his face close to mine
"You want to remember, boy, that I play to win" I say
"Like the scorpion said to the girl as she lay dying
'You knew I was poison when you picked me up'".

Three little boys but one of them is smaller
The other two, the same
The small one is me

I'm not small anymore
The years were kind
But they also tried to **** me
Oh well

That boy, the one on the hard to pronounce road
He wouldn't like me
He'd take one look and refuse to believe that's who he'd turn out to be

The other two boys where are they?
Oh we left them way back, when the pills started poppin'
And the smoke started rising
Because we've got a taste for the finer things

Well did we find love like we always wanted?
Love? No, but a lot of delirious suffering
Tears shed on the ones we wanted
And for the ones that got away

Does anything get better?
Well once you exhale and the white whisps crawl out your mouth
The world shines for a small moment
Before you have to put it out, and strap 'The Man' back onto your feet

Well are we at least happy?
Sure, when the lips form an 'O' downstairs
Or when grass is cheaper than gas
Or when the small marks on our arms start to fade

That all sounds awful, why do we do it?
Because life's a wheel that keeps on turning
And our stop is not for a few more blocks

Everything goes ******* nineteen kid
The days get longer
And the pain gets tougher and tougher
We could learn to fight it
Beat back the pain and become the champion you want
But why do that, when we can just light this here joint
And ignore it all

I've stopped feeling
That's not true
I feel alone.
The roaring flames of my soul
Have been reduced
To dying sparks on the damp ground.
Music is just sounds to me now
And my favorite things
Are now just a simple way
To pass the time..
Until what?
Until I'm happy again?
Until the day I die?....
You might as well ask
A bird why it flies
Or a road where it goes
Because the answers aren't there
As much as I try
I can't find them
So I lay down
With my head towards the sky
And I scream at the heavens
Until I give up
And just die

The room is moving all around me
Walls pushing in and out
Lights become a fairy tale blur
My thoughts are rising into the sky
And I'm falling
Or flying
I don't know if I'm going up or down
But I'm going just the same
Starlight shoots past me
As I race into the abyss
Nothing can stop me now
I'm going too fast
I grasp the hand that's pulling me
And I pull harder
Purple grass
And a thousand suns
A pillar of fear stands before me
Curtains of cosmos fill each window
I hear the voices
Of everyone I've ever known
Singing in harmonic choir
And then it comes
A magnificent yell
From atop the mighty peak
And the voices stop
Time stops
It's time to choose
In or out
Now or never

You lay next to me
When I play my music
And stare up at me
With those big brown eyes

I pause and take a second
To run my hand down your back
And tell you how much I love you

You get excited
And start kissing me all over
I laugh and fall back
And you curl up next to me again

Soft breaths against my forehead
I wake to find you asleep next to me
Gentle sunlight creeps through the window and becomes a third lover in our bed
Your wild hair spilling over your face and onto your pillow like loose gold
The open window letting in the sounds of the early morning day
The city sounds are almost melodic when I'm lying next to you
And then it hits me
Not all at once like a ton of bricks
But like the rising tide, slow and delicate
This is a moment that I would never give up
Not for promises of riches and glory
Or even for my most insane desires
This is a moment that I would be happy to live in
For the rest of my life

Rhythmic guitar notes pulse through my head
I love these songs
And I love the way you smile when I scream though my headphones
You mouth the words to me so I can hear my tunes
And I love you for that

Now you're asleep in my bed
Our day was long, and you're passed out now
So I take pictures of you, and put them all over my room
And you say I'm good with my hands
And I say thanks
Because that's all I know

So call me tomorrow
Call me every **** night
And when you flash your phone through my window, I know it's time to run

Let's go, because I'm sad