Laughter,
is the best medicine for a broken heart.

Making you my pharmacist.
Laughter fighting pain.

You're different,
with your blonde hair
and blue eyes.

You're laughter isn't driven by lust

I think you might actually care.

Please me different.
Please be kind.
Never fragile or otherwise.

Please don't break me apart,
I can't live through another one of those.

Numbers.
Dates.
That's all people are.

Births.
Deaths.

Expiration dates.

We all expire.
different dates.

deaths incommon.

Numbers
Figures
Equations

Expiration Date.

        ER.

Memories,
are confusing
are not kind
are fleeting.

Memories,
are painful.
I forgot your touch.
I forgot your kiss.
Your face.
Your smile.

Then I saw you.
Exchanged a knowing smile.

They all came back.
The good times.
The bad times.
The times when I thought I was completely in love.

in lust.

So when I say,
Memories are hard.

believe me.

                ER.

Mom,
I'm sorry.

I can't help it.
I just don't think.
I get so angry.
I say things
that no one should say.

You
have given up everything for me
You
raised me on your own

Mom
Im sorry
I'll change
Give me time

One day,
we'll look back
and laugh.

I promise.

Don't give up on me mommy.

I'm changing.
I'm just not there yet.

The thing is,
people change.

Every morning we awake to a new sky
Every day we are greeted by a new breeze

New.

Everyday you meet yourself again.
and again.

I met you again today.
You weren't the same.

Tall
Skinny
Lanky
Bags under your eyes.

You looked worn
not new.
Not like you've just met yourself.

You looked old
worn
dying

dead.



      ER.

Two lives
can they co exist as one?

No.
What a silly question.

Two worlds
different in nature
in interaction
can
not.

Never.

And that's the truth
End of.
Nothing more
Nothing less

And the problem is
that you already no this.

Yet you still cannot let go of one
because you're afraid.

Afraid of
drugs
school
emotions

So instead of choosing one
you're up till 4 am
dealing with
a mind
a sick
brain
quite literally.

I set you free
Don't you realize that?
silly boy
stupid.

I released you from my grip
I let you experience your life to the fullest
I changed it for the better

What a tragedy it would've been
If I would've kept pretending
Lying
Playing make believe
Telling you that I love you as much as you loved me

Im sorry
You're broken

I'm sorry
I'm broken

I can't fix you
When there's no one to fix me.