You; the roots of all my hurting
The cause of all my suffering;
You are deserving to die!
Within your bashful self
And drowning lies
Just another demon
You deserve to die!
Let me take the great honour
To even help you
I promise I'll stay true to my words
Let me be the tightening
Sharp thorns
That will remove you
From the face of this world
For you deserve to die!
Let me rip
Your cold freezing heart
From the body
I once saw as art
But no more! No more!
I will be the one to rip it off
Your narrow enclosed mind
As useless as your presence!
Undesirable essence!
You deserve to die!
And I will put together
Your mouth
And judgemental eyes
That say nothing but lies
Insults, hatred, and doubts
You deserve to die!
And for all the countless pain
You've brought to me
I will be the one to let you die!
Countless of times
But no! You cannot die just yet!
You must suffer along with your regrets
Undeserving of an end
Nor forgiveness
I curse you!
You deserve to die slowly
Tortured by your own self
Killed by your wrath
Within the darkest
Of the most evil world
Over and over and over again!
And some may say
I'm full of anger and fear
But I swear, oh I swear!
I will not stop 'till you disappear!

*-djs

He; who's as broken as can be
Justifies as one to ease me
Whose goal has always been to flee
He; whose life's shattered apart
Makes me look forward for a new start
Whose mind wanders from darkness to art
He; who with a deadly heart a stoic stare
Rescued me from a world of despair
Who stays emotionless to be fair
He; who was naive and truthful
Fixed me and thought I was beautiful
Who but classified the earth only as dull

Me; whom he trusted and loved on his own
Abandoned and sabbotaged and left him all alone
And for that I deserve to die within these stones

-djs

An albatross around my neck
Carrying my guilt my burden
O, am I yet a wreck?
Blame me, blame me!
For I am in fault
Mistaken disastrously!
My luck my love have abandoned me
Left all alone, deserted
Stranded and unwanted by many
Everywhere there's chance! There's chance!
To change to live for blessings
There's chance! A chance for my penance!
Yet all that surrounds me
Full of bliss and love and happiness
But I still cannot have a taste of any
My biggest sin still lingers here
Haunting me
Filling me with fear!
Taking its revenge on me
One by one leaving its foot marks
Slowly but surely, successfully!
O dear, o dear heavens!
Where am I to find hope?
Have I been completely forsaken?
O dear heavens, hear me out!
I am not deserving but please oh please
Do I have to scream, yell, or shout?
Please say, what am I to do?
Put entity back to where it used to be
Or even sacrifice myself for thee?

*-djs

losing my mind like before
my heart's going blind to mourn
no room for more!
closing its door,
filled with fear and horror
sounds in my head ashore?
not my voice but yours?
as every part of me sores
making its way to my core
ruining my spores
my insanity roars!
and the madness pours!
and the pain explores!
stop! i can't take it anymore!
i promised i'll be fine, i swore
to you over and over some more
but what can i do it's uncalled for?
my sickness takes the score
i'm destroyed and unhappy and more!
what is there to adore?

*-djs