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I tread the wrong path
made many mistakes
and each turning trail
I found myself lost...
I left part of my life
in the lips of lies
and I'm stuck...
So with aching heart
like crimson cards
packed with silent cries
I hope she at least
hears my sorries.

Try a little harder,
think a little smarter
because happily ever after
doesn't happen overnight.
Disney fed us fairy tales
of following fairy trails
to places where everything
will be alright
but beautiful things,
they don't happen overnight.

Let yourself know 'you'll be alright'
hold your head up high,
keep marching on that field
because you are soldier
and I don't know what Disney sold you
but you'll have to make your own miracles.

You start it all with just a spark
the mimicry of beating hearts
that casts away sight of star.
You start of as a small light
that caught ignition by ignited
spirits muddled in chemistry.
You raise yourself higher
hoping that flames alight skies
as the skyward gleams off
the clouds.
You brace yourself with
the burning self doubt
and the hatred impaled
towards your own soul.
So burn yourself hotter
try to light yourself brighter
because the hotter you burn
the faster you fade
and in your final wake,
know that someone
will slowly but surely
take your place.

I knew him, not too long ago, I knew him.
The fixture of his hair, the navy striped suit
that sat against his bed that went by never worn,
though his eyes, they lit a fire like a firefly
that only ever seemed to get brighter before
a backdrop of the dark starry night.
I knew him, not too long ago, I knew him.
The smile from cheek to cheek that was present
yet missing behind closed curtains, as though
it took a catalyst of childish laughters to bring
about that stretching of muscles.

I knew him once, not too long ago,
when I was much younger.
I revisit him from time to time
and as time have progressed his
tired face faded yet left in his place
a tiny stone that read:
"here lies a father, a brother"
but my eyes, they scramble the words
and all I could ever see will be

"Here lies my father. Someone I-
wish I had known better".

As long as you are by my side
My future is in rainbows
and my past is black and white
because only the colours
we see in the world, matter.
All that is dreary and drab
is left behind.

She's the morning sun
mourning her one only son
of what night instills.

My lover's eyes
have not yet met mine
But oh how alive
we both felt in the night.
If her smiles are the kisses
of sweet dreams
then why must there be blisters
where her lips did touch mine.
If her heart and soul
both stand the pure
then why must she and I
stand alone and apart.
If my lover did call my name
tell her I did not exist
for a heart as sweet as venom
died in a blistered kiss.

I spent the night gazing at you
Rather than the illumination of stars,
And though everything was cold to the touch
Your flesh and embrace kept me warm.

I studied the contours of your face for hours
It all felt so familiar yet so peculiarly new
Like a baby bird flying to a higher branch
Of an otherwise acquainted tree.

The stars, they faded that night,
Not by the outshone city lights
But by the immersive beauty
That was you.

The night came close to an abominable end
And though time was cruel, I had hoped,
That forever together it did bind and hold us-
On the night of the Winter Solstice.

They called her 'rosy cheeks'
because her tears fed a garden
of roses that only ever blossomed
by a kiss that never arrived.

They called her 'rosy cheeks'
because as roses wilt in the winter,
the cold snow froze over her soul
as she spent another winter alone.

It's hard enough that we're so far away
But we can't even seem to say what we want to say.
And
Maybe I'm digging up old hurt
But somedays it seems better to pray in a hearse.

It's hard enough that we're oceans apart
But we can't even seem to imprint tattoos on our hearts
And
Maybe the right waves haven't pulled us together
But I know in your arms, things will be better.

Decisions Decisions
Just you and me
Decisions Decisions
dragging our feet
Decisions Decisions
Burying deep beneath
Decisions Decisions
deep down I weep
Decisions Decisions
Trying to bury me.

Don't try to rewind,
Your time is in a line.
Just forget your mistakes
And simply press play.

Sometimes you give your best
to the worst,
the people who hurt
you the most,
Sometimes you just have to
deal with the fact
that they are never coming back.

So hold out your light
I want to be by your side
guide me to your life.

"We'll let him live"* they said,
"We'll just...
break his neck,
break his heart
make him fall apart,
watch as he cries
gets on his knees
pleads to the skies
wishing that it was over,
but we'll just let him live"

'Til he is more dead than alive...

Sometimes pretending it doesn't hurt
Only makes what you feel, worse.
Sometimes hiding it behind a smile
Is the only reminder that you're alive.
Sometimes the hardest part of a broken heart
Is wishing you weren't who you are.
Sometimes the shattered heart
sits and stares at the shooting stars.
Sometimes they wish for a thousand different things
But each one merely a memory of you.

Sometimes maybe giving up
Isn't saying 'I've had enough'
But saying 'I wished for an us
And my wishes didn't come true'.

Sometimes, two people love
And yet it isn't ever enough.

I promise you,
Scars will heal
So don't be scared
To just feel.
If you stumble,
Fall apart
I'll pick you up,
my bright star.

It does not take a statistician
To find evidence of an apparition
It merely takes a blind man
Willing to dream.

Head up, chest out, pretend that I can stay strong
Watch the world murmur as I continue to play along.
I look around and the light I once bathed in...
has been long gone.